Almost 16 page long  chapter  .  .   .  . sorry

     An hour of bowling by himself , lay had cried his voice out before the pain in his head was unbearable and he layed on the floor along with all the stuff he tore and threw against the wall. Still living in a house that had zero sign that a person lived there, there was nothing to even throw against the wall as the pillows and papers he threw layed next to his body he curled up when the pain in his head became unbearable. That was hours ago.

   Click click - came the alarm noise from the door.

“   .   . am guessing your the ride  “ the girl dressed in lays shirt took quick steps heading to the door.

“  .   .huh .   .” jessica sighed as she took in the view in front of her a the door opened and she got a good view of the girl standing in front of her giving her a crooked smile.her right hand tightly squeezing her phone it was holding jessica took in another breath and sighed.

“   .   .  .are you the only one that works in that building . “ the girl remarked as she lets it be known how much she doesn't like jessica which was something both girls knew. She hated jessica from the moment she saw her and realized what her presence does.  

 “ .   . actually am glad your hear can you make us something . we had a quit an exercise, if you know what i mean ,  and we both need something to eat” she added turning around and walking away leaving the door she opened for jessica to close. Should she be angry, shocked, confused . . jessica was confused with all the emotions that took over as she stood there taking orders from the girl only dressed in lays shirt heading to the bedroom.

  “   .   .also making a quick run to the cafe and get me that coffee that i like” she added giving jessica small smile before she went into the bedroom.

“ . .pick up lay now” had been the text she got from out of nowhere from a number she has ever seen. Immediately calling teh number she was rest assured she would never find a job anywhere if she doesn't do as she was told even though she insisted she doesn't work for him anymore.  Her career,that she has spent her whole life building rested on picking and driving around lay. With a simple text she was demoted and with a simple call she was threatened to face him again. She was forced to be in the house she resents so much  . . to be around people who she could strangle to death around. For these giants she was a tiny ant they could just squish anytime with no remorse and even though she realized that fact long ago . it still g[hurts so much to be ordered around like their slave . infact she would have preferred being their slave than be in this house again.  She would have prefered anything that seeing teh person who opened the door for her .   .    . and as she stood right by the door taking the smell of the house and lays cloth that was laid on teh couch she knew it would have been better to hang up teh phone and give up the career she had worked her life for.

  Squeezing her phone as hard as she can she stood taking deep breathes . .  . .her mind thoughtlessly realizing the fact it has had fought to accept. Her heart might have played tricks and ran off with its own imagination but the reality was this  .   .   . “   .huh . .”   “huh  “ she took some deep breaths as she tries hard to swallow any emotion that was arising.

“   .you are stronger than this  . .’ the ever loud sound in her mind screams louder.

“   .       .you are stronger than thi s . .” it repeats to try and convince her.

“   .   huh . . “  she bites her lips till the bottom lip till it bleeds. She tightens her fist till her nails dig into her own palm. As though teh room was shrinking in closer she feel the air getting thinner and claustrophobic as she stands in the wide empty living room with opened windows.

“  YOU ARE STRONG . .” the voice in her heads is starting to fade as she tastes her own blood and swallows it along every and any bit of emotion that was crawling up. No matter how much he fights it she is a slave to their paycheck and just a robot doing as ordered .    .    . nothing. more , nothing less.  

Phone on the counter she takes her coat of and pull her hair up , as ordered she has a meal to make and a coffee to bring.

   Behind the frying egg and juicer noise jessica has missed the girl shouted “   .  .i'm’ gonna take a shower .  .” trying hard to focus her mind on one thing and one thing only jessica tries to make everything as quick as possible.   . the quickly she finished , the quickly she can run out of her and get the coffee  .  . she needs the air..

   No sugar, no honey  . .just avocado and mango  juice . .she knew exactly what lay drinks along with the acai strawberry banana bowl she has to make for the girl  .  . it wasn't the first time.   .  . her teeth hasn't stopped biting her lips that's begging for mercy as it bleeds. Plates all aligned in the vertical shape of the dining table she sets up the table.  Jaes juice right in front of the bowl , his silver plated plates laid to his left hand he uses to eat . his water right next to his juice with two ice cubs and his vitamin insde . his dietary pills always on the right on a small plate with a small cup of milk he uses to swallow them with.  

“   . . huh . . “ jessica breathes as she steps back and takes a good look at the table .  .her right hand always unable to let it  go and leaning forward to fix lays plate , leaning it to the left to make it easy for him to spoon up his soup.

“   . .what are you doing ?” she couldn't help but be angry at herself as she lids the plate back to the right.  Why is she still caring about his goddam soup  .   .if it slips or nto it's his problem  .

 It’s not her problem if that tramps soup had too much salt either  .   .   .jessica shakes the salt shaker violently into the soup before she placed it down safety in teh middle of the table. Just the thought of the girl taking a sip had forced a smile on jessica's face but it didn't last for even a second as she turned around and faced eye to eye with the man that walked out of the bedroom into teh living room.   

  His sunglass nor his hoody nowhere to hide him , lays eyes have met jessica straight head.

What happened in the minute of silence that the two just stood staring at each other was otherworldly. How could 60 seconds be this long  .   .    . the silence  . . .the words unsaid  .    .  the eyes that didn't even blink .   .  . the mind that went blank .   .  .the heart that forgot how to beat  .   .  .how could so much and nothing happen at the same time.

“   .    .OPPA  .    .i’m gonna wear your shirt all day today  .. “ the voice came in bring the two into real world and the room they were standing in  . as though the voice was a que , jessica lowered her eyes and quickened her steps to the kitchen.

 “   .    .   . may be i can borrow your pants make them like a boyfriend jeans . .” passing lay behind the girl went to the dining table. The order she gave was direct and she knew jessica would follow and a cooked meal will be on the table.

 “   .   .OPPA  . .she made you your juice . .” she added glancing up at lay who started taking slow steps to the dining table.

    He is scared .   .   .there might be millions of emotions going through his body right now but the main that was up front was scared. Every nerve in his body was terrified. He was scared out of his life. Doesn’t even know why but he was scared. Scared to even look up .   .   .  to even breath/. The cold seat that went down his spin was no joke as it froze every bone in his body that somehow knew how to sit down on his chair. His heart that already had too much was at the line and to be shocked like that , it was beyond it could handle.it was beyond his broken soul could fathom.  

 “   .    .am gonna go get the coffee . .’ jessica giving a small bow picked up her phone and coat and headed to the door.

 Click - the door gently closed but lays body couldn't help but tremble when the door closed.

“   .    .oppa are you okay  . .” she asked as she saw lays trembling hands pick up the juice and take a sip. His eyes couldn't help but notice every thing he needed laid out in front of him. Even the hired maids weren't this attentive to his needs as they set his table let alone  .   .  

“  .  .  oww .  . “ before he threw up the juice he was forcing himself to swallow lay jumped up his seat and ran to the bathroom , holding his mouth shut with both hands. Her eyes might have looked up but the girl didn't follow behind.

“    .huh . .” she took a deep breath as she pushed the soup aside and started on her bowl.  Hiding behind the door she has caught the moment the two saw each other and the minute wasted in the most scary silence she has ever seen. She knew exactly why she quickly jumped in and interrupted the silence that would have suffocated lay.  She knew him in a way not many do and with that there are some truth about lay she has come to realise and lay running to the bathroom to throw up was nothing short of the reaction she expected.

   Quietly she takes another bowl as she hears a faint echo of the shower that just started running down. She tries to force to a smile as again she realises no matter how much she tries, he wont ever ever look at her as he does the girl that just cooked them their meal. No matter how many times she shares his bed and be the one to touch him as much as wants , lay’s broken heart was out of reach for her. No matter how much she crawled or fought for it, it was always out of her grip, breaking to pieces in front of her to a point she can't even help mend it back together.

“   .  .huh  . .” she forced another smile followed by a silence as she hears the loud noises lay was making as he tries hard to get everything he just swallowed out. Her hands halting in the air wait for the silence and shower noise to return as she quietly take in the sound of lay trying hard to spit out everything that is eating him. Her heart can't help but ache for his pain .   .   but it faded quickly as the shower noise started again.  

  Her eyes on the cloudy city behind the big glass window she sat unable to even take one more bit.

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3     the minutes went by as she sat silently.  The sound of teh water faded around 15 minutes after as she stood up and changed into her cloth that was thrown onto the couch. She had made sure to folded and placed his shirt in her bag. she at least deserve that much. She waited another 10 minute or so , standing by the window before she slowly walked into the bedroom  which was empty then into the bathroom to find lay sitting in the floor, his wet hair and wet shirt added to miserable state he was in, even she was left speechless at how pathetic lay has became.   

“    .  .just sleep with her and get it over with .  .   . “for some reason it was anger and jealousy that took over as she got a glimpse of lay .

   “  . call me when you're done with her   .” throwing the towel onto his head she walked out. Her petty turned anger facing the right target as jessica walked in with the hot coffee.

  “   .    . two brown sugars and no foam “ jessica described the order she got as she placed it on the counter separating them. For a second or two she thought about throwing the hot coffee against jessica’s chest as she just stared at her

   “   .  .the food was disgusting , he threw out the sip he took. can’t you even cook right “ she picked the coffee up and quickened her step to the door.

 Click - the door shut as jessica turned her eyes to the table to find the meals untouched. Not matter how badly it stung she had promised herself she would get through this day with some dignity so she started picking the plates up . only thing left to do wash teh dishes and drop him off at where ever he is supposed to be at . After today he is not even her problem. Her job is on the 8th floor now, that is if they let her keep her job.

As the minutes went by in complete silence jessica couldn't help but get scared at what was going on in that bed room.

‘  .   .Sir we need to go “ knocking on the door she spoke loudly but there was no reply. she waited a few minutes before she knocked again. Somehow walking into her bedroom she had walked into so many times carrying his body now seemed intrusive.

 “  .ommo  . .” lay had startled her as he walked out the bedroom. Fully covered in his gucci over coat whichs hoddy he used to cover his face. Straight out of the closet , the perfume sprayed on it was very fresh and startling one as  she got a sniff of it as he walked right past her . the long black coat was the perfect coat he needed to add to his model figure to look even more glamorous as he picked up his phone and headed to the door.  Making sure the door is locked behind her jessica followed behind halting hers steps behind him as they stood waiting for the elevator.  She expected the silence to be awkward but it was unbearable as her fingers to find something to click on the phone she was playing with , trying hard to keep her attention on something else.

CLCIK - The elevator door opened up , lay was teh first to walk in clicking 1st floor as soon as he walked in. jessica made sure to create a big distance between them as she stood at teh corner leaving him the whole space as he stood in the middle. Hands in his pocket , eyes on the floor  . . . the moment the doors shut all air the elevator was out . the small space suffocating the tourchered lay as he takes quick breathes following along the number that's going down .   

CLICK  - the door didn't even completely opened up as lay jumped out heading to the parking lot. Knowing how much he hates being left alone with her , jessica knew not to bother the man that’s trying hard to not even accept the fact that she exists let alone that she was walking behind him.

 The nice and always smiling lay , she doesn't even know where he disappeared to but this lay was what she has come used too. His complete lack of acknowledgement to her existence had started months ago when he dropped his hellos. Hired to be his shadow , how could she have hoped for more.  He is not expected to say hello or even glance her way , it was the other way around. She was getting paid him money to say hi and bye to him and bow at his every command and in the last couple of month he has done everything he can to remind her of that fact. Even his face had been a privilege for him to see.  Her eyes slowly has scanned him up and down as he led the way with quick steps.  What would happen if she reached out and grabbed him  .   .  .she couldn't even dream of doing such a thing as even the thought left her scared of his reaction.

 BANG- he had made sure to bang the back door shut after he jumped into the back seat.

“  .  .huh  . .” a small smile escaped jessica’s lips as she stood for a moment and took in what just happened but what was waiting for her inside the car was even more shocking. Lay had turned the blinders on, making sure the back seat was completely out of sight from her. If everything he has done so far wasn't clear enough this was.

  Destination , jaes house already