Your POV

I tried to sleep early because I know that I still have classes tomorrow. But somehow thinking about tomorrow's events made me feel all giddy inside making me feel wide awake. It's just a sleepover right? So why am I excited about this? I blame you IU! If you haven't said we're going to have a sleepover then I would be sleeping right now. It's just a sleepover wherein she'll stay in here overnight and we'll sleep together. Why the hell am I freaking excited about this? I blame my estrogen for making me feel so emotional.

I roll on my bed and stared at the balcony where I could clearly see the stars. I tried to replay the events that happened this week starting from the first day of school up until now. So many things have happened in a span of a week. Everything is just too overwhelming that it feels like I'm starring on a movie with me as the main star. I don't care if that sounds too cheesy but that's what I really feel.

I remember the first day of school where I thought everything would just be normal. But I met Infinite and unexpectedly they became my friends. Then I met IU and she became my "best friend" as what people would call it. In a span of a week I have these things they call "friendship" which I thought would just be a far reality from me. Everytime I think of them it made me unconsciously smile... a genuine smile.

I guess I have to thank Yoona for the things happening right now. Yeah I'll give her credits just this once because of her I met Infinite and IU. If not for her then I guess I would still be the 'ugly orphan nerd' as what she adress me. I guess something bad can lead to something great and she just proved that theory. I'm really glad I met Infinite and IU. Because of them I feel accepted by being me. Because of them I felt other emotions other that being lonely and empty. I learn the meaning of Friendship because of them. Because of them I wake up with a smile on my face ready to face the day positively. And because of them I became a better person learning how to trust and open up.

I know I might sound selfish but I don't want to let them go. Each of them have grown a special place inside my heart that can never be replaced by anyone. I might not have met my real family but they fill up that space for me. I'm going to hold on tight to the things that I have right now. Afraid if I let go even just for a second everything will turn into dust. I'm afraid that everything is just a dream. That I might wake up and find out that I'm alone again in this world with no one beside me. For the first time I have felt fear when the thought of them leaving me comes into my mind. I felt a pang in my heart when I thought about the possibilities of them leaving me. 

I'm scared

I'm afraid

For the first time after all these years that I have been alone. Afraid that the warmth they radiated would be gone and I would be left in here shivering from the cold being radiated by my heart.

Okay I'm really blaming my estrogen for these thoughts and being really emotional. I blame that sleepover thingy. Because of that my thoughts wander off to these things. But I must admit I can't wait for tomorrow for the sleepover. I guess this is what they call girl time? I really want to sleep so I hummed the tune that I have composed when I wanted to sleep. But it doesn't feel complete so I got out of my bed and grab my guitar. After fixing it I started strumming and then singing.

Your beautiful eyes giving light

Guiding me through every night

Don't leave me

I'm afraid I might cry

If I found you gone away from my side

The melody I hear when you're around

Your voice and your eyes that shines brighter than the stars

What have you done? I have fallen inlove

Please let me be with you until the pain subsides

Did I tell you I love you

Since that day

When I find you crying by the stairs 

Those teary eyes

like a gem in the sky

I want you here forever by my side

Please stay here and let me love you

I won't leave you or hurt you

I'll wipe those tears away and will kiss your soul

If you stay here with me forever

Baby~ don't leave me

Don't walk away from me

I love you, I love you I'll say it again

Even for a million times if that would make you stay

I love you I'll love you all over again~

I watch as you tuck yourself in at night

Would you let me hug you and hold you tight?

The way the moon beams make you shine like the stars

Eversince you came I'm not the same

Since that day

When I find you crying by the stairs 

Those teary eyes

like a gem in the sky

I want you here forever by my side

Please stay here and let me love you

I won't leave you or hurt you

I'll wipe those tears away and will kiss your soul

If you stay here with me forever

Baby~ don't leave me

Don't walk away from me

I love you, I love you I'll say it again

Even for a million times if that would make you stay

I love you I'll love you all over again

As I watch you walk out of my life

I just wish that I could smile the way before you broke my heart

Coz now all I see is a broken heart while trying to fix it back

And me crying wishing you'd come back

I watch as the stars fell out of the sky

I'd pick one so I could wish you back

But I guess things won't be same

We've fallen out of love

There's only goodbye~

But my beating heart won't stop loving you

Even if it hurts me that much I'm still wishing for you

Please stay here and let me love you

I won't leave you or hurt you

I'll wipe those tears away and will kiss your soul

If you stay here with me forever

Baby~ don't leave me

Don't walk away from me

I love you, I love you I'll say it again

Even for a million times if that would make you stay

I love you I'll love you all over again

Baby~ don't leave me

Don't walk away from me

I love you, I love you I'll say it again

Even for a million times if that would make you stay

I love you I'll love you all over again~

After that I felt sleepy so I set my guitar aside and closed my eyes. What an eventful day and I feel that all of my energy is drained out . Sleep tight Kyungmi you have a big day tomorrow.

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a/n: hey guys!!!! I updated see? I wouldn't call it a long update because there is so many spaces. So.... do you like the song? I composed it myself so it probably . You could translate it in korean if you want to give more justice that she's a korean girl. Next part coming up soon. I feel like I should update again later. To all those readers who wants Kyungmi to find out that she's woohyun brother so there could be more HyunMi moments and to those SooMi shippers. Just wait because I'll give you lots of that. She'll find out she's Woohyun's sister soon ^^