**Author Note** I guys sorry for being gone for so long... but I am having a mid-life crisis I guess. 

Please forgive me and enjoy reading

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[May Prologue]

 " What is wrong... you can tell me..." I squeezed her hands.

" you don't know how difficult it has been..." Sarah mumbled while tears rolled down hair face slowly. 

I know she was my best friend once but she just felt so far away. I wasn't sure how I was feeling about her but seeing her cry like that made something in my heart go soft.

" Sarah..." I said softly in an attempt to calm her down.

She looked up at me and whipped her tears with the sleeve of her shirt and looked at me.

" I am sorry I was desperate," she said and it made me confused.

Was she desperate for Jungkook? for attention? I wasn't sure what she was referring to. 

" what do you mean?..." I asked her and she avoided eye contact with me.

" money..." she said and I didn't know how to react.

Working with me she made a good amount of money. Actually way above average for someone her age.  

She afforded to go study for 4 years in central London. 

Things just didn't add up in my head.

" what do you mean?" I asked her.

She let out a long sigh...

" you know that my dad is doing stocks right..." 

"yes..."

" at the beginning of the 3rd year in Uni it started to not go so well... in the beginning, they didn't even tell me because they just thought