“ still not feeling well” I replied him to him, it was the best excuse I could think of in the moment. 

“ okay” he said and left. 

As he left I felt like I could breath again

What the is going on like is our relationship going to progress into some 50 shades of gray ?

I was not feeling it today. 

I decided to leave office and I could feel all the office girls starring at me.

ugh I don’t even want to think about it.

I got into my car and decided to call Sarah hope she can cheer me up. 

“ yo man” she picked up my call and her happy aditide mate me feel abit better about myself.

” How you how is the office going?” I asked her.

” Everything fine, how about you?” She said.

” If you are free you can come to Seoul, would be nice to have you here man. Plus it’s summer now you can go to the beach together” I said to her

” aww you would let me take paid leave?” She laughed

” hahaha no I am making you work here” i replied her.

” If you want me to come just tell me” she replied and I knew I could count in her.

” Yes please come” I told her

” I check my schedule and let you know k” she replied and hung up

I reached home and there myself in my bed.

Tired of thinking.

I was scrolling my phone reading BTS news, I don’t know why I am torturing myself with this.

I walked to my cabinet and made myself instant noddles and watched horror movies.

Ok would kill myself If was watching korean dramas in this situation now.

at the blink of an eye it was evening already and I didn’t hear anything from Sarah or Jungkook yet.

I was thinking what to do. I didn’t want to stay home. I should spend some time with myself. 

I decided to go to a bar and have a drink. 

I put in a black dress with silver open toe heels and a coat to cover abit.  Simple look for a simple lady. 

I reach a nice bar and took the seat at the bar counter. 

It had a very elegant vintage feel. Like a scene from Abby dawn.

I sat down and the bar tender smile