C70: Letting it all out
I Remember You
Jin Young's POV:
"You deserve to go after your dream like I get to do mine…” I trailed off; I really didn’t know what else to say.
Looking at the calendar on her study desk “How much time do we have left?” I asked.
“I’m leaving after the first week of January” She answered. "Spring Classes begin at the mid of the month..."
*She’s answering me!* I perked up a little at her response.
“But that only leaves us November and December!!” I counted the days and felt sad again.
“It is true about the debut?” Jin Kyung asked quietly, still refusing to look at me.
“Yes, it is” I answered her.
“Congratulations” She murmured, reaching to touch my hand.
Enveloping her hand in mine.
I kissed the back of her hand, smiling when I saw a light pink slowly tinting her cheeks.
“Can I have a kiss?” I asked daringly.
“No” Jin Kyung retracted her hand and backed away “I haven’t forgiven you entirely yet”
“Not yet but soon you will” I inched closer to her.
“Y-Yah I’m warning you Jin Young, s-stay away o-or else I-I” she stammered cutely like how she usually does.
“You what Jin Kyung?” I closed in on her as she reached the corner. “What will you do?” I whispered as I leaned down resting my forehead against shoulder.
Jin Kyung shied away when I lifted my head to press my lips against her warm cheeks.
Slowly, hesitantly putting my arms around her. Unsure if its because I haven't held her like this in a long time, Jin Kyung shakes and tremble in my arms as she cries.
The reason for her tears most likely the same as mine. Of how thingd feel like it's too warm, too comforting and too familiar... The way my arms wrap around Jin Kyung's frame and how she fits in my arms.
And in less than 90 days...I won't be able to hold her like this whenever I want. She won't be a few doors down from my house and I won't be able to walk her home after classes ends.
"Doing this won't make me forgive you any quicker" she said in between her sniffs.
"I know..." I sighed. Tightening my arms around her. "I just want to hold you in my arms like this" the knowledge of her leaving makes me want to imprint every single thing about her deeply in my mind.
Hearing her murmur in agreement, I buried my face in the crook of her neck while Jin Kyung's arms find it's way around me.
The feel of her hair mixing with mine reminds me of the way her hair is messy when she wakes up, how her eyes light up the moment she sees me and the smile that she gives as she hurries over to me.
Whatever fatigue or tiredness that I initially have, seem so small when I'm with her.
These thing don't exactly disappear but when I'm with Jin Kyung, it's as if it takes the back seat and my entire mind is filled with her.
Staying that way for awhile I felt that there was something else that I needed to tell her.
"What is it?" Jin Kyung asks in return.
"It won't be easier for me to trust your words" I stated my own wound that I ended up with after all this.
"I'm sorry for not telling you this news earlier..." Jin Kyung said quietly, her hands wrapping themselves tighter around me.
The only sound in the room was of the light humming of the house's heating system, the sounds of us breathing and the steady beats of our heart.
Shaking her head as if to shake her thoughts in order "I wanted to tell you on so many different occasions but I keep chickening out of it...I couldn't bring myself to say it..."
Jin Kyung's hand clutched my shirt as she said fearfully "I-I was so scared that things might end between us. That you might come to hate me again. That this time, you would never come to forgive me...I can't count the nights I fell asleep crying, thinking that you'd never want to see me again"
Hushing her gently "Sshhh, don't think about that kind of things" I shifted my hand to the crown of her head.
Gently patting her head as we sat there on her bed. Neither one of us wanting to leave as we let out everything once again. Like the night when I found out who she was...we poured our hearts out for each other, telling each other what we kept to ourselves in the past year.
It was a difficult task, there was a reason why we keep things to ourselves in the first place. The sharing wasn't without tears from us but neither of us wanted what we had to end.
If we wanted our relationship to work in the future, to last. We needed to come clean with everything.
Knowledge hurts but ignorance could potentially kill whatever we had left.
"Do you think that our relationship can go long distance?" Jin Kyung quietly asks as we laid down in her bed, pulling the covers over us. We had spent hours of our morning talking and it was already well into the afternoon. We were so emotionally tired, it didn't matter if it was still daylight outside.
"We have to make it work" I answer while looking into her brown eyes that was a warm shade of chocolate. "We'll find a way...I'm sure of it"
Blushing like her usual self, snuggled closer to me asking "How do you feel about debuting?"
"Nervous yet excited at the same time" I smile. "I like the feeling that I get when I stand on stage with the guys but at the same time, I'm nervous if they'll like us and our music"
"I'm sure they'll love ShinWoo, Baro, Sandeul and GongChan" she leaves my name out.
"What about me?" I raise an eyebrow at her.
"I don't care if they love you or not." She huffs and puffs her cheeks.
"Either way you're mine!" Jin Kyung suddenly exclaims and clings tightly to my body.
Registering her words in my mind. I broke out laughing at her adorable declaration.
"Don't laugh at me!" She whines in embarrassment. I can see the tips of her ears go red.
"Yes, yes, all of me belongs to you" I kiss the top of her head. "My cute erted fox of a girlfriend " Considering that it's the only part of her that I can reach.
"Hey! I don't have small eyes and I'm not a ert!" She protests and hits me lightly on the arm.
"Well, you're dating a erted fox so it makes you one as well." I explain before leaning down to reach her ear whispering "Also...the only way I can get baby foxes is if Mama is a fox like Papa"
Feeling her heat up and the scarlet returning to the tip of her ears, I chuckle at Jin Kyung's redness. It's always entertaining to watch her reaction to the things I say, especially when it requires having .
"Stop laughing at me" She complains.
"I will if you give me a kiss" I answer back.
"You are really such a erted fox" I hear her say in mock anger.
Playing along and teasing her even more "You're the bigger one for dating me in the first place"
Beet red and in shock, Jin Kyung's mouth hung agape at what I said.
"What the matter Jagiya? Cat got your tongue?" I cooed at her ear. "You're not even denying what I said about you being a bigger ert."
"Perhaps...you really are one!" I cross my hands over my chest dramatically to protect myself.
"Maybe..." I hear Jin Kyung murmur. Her face was still red as her eyes were downcast.
Looking at her in confusion, I jumped a little when she suddenly stared into mine.
"I said, maybe I really am the bigger ert" Jin Kyung admits while she slides closer as I unknowingly back away from her.
Hooking her leg around me, I was stopped from moving backwards and pinned underneath by Jin Kyung as her body hovers over me.
"All these things that you say..." She lowers herself on her elbows and aligns her hips to mine. Leaning so close until her lips brushes the curves of my ears, whispering "Your words really embarrass me but at the same time, it's so exciting to hear and it makes me feel so warm all over..."
Jin Kyung's breath tickles and sent shivers down my spine while my heart runs on overdrive.
"Why so quiet Jin Young?" She says mockingly.
Hands trailing down my own and interlacing our fingers. The way she's hovering over me shows me so much, I don't know where to place my eyes.
The loose and baggy shirt that she's wearing hangs under her and exposes her smooth chest along with her cute black with pink laced bra...
Aish! Where am I staring!
I need to look away!
"How does it feel when the roles are reversed?" Jin Kyung asked as she rests on me fully.
Her soft curves pressed against my chest is making it hard for me to think.
Not to mention her hips that are over mine...I'm sure that she's ignoring my growing problem as much as I'm trying to. Seeing how there's a permanent flush of red on her cheeks.
"Honestly?" I asked, earning a simple nod from her.
Smirking in my mind, I pushed Jin Kyung off of me and pinned her down to the bed.
"It was thrilling Jagiya..." I bent down similarly like she did to me and teasing her by aligning my hips to hers.
Whispering in a low and husky manner. "But I prefer being on top when it comes to these things" causing her to really gasp in surprise as I watched her cheeks and ears turn a deep shade of red.
"AHHHH!!! JIN YOUNG IS A REALLY BIG ERT!!! SOMEONE SAVE ME!!!!" She screamed comically as she flailed about trying to push me away.
"I'M GLAD THE TWO OF YOU MADE UP HONEY BUT DEAL WITH IT! HE'S YOUR FUTURE HUSBAND!" I heard Soo Omma yelling from somewhere in the house.
"I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU SAID THAT OMMA! Jin Kyung yells back.
"BELIEVE IT HONEY! I KNOW THAT YOU'RE THE BIGGER ERT BETWEEN THE TWO OF YOU!"
Her jaw hanging wide open, Jin Kyung looks like she's frozen in shock while I rolled off of her and doubled over in laughter.
"Stop laughing!" She complained. "I can't believe she actually said that!" Jin Kyung rolled up into a ball under her covers hiding like a hermit crab.
Sincerely trying to stop, I ended up bursting out in laughter and clutching my stomach because I was laughing too hard.
"I give up...call me when you're done laughing" She huddled the covers tighter around her.
Really laughing it out. I'm glad at the happy memories that we're making.
Every moment is more precious now that I know the remaining amount of days left.
Annyeong dear readers~
I think I've made you cry enough and this chapter has quite a bit of fluff in it :3 I'm loving Jin Kyung's Omma like always, her character is so fun to write~ that and I had fun writing it from Jin Young's perspective XD
with love,
violynn (130309 ; 6:00 am)
I'm soo sorry for the long wait guys~ Here's the chapter that you've been waiting for ^^
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