"Just what are you doing right now?" My friend Henry asked me.

"Nothing. You know just like the usual." I answered and we continued walking inside the building

"Nothing? You know what Am. I dont get you. You are smart but-" I interrupted him knowing what he will say next.

"We still seeing each other bro. I cant help it. Its just... Ughhh I cant even explain how I feel." I answered hanging my head low.

"Am stop that as soon as possible. She is not a good thing bro."

"But I dont have something to keep me occupied."

"Find some girls. Or better review our subjects. Do something else."

"You know I dont have to review things."

"But I hate to see you like this bro. God that haven't learned her lessons yet."

"Yah! Dont call her that!"

"Why? Are you together? Am you know you are one of the top students yet you are being stupid just for that girl. Okay. I know she is smart and all but you see this is too much."

"Bro I will stop as soon as I gave her the last drop."

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10 pm, my room

*1 message received*

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

Hey Am. I'm going home now.

To: Krystal Jung Soojung

Oh? Be safe okay?

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

Am, Im afraid

To: Krystal Jung Soojung

Of what?

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

Nothing. Okay sleep now. Good night

Aishhh this girl. She is really a complicated girl

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The next day

*1 message received*

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

morning Am, I am sad 😞

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

I miss you

To: Krystal Jung Soojung

Oh? Why? Must be the weather. Hey dont sulk there. Good morning pretty girl

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

Im afraid Am.

There she goes again.

To: Krystal Jung Soojung

Yah!!! If you are afraid what more am I?

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

Wae?

To: Krystal Jung Soojung

The feeling of being left behind

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

Ditto

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

Soon I'll be on my own. I can imagine myself now.

To: Krystal Jung Soojung

You wont be alone. You are not like me who is stuck up. You are better than I am so please be happy.

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

I dont have the guts. I just feel that I am the one who is stuck.

To: Krystal Jung Soojung

No you arent. Dont be sad or afraid. You are a nice woman. You got almost everything. You are not some cray cray clinging to your ex and saying I love yous with no reply. Look at the brighter side. You are an independent girl

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

I shared my life with you once and now I feel like I will change half of my life. I used to be independent until I met you,

To: Krystal Jung Soojung

You have to get used to it. Cause for me I think I am gonna get tired of running after you. 4 years is no joke of running you know hahahaha. I dont mind doing it again but the gap is growing bigger. I cant take it anymore when my friends call me stupid for this.

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

I know. I just dont know if I am holding you back.

To: Krystal Jung Soojung

If you feel that way then you should just tell me you dont like me anymore. Maybe that will wake me up from keeping my hopes high in getting you back.

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

I want to be normal Am but I am happy when I am with you. What will I do with being normal if I am not happy?

To: Krystal Jung Soojung

Know what they say? If you found a slice of cake delicious but some says its disgusting, are you still willing to finish it off to your heart's content or just mind what other people say about that cake?

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

I dont know Am. Im confused. Im sorry

To: Krystal Jung Soojung

You still want me do you?

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

Yes

To: Krystal Jung Soojung

But being normal means no Amber Liu for you? Crazy world we live in right? Hahahaha can we just let ourselves get fed up with our love? Me loving you until the last drop or until someone realizes my worth?

From: Krystal Jung Soojung

I dont think I cant get enough of this.

Ughhh I dont know what to reply. ty messages early in the morning. I just hope that after this. Just a little bit more and I'll be over her. Cause honestly I dont know what to do anymore.

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