- 동해 Donghae –

Too much alcohol created a buzzing sound in my head.

Seeing Hyun Ae again made me feel like I was about to lose my mind again, she acts like I’m just one of her acquaintances.

Is she really over me that’s why it was easy for her to talk to me like we’re friends?

And why the hell can’t I get over her?

The thing is, I think she may have misinterpreted the whole thing, just because she didn’t know that I still think of her and that I can’t get her out of my system.

God knows how much I miss her, but with how she’s treating me, I know it’s impossible to be with her again.

And now I just ruined my chances, I’ve been a jerk, but I couldn’t stop myself from saying those things.

I was angry at the situation because of the fact that I saw her again, but it’s probably just tonight anyway. Maybe she’s just getting some time off school…

But actually, to be honest, I’m also quite angry with her for forgetting what she told me before. That she’d be with me until she’s no longer able to breathe.

Damn it, now I’m acting like this? It was me who pushed her away in the first place, and now I’m pushing her away…. Again.

If things were simpler, maybe there could still be hope… but even if I tried to talk to her again, only anger comes out of my mouth.

Sometimes what I do is also pointless.

_ _ _

I had no idea how I got home the previous night, but when I woke up I was already back in our dorm, in my own room, with the same clothes I’ve been wearing last night.

“Good thing you’re up…” someone spoke, and I thought I was dreaming, “since when did you start drinking?”

Forcing myself to stand up didn’t do me any good, “how the hell did I get home last night?”

“You were still walking….” I realized that it was Hyukjae, “but you were mumbling a lot… gibberish words, that when we figured that you were drunk.”

“Mianhe… I didn’t know what happened.”

But then the events of the previous night replayed in my head. Hearing Hyun Ae’s voice, talking to her, and acting as if she’s my most hated person in the world… which was partly true I guess.

“Did you talk to Hyun Ae-ssi? She’s back.” I can hear excitement in his voice, “everyone kind of missed her, and it’s a good thing that she’s back here.”

“How long will she be staying here?”

“I don’t know… listen, can you manage here now? I have to meet Shinhae in an hour…” he trailed off.

“Yeah, don’t worry, I’m fine…”

I think that was the only thing that he wanted to hear and he instantly left. My head was still aching, big time and I actually didn’t have any idea on why I had to drink the night before. I’m swearing off alcohol for good… really.

There was already a glass of water and some aspirins that were placed on the bedside table, I guess they left it for me so I just took everything in. I didn’t have any schedules for today, so it was a good thing, I can just stay here and treat my hangover.

What the hell was that sound? I’ve been hearing some music play since I woke up, and I can’t figure out what it was… damn.

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