**Author** time is passing so fast for me these days. Cant belive I didn't update for 4 weeks.

The idea of whats coming next was in my head for so long and now tih BTS releasing their new song it made me so confused XD

BTW just slight spoiler. Things are going to blow up between May and one of the boys ;)

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[ Mayling Prologue ]

I was still processing the situation.

and totally had the feeling a mix of vomiting and dizziness.

Did I really just see Jungkook?

I titled my head towards Deea and she just shrugs her shoulders. 

I was on my own I guess.

I was watching the photoshoot and damn they are all so photogenic. 

But I guess that's the life of an Idol. 

During the photo shoot, he and I made eye contact a few times. Just as if he wanted to talk to me. 

My phone vibrates and I see Soobins name pop up.

" How's your day going? :)" was written in his text and for some reason he made me smile. 

" Good so far, yours?" 

" Very busy with practice"

" Okay go practice" I replied because I felt wrong to talk to him for some reason.

Like usual, I didn't really know what was going on in my mind.

And at this point, I didn't even know what I wanted.

I use to be so sure it was Jungkook.

But now it's just a blur. 

Even if I would be with him. 

I wouldn't even know if he was going to be good to me.

The day was dragging on and I decided to text Sarah.

" Sup?" I made it short.

I haven't even spoken to her since I got to Korea. 

I do feel guilty about it, but she didn't text me either.

" Hey, how is it there?" she responded almost immediately. 

"The complicated usual" I laughed at myself while typing.

" Tell me about it"

" Are you sure?" I asked and I was also hesitant to spill my guts to her.

But for some reason, I had this hope of trust in her.

" trust me" she replied ironically.

" There is this new kid in the company and he is really nice to me" I replied and re-read the message multiple tim