15 My Heart
So Sweet, So Simple[Gikwang's POV]
"Wake up!" Doojoon shakes my shoulder. "It's almost 6!"
I open my eyes slowly. I'm still feeling really sleepy right now. Doojoon pulls the blanket away from me and I shiver because of the cold weather.
It's raining outside.
"You better wake up or we're going to leave you," he threatens me.
I rub my head after he left my room. Today is Valentine Day. We will have a recording for a ballad song this morning at 7 AM. I reach my phone and find out that there is nothing on the screen so I quickly stand up and make my way to the bathroom.
Looks like I'm the only one who hasn't get ready. Hyunseung is drinking a cup of coffee, sitting on the sofa next to Dongwoon. Yoseob is texting something with his phone, probably opening his Twitter as usual. Doojoon and Junhyung are reading papers of our lyrics.
"It's raining," Junhyung looks through the window. "What a coincidence."
I smirk because I know what he meant. Our song title is On Rainy Days.
[Sora's POV]
I cover my mouth with my right hand so no one will notice that I'm yawning. Luckily they are busy with preparation for the recording.
We arrived at the recording studio a little after 7. It's still raining outside and it's really cold, even though we're indoor right now.
I've done preparing for Valentine Day present for them last night. One night was not enough for me to make it as perfect as possible. Yes, I'm a perfectionist.
"Sora," Gikwang walks to me. I am preparing my DSLR to take their pictures when he takes off his black jacket and puts it on my shoulder.
"It's really cold," he smiles and goes back to the other members. They are teasing him for being such a gentleman. He is a really gentle big brother.
[Yoseob's POV]
Gikwang gives his jacket to Sora and returns to his place. Doojoon and Hyunseung give him devil smirks while Junhyung whistles around. Gikwang shakes his head and tells us to get ready.
I look at Sora who is wearing double jackets right now, her own gray jacket and Gikwang's black jacket. He's right, it is really cold now even though they have turned off the air conditioner.
"Ready," Doojoon gives a sign.
We nod and I can see that Sora takes her position to take pictures. I close my eyes, trying to sync myself with the music.
Doojoon starts the first line of the song,
"Sesangi eoduwojigo
Joyonghi biga naerimyeon
Yeojeonhi geudaero"
When the world turns dark
And the rain quietly falls
Everything is still
When the world turns dark
And the rain quietly falls
Everything is still
I'm still closing my eyes, preparing for my part, but I can hear Gikwang sings his line,
"Oneuldo eogimeobsi nan
Beoseonajil motane
Neoui saenggak aneseo"
Even today, without a doubt
I can’t get out of it
I can’t get out from the thoughts of you
Even today, without a doubt
I can’t get out of it
I can’t get out from the thoughts of you
It's my part now, I've remembered the lines,
"Ije
Kkeuchiraneun geol aljiman
Miryeoniran geol aljiman
Ije anil geol aljiman"
Now
I know that it’s the end
I know that it’s all just foolishness
Now I know that it’s not true
Now
I know that it’s the end
I know that it’s all just foolishness
Now I know that it’s not true
Hyunseung continues,
"Geukkajit jajonsime neol japji motaetdeon naega
jogeum aswiul ppuninikka"
I am just disappointed in myself for
Not being able to get a hold of you because of that pride
I am just disappointed in myself for
Not being able to get a hold of you because of that pride
I shiver a little because of the coldness but I start singing the refrain along with Doojoon,
"Biga oneun naren nareul chajawa
Bameul saewo goerophida
Biga geuchyeogamyeon neodo ttaraseo
Seoseohi jogeumssik geuchyeogagetji"
On the rainy days you come and find me
Torturing me through the night
When the rain starts to stop, you follow
Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well
On the rainy days you come and find me
Torturing me through the night
When the rain starts to stop, you follow
Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well
[Gikwang's POV]
I open my eyes and hear Junhyung is rapping now,
"Chwihaenna bwa geuman masyeoya doel geot gatae
Biga tteoreojinikka nado tteoreojil geot gatae
Mwo nega bogo sipdageona geureon geon anya
Daman uriga gajin sigani jom nalkaroul ppun
Nega cham johahaesseotdeon ireon narimyeon
Ajik neomu saengsaenghan gieogeul kkeonaenoko
Chueogiran deoche ilbureo bareul deullyeonwa
Beoseonaryeogo balbeodungjocha chiji anha"
I must be drunk, I think I need to stop drinking
Since the rain is falling, I think I might fall as well
Well this doesn’t mean that I miss you, no it doesn’t mean that
It just means that the time we had together was a bit sharp
When it’s the type of day that you really liked
I keep opening the raw memories of you
Making the excuse that it’s all memories, I take a step forward
I don’t even make the effort to escape
I must be drunk, I think I need to stop drinking
Since the rain is falling, I think I might fall as well
Well this doesn’t mean that I miss you, no it doesn’t mean that
It just means that the time we had together was a bit sharp
When it’s the type of day that you really liked
I keep opening the raw memories of you
Making the excuse that it’s all memories, I take a step forward
I don’t even make the effort to escape
Dongwoon is closing his eyes when he sings his part,
"Ije
Neoreul da jiwonaetjiman
Modu da biwonaetjiman
Ttodasi biga naerimyeon"
Now
I erased all of you
I emptied out all of you
But when the rain falls again
Now
I erased all of you
I emptied out all of you
But when the rain falls again
We have practiced singing our own parts before this recording. It is a really sad song. A song of broken-hearted man in the middle of rainy day.
I try to put myself as if I'm in broken-hearted state and sing my lines,
"Himdeulge sumgyeonwatdeon neoui
Modeun gieokdeuri
Dasi dorawa neol chatna bwa"
All the memories of you I hid with effort
It all comes back, it must be looking for you
All the memories of you I hid with effort
It all comes back, it must be looking for you
Yoseob is doing really well with his vocal, he closes his eyes to get the right feeling; he always do that. Doojoong sings along with him,
"Biga oneun naren nareul chajawa
Bameul saewo goerophida
Biga geuchyeogamyeon neodo ttaraseo
Seoseohi jogeumssik geuchyeogagetji"
On the rainy days you come and find me
Torturing me through the night
When the rain starts to stop, you follow
Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well
On the rainy days you come and find me
Torturing me through the night
When the rain starts to stop, you follow
Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well
I sing one word as my part and Yoseob completes the next part before Hyunseung sings his lines,
"Neoegero
Ijen doragal gireun eobtjiman
Jigeum haengbokhan neoreul bomyeo"
(To you)
Now there is no path for me to return
But looking at your happy face
(To you)
Now there is no path for me to return
But looking at your happy face
[Sora's POV]
I take pictures of each member, one by one when they're singing their lines. Even when I'm focusing with my work, I can't help myself listening closely to the song.
I can hear the falling rain outside, it syncs perfectly with their voices. The song is really sad and somehow gives me an emotional vibe.
Dongwoon sings his lines with amazing vocal,
"Nan geuraedo useobolge
Neol jabeul su isseotdeon
Himi naegen eobseosseunikka"
I will still try to laugh
since I was the one
Without the strength to stop you
I will still try to laugh
since I was the one
Without the strength to stop you
I focus my camera to Yoseob because he is singing his lines with Doojoon accompanies him,
"Biga oneun naren nareul chajawa
Bameul saewo goerophida
Biga geuchyeogamyeon neodo ttaraseo
Seoseohi jogeumssik geuchyeo gagetji"
On the rainy days you come and find me
Torturing me through the night
When the rain starts to stop, you follow
Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well
On the rainy days you come and find me
Torturing me through the night
When the rain starts to stop, you follow
Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well
By the last click on my camera, I notice a single tear escape his eyes. Yoseob is crying after he finished his last line.
I move my camera away while Junhyung raps,
"Eochapi kkeutnabeorin geol ije wa eojjeogesseo
Dwineutge huhoena haneun geoji deoltteoreojin Nomcheoreom
Bineun hangsang onikka gyesok banbokdoegetji
Geuchigo namyeon geujeseoya nado geuchigetji
Bineun hangsang onikka gyesok banbokdoegetji
Geuchigo namyeon geujeseoya nado geuchigetji"
What can I do about something that already ended?
I’m just regretting after like the stupid fool I am
Rain always falls so it will repeat again
When it stops, that’s when I will stop as well
Rain always falls so it will repeat again
When it stops, that’s when I will stop as well
Gikwang is wiping away his tears and Doojoon is looking at the ceiling, holding his tears. Hyunseung sighs while Dongwoon is biting his lower lip.
The music is over. The only sound we can hear is the rain, falling from the sky and hitting the earth.
[Yoseob's POV]
"Thank you," I accept the bottle of water from Sora. We've finished the recording for the song. I noticed that all of the members have cried when we're recording the song. We're being too emotional, eh?
Something about this song is so special. The rain adds up the emotional atmosphere around us. This song is a sweet ballad with the rap part composed by Junhyung himself. The rain really accentuate the feeling of sorrow emphasized in the song.
We need to record it multiple times because we couldn't hold back our tears. The first one is actually good enough but we can hear our sobbing voice in the middle of the recording.
I drink the water and lean to the sofa. I can feel that Sora takes a seat next to me while I'm closing my eyes.
We need to record it multiple times because we couldn't hold back our tears. The first one is actually good enough but we can hear our sobbing voice in the middle of the recording.
I drink the water and lean to the sofa. I can feel that Sora takes a seat next to me while I'm closing my eyes.
To my surprise, I can feel a soft touch on my forehead. Sora is moving my hair away from closing my eyes.
Her fingers are cold even though she is already wearing double jackets. I open my eyes and she is surprised because I suddenly turn to look at her face and move backward.
I'm blushing now. This is totally surprising her. I was the one who always made her blushed but I'm blushing because of her now.
I'm really shy when it comes to girls. Really. Sure I can do some jokes and flirtations sometimes but those are not serious. I can do cute couple acts in front of camera but those are for works.
The other members are too busy with the lyrics of our next song so they don't pay attention to us.
Ah, she looks apologetic. She is feeling guilty.
[Sora's POV]
He pulls away from me right after he opened his eyes. I don't mean to surprise him away. Something inside me made me do that.
He looks sad after singing that song, as if he is feeling pain. Compared with the last seven songs they've recorded, this one is the longest to finish with. But what makes me really shocked is his blushed cheeks.
Why is he blushing?
"I'm sorry," I mutter. "I'm being so sassy, am I?"
"It's not like that," he cups his own face with his hands, trying to warm up his cheek with his cold hands. "Don't be sorry for it."
I don't believe his words but as if he can read my mind, he moves closer to me and does the same thing I did to him; he touches my left cheek, moving my hair and puts them behind my left ear. He trails over my hair and kiss it.
He lets go of my hair, noticing that I am blushing madly because of him. He stuck out his tongue playfully, "We're getting even."
"Let's continue," Doojoon tells s to get back to their position.
Yoseob stands up to walk to his position. As if he forgets something, he steps back slowly and gives me his white scarf he put around his neck.
He puts it around my neck and bows closer so he can whisper something to me,
"Now you have one of my gloves and my scarf, my lady."
He winks quickly to me before taking his place and continue the recording; none of the members noticed about what he did to me because they're too busy with practicing their own parts.
Oh my, I can't stop blushing. He was whispering way too close to my ear. My heart is beating rapidly because of him.
I clutch the scarf and whisper to myself, "It's not the scarf that makes me feel warmer."
I shake my head and take my DSLR, ready to work again.
Gosh, how can he make me feel this way so easily?
It's not good for my heart to beat so fast like this too often.
The music starts.
The recording has started.
I try to bring back myself down to earth, focusing my camera to them.
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