“Stop this” I cried. My voice broken as my knees went weak.

It tore me up to see that I hurt Jin Young this way. That I’m the reason that he’s in this much pain right now. I’m the cause for the tears he’s shedding, that I’m the one that’s causing him to break.

Sliding to the floor I held my face in my hands as tears poured out from my eyes as well. Bringing my knees to my chest “I’m sorry” I said repeatedly like a broken tape.

“I-I’m sorry f-for being the re-reason to your t-tears” I said between sobs “I’mm sorry for c-causing s-so much p-pain. I’m s-sorry for b-being the reason to your u-unhappiness for the p-past four years… I’m sorry f-for hurting y-you in so many ways. I’m sorry…I’m so so sorry” I apologised. The guilt felt so unbearable. The guy that is breaking in front of me is my fault…

“I-I’m sorry” I cried as I fought to keep my hands from being pulled away from my face. I didn’t want him to see me crying so horrendously. “I’m sorry” I whimpered, feeling Jin Young pulling my hands away from me.

“Enough” I hear Jin Young whisper. “It’s enough” he said even softer.

But I couldn’t control myself anymore; my mind was running on auto-pilot. “I’m sorry” I shook my head as I went on apologising.

“I’m sor –” I got cut off in midsentence. Jin Young’s lips were on mine…my mind registered it a few seconds later.

His firm lips pressed against mine…

I squirmed, I wanted out but I couldn’t move. Jin Young held my hands in place against the wall ever since he brought my hands away from me since just now.

Tears streamed out from my eyes in confusion. Jin Young’s kiss was so gentle, filled with passion and even love. Looking at him through my blurry eyes filled with tears after he ended the kiss, I saw his lips coming closer to my eyes. Closing them in reflex. I felt his lips on my eyelids.

He was kissing my eyelids…

I gasped when I felt his cool tongue on my eyelid, slowly the tears away. When my tears were gone, he kissed my eyelids for a second time.

“Don’t cry” He whispered as he rested his forehead against mine. Breathing deeply, I mumbled a response as I tried to keep my tears in check.

“Please..." he said gently, loosening his grip on my hands. Enveloping his hands over mine, giving me his warmth. "Just tell me why...”

Taking a shaky breath, I poured out the painful memory for the first time.