동해Donghae

So this is it, I’ve asked manager hyung to cancel all my schedule just so I could go to Mokpoto visit mom. I have to tell her about our break up, if not, I know that she’d definitely freak out.

The day before, I had a plan on how I would like to stop Hyun Ae from getting to a plane going to Japan, but it seems like nothing would work. She never even left me a message or anything, so I guess she really didn’t plan on keeping her words especially when she said that she’d want us to be friends.

I’m so stupid in just letting her go like that, and now I’m not so sure if I even did the right thing. Damn it. Hyun Ae, you’re being hard headed again and you’re being impulsive. Why can’t you just stay in Korea?

Also, the members don’t have any idea that I went here… I needed to breathe and I didn’t want them to know that I’m having second thoughts with regards to the decision I’ve made.

“So what brings you here? The last time you went here without even informing me was your break up with Hyun Ae a couple of years back…” Umma started as she sat on my bed.

“Umma….” I started, “there’s something I have to tell you…”

“I know, Hyun Ae and you broke up… more like she broke up with you.”

“Ho—“

“Jungsoo told me, and believe me I’m still not sure how it happened. Did you do something to piss her off?” her voice was getting louder slightly, indicating that she was getting pissed now.

“It’s not that umma… aish, Jungsoo hyung, what else did they tell you?”

“Nothing, just the two of you broke up… what happened?”

I made sure to breathe deeply three time before finally telling her everything, including the miscarriage and how I found out about it.

“Aigoo… supposedly I have a grandchild now?”mom’s face fell even more. “Look Donghae, it’s not her fault that she had a miscarriage…” she started.

“I know umma, but she could’ve just told me.”

“What difference will it make if she told you? The two of you already broke up and it doesn’t give her the right to tell you anyt