*On Queen Be's fancafe page*

Hey, everyone! Now that we're heading out to our first North American tour, I thought I'd give you guys a little present. I've moved past this stage of my life, and now I need to see myself as an artist in and of myself. But I've realized that the best way to move past something is to tell people about it. So I wrote these over the course of my fangirl life, not always every day. But it was fun. Please enjoy!

Confession of a Crazy Fan Girl #1: given about five minutes, I can cry on demand. This was easily learned because I cry at just about every ballad by Super Junior.

Confession of a Crazy Fan Girl #2: When I break wishbones with people, I always wish to go see a Super Junior or CNBlue concert.

Confession of a Crazy Fan Girl #3: I'm learning Japanese for the express purpose of watching anime and reading manga easier.

Confession of a Crazy Fan Girl #4: my role model in life is the sweet, tolerant, hard-working Han Geng. But I act much more like the insolent, vicious, sharp-tongued, video game-loving Cho Kyuhyun.

Confession of a Crazy Fan Girl #5: (I didn't do one yesterday, so there's two today. :P) If I ever were to meet SHINee's Jonghyun, the first thing I'd do would be to smell him, just to find out if he smells like chocolate chip cookie dough.

Confession of a Crazy Fan Girl #6: If I hear Super Junior's "Sorry Sorry" or Super Junior-M's "Super Girl," I WILL dance to it, no matter where I am or what I'm doing at the time.

Confession of a Crazy Fan Girl #7: I listen to Ryewook's "One Fine Spring Day" and "Memories In Breeze" every night before I go to bed, to help me get to sleep.

Confession of a Crazy Fan Girl #8: I know all of the words to "Puff, The Magic Dragon" because Kyuhyun sang it for Super Show 2. The version I have on my mp3 player is him singing.

Confession of a Crazy Fan Girl #9: Most any ordinary, everyday conversation will make me think of Kpop Engrish.

Confession of a Crazy Fan Girl #10: If I were ever to meet SHINee's Jonghyun, the first thing I'd do would be to smell him, just in case he smells like chocolate-chip cookie dough.

CCFG#11: I've drawn fanarts of all 13+2 members of Super Junior, and have them hanging on my bedroom wall arranged left-to-right in order of favoritism. (Sungmin to Zhou Mi)

CCFG#12: I think Han Geng's voice is absolutely intoxicating when used just right, but completely awful when used incorrectly.

CCFG#13: I always go into a fandom liking one member, but as I get to know the group more, it almost always changes to a different member. In CNBlue my favorite member WAS Yonghwa, but now it's Minhyuk. In BigBang, it went from GD to Seungri. SHINee, Min Ho to Key. F.T. Island, Hong Ki to Jaejin. Super Junior, Heechul to Sungmin.

CCFG#14: I have all of the fifteen Super Junior members' birthdays saved on my phone.

CCFG#15: It's hard for me to listen to American pop anymore. And the music videos just make me sad.

CCFG#16: I do NOT know all of the words to "y, Free & Single". Just most of them.

CCFG#17: I've watched all of Super Junior's concert tour DVDs (Super Shows). I own the DVDs for 1&2, and my favorites are 2&4. I cannot wait until SS5, and I REALLY want it to come to Chicago, because then Mom and Dad might let me go.

CCFG#18: The first Korean drama I ever watched was "You're Beautiful," and it has a special place in my heart, although I can never remember the name of the main male character. noetheless, it was Jung Yong Hwa playing Shin Woo that started my love of CN Blue, leading into my love of Kpop.

CCFG#19: I'll stay up watching dramas until very early in the morning, and get up at 5 in the morning every day so I can watch at least one episode.

CCFG#20: I rank members of groups by my most favorite to my least favorite. But saying "Least favorite" does NOT mean I DON'T like them. It means that I like them the least. For example, out of all 13+2 members of SuJu, I like Zhou Mi the least. But I still scream "MIMI!" when I hear him sing.

CCFG#21: Ballads Before Bed, Dances During the Day.

CCFG#22: I sincerely believe that Lee Sungmin has much prettier hands than me.

CCFG#23: Although my bias in Super Junior is Sungmin, the member I want to meet the most is Kyuhyun.

Confession of a Crazy Fan Girl # 28 (I think. It's been a while.) - Names you want to have if you're a __________ fan (Kpop):

Super Junior- Angela
Super Junior H- Sunny
NU'EST- Sandy
SHINee- Jojo

(Please, feel free to add names)

CCFG #29: I may be more of an ELF now than a Boice, but I still think that CNBlue is absolutely awesome, and Minhyuk is still the most adorable drummer ever.

CCFG#30: Yong Hwa is the lead vocalist of CNBlue... but I like Jonghyun's voice more. It's so pretty (look up "My Love" from the "A Gentleman's Dignity" OST).

CCFG#31: I have learned extremely valuable life lessons from the ELF. Example- even if someone insults someone you care about a lot, it doesn't do any good to start a fight with them. Just calmly dismiss them as not knowing what they're talking about, and move on with what you were doing.

CCFG#32: After the members of Super Junior and CNBlue, I'd really like to meet Jackie Chan.

CCFG#33: I'm still not entirely sure what would possess Henry to steal Han Geng's underwear. I mean, I'm a fangirl and I still don't quite get it.

CCFG#34: I'm not a Shawol, but since they're in the same company as SJ, I'll vote for them on the Kpop charts.

CCFG#35: I NEVER should have started watching Immortal Song. Because now I'm hooked. I mean, sitting tense in my chair and crossing my fingers for Yesung to beat Jonghyun is just a crime! I mean, Yesung won anyway, but the other competitors were SO good! And this is just episode three!

CCFG#3...6? can't remember: I'm sad because I can't make fun of EXO anymore... they're FINALLY having a comeback... SM announced it on its Twitter already. Darn. I was hoping I could laugh at them for just a LITTLE while longer.

CCFG#37: When I found out Henry was coming out with a solo album, I was bouncing off the walls, I was so happy. It's like SM was desperately trying to appeal to the international fans when they went "Wait, why do we need to look for a new solo artist who speaks English? We have Henry!" Gah, the piano part makes me so excited for this!!!!!!!!!!

CCFG#37: Extremely happy I started doing "Jpop song of the day", because otherwise I never would have found Kalafina! Oh my God, their voices are incredible! But the real confession is: You'll never find the group you'll end up being a fangirl for on purpose. It's almost always by accident or coincidence. Unless, of course, you believe in fate. XD

CCFG#...38? I still just cannot believe how many people are Henry and Zhou Mi antis. Just when I think they're staring to finally be treated with respect, something else happens to make people petition them off of the stage. I feel so bad for them.

 CCFG#39: I spend all that effort trying to find more good Jpop artists... and here I am, right back to Super Junior. XD

CCFG#40: The ELF may be mature, but that doesn't make them innocent.

 CCFG#41: I'm kind of disappointed in "Rum Pum Pum Pum"...I was actually kind of excited for f(x)'s comeback, but I just don't think the main song is all that good... 

SuJu's new Japanese song, 'Hero', on the other hand, is a pleasant surprise. For once, they gave our boys a nice, soft, easy-to-listen-to song as the title track of the album, instead of a powerful dance track. It sounds cool, and I LOVE it

CCFG#42: For the "World Music Awards 2013", I voted for Han Geng, Han Geng, SHINee, Super Junior, and Han Geng. 

 CCFG#43: The moment I find out Zhou Mi has made a Twitter account, I go to Twitter and follow him. The moment I find out Kyuhyun has made a Youtube account, I go to Youtube and subscribe to it. Not a second of hesitation.

CCFG#44: SuJu countdown- 27 more days until Heechul comes back! *dances around happily*
*scrolls down a little further*
"664 days until Yesung comes back". *Starts crying*

CCFG#45: Me upon discovering that Han Geng 韓庚 is already in Chicago for Transformers 4 filming:

"AAAAAGH, HE'S ALREADY IN CHICAGO?!"
"Breathe, Mel. There's no way you can go."
"But he's only a few hours away!!!!"
"Come on, even if you do go, how would you find him?! Chicago is a big place."
"He's in Chinatown."
"You're missing my point."
"BUT HE'S IN CHICAGO!!!!"

CCFG# ...4...7? That hilarious moment when you realize your favorite Kpop group was in Germany... during Oktoberfest.

Oh dear, Kyuhyun with endless amounts of German beer... — feeling amused.

CCFG#48: If Han Geng's character dies in Transformers 4, I might either cry, or burst out laughing. I'm not sure which. So if you watch the movie in theaters and hear someone laughing like a madwoman when the Chinese man in the movie is dying, it's me. Because Han Geng would have died AGAIN.  

CCFG:49 (Now I'm just guessing): November 6, 2013= ASIOADHJHVDAWUISUPERWTQUHWPIQECJBJDGIUDGFJUNIORDQDOUDT&IEFDFSSDTUKHDFWDHWDWYEGIWEVFUHOIFUTYDQANNIVERSARYPYIMNDGHAOBVGDGJJKKIYINKGUGHAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CCFG#50: I'm starting to really like Girls' Generation. Especially Tiffany. Of course, a lot of Americans are being slightly negative towards them ever since they won the Video of the Year for the YTMAs, but seriously respect those girls.

CCFG#51: I confess, I woke up at 3 in the morning today to watch the MAMAs. EXO and Girls' Generation, hwaiting!

CCFG#52: Wow, I've been doing these for a long time! Over a year! Anyway, I really love all of my Sunbaes at SM... I still have my favorite oppas, but my bias lists in other companies are disappearing. I'm all for BoA and EXO and SNSD and f(x) and SHINee and... you get the idea. :P

CCFG#53: Okay, this is the last one. I'm not sure what number it actually is, because I've screwed up so many times (Typical me, right?), but for #53, I'm declaring it to be the end. I'm Queen Be, now. I still love you all, and I hope you enjoyed these, but I think I need to sort out my priorities. So, everyone, thank you for reading my crazy fangirling messages!

*Pictures from SMTown facebook page- Queen Be and Super Junior concert in Beijing Photo album*

Queen Be's introduction to the fans, then concert opening with "Black Magic".

Queen Be performing "Don't Know How to Dance" with her original music video partner, Eunhyuk.

Super Junior performing "Sorry Sorry"

Super Junior-M performing "Imagine" (from the "Paper Wall" album) and "Break Down"

Zhou Mi's solo- "Your Smile"

Queen Be solo- cover of Henry's "I Would"... with only her ukulele!

Queen Be transition- "No Place for Weeping"

Super Junior- "Paper Wall" choreography.

Queen Be with the "Honey Be's"!

Super Junior with ELF

Queen Be, Super Junior, Honey Be's, and ELF, final concert image!

*From Mel's Facebook page*

Hey, everyone. Hope you're not worried. I've been super busy lately, with the concerts, promotions, and everything, but I'm just reminding you that I'm still me, for the most part, and I'm coming home. But just a warning... DON'T come pick me up at the airport. For your own safety. This isn't a joke. Seriously, you could get trampled. And no, I'm not saying this because I'm getting a big head. I'm saying this because I saw a girl get shoved against the railing when I was getting off the plane in New York. Fangirls get crazy. 

On another note, I AM IN NEW YORK! OMG this is scary! XD

Jackie- don't get .

Mel- Don't worry. I've been with the members this whole time. I've actually been asked what a white girl is doing in an Asian gang. I just about died.

Em- I'm sorry, but I just can't see them as gang members.

Mel- ...it's like "Don't Don" is coming true...

Jacklyn- Oh dear, now we're going on a throwback Thursday...

Mel- but it's Monday...

Jackie- So you're in an Asian gang in New York?

Mel- ...yes. Sure. Either way, I've got, like, a dozen guys around me at all times, plus both of our managers, and then their coordinators and our makeup team, and then the camera crew for the documentary... we have our own private army.

Tessa- I still say you're going about this all wrong.

Mel- Tessa, I am NOT gong to ually attack any of the members!

Tessa- But why not?! :'(

Mel- Don't do the crying thing. You know that doesn't work on me.

Tessa- Yes it does.

Tessa- BTW, I bought tickets to your grandstand performance, heeheehee...

Mel- I'm scared.

Tessa- You should be.

You guys need to try the pizza in New York... it's delicious. Anyway, see you all in a few days!