Do you care?
Private Library - Do I need you?[ Mayling Prologue ]
We spent a few days in Jeju in a resort. Quietly, we enjoyed each others company. We just needed to be there for each other.
This pain will heal slowly.
We released her ashes into the sea.
I am sorry that this is how she got to see Korea.
I am sorry I didn't care more.
It was so cold and the cold wind from the ocean was flowing in my face. It was so cold my skin hurt.
I headed inside with my dad.
" What now?" I asked him because now there was nothing left of her. Just her memories.
" We need to keeping going with our lives," he said and it sounded could for a moment. But he was right. What was the point to grief forever?
We headed to Seoul and my dad was staying with me for a few days.
I wasn't ready to go to work yet.
I wasn't ready to pretend that I am okay.
Days later my dad left and it was 7 AM in the morning. I was hesitating to go to work.
But I can't hide the fact forever.
I got up and got dressed. Wearing a black blouse and trousers. My favorite pair of black heels.
This pair of heels was always the classic heels she would wear. I copied her look as soon as entered university and even before that I would steal them to go out partying some times. Black pumps with red soles this will always remind me of her.
I tear fell from my cheek. Good memories will live on.
Reaching office, I got a lot of looks from my collugeas. I was gone for a month.
I walked to Sejins office.
" I am back," I said while knocking on the door.
" Everything fine?" he asked me and for some reason, I couldn't pretend to be fine.
" Yes" I said as a tear fell down. I was trying so hard to keep it in.
He got up and hugged me.
" It's gonna be okay," he said and this was the first time he genuinely cared about me.
I hugged him back.
I just needed a shoulder to cry on.
I have been holding my tears back for so long.
" Can you please not tell anyone?" I asked him and he agreed.
I walked out the room wiping my tears. As I was walking back to my room I passed the boys. Jungkook looked at me.
I couldn't tell if it was a worried look or curious.
I got back to my room and Deaa came in.
" Hey I heard you are back, Is everything okay?" She said.
" I was just spending time with my family," I said and smiled at her.
" That is nice. I am letting you know that we are going to have a US tour" she asked me.
" I don't have to go right," I said trying to laugh
" I guess unless you want to"
" How long is it?"
" 3 weeks"
" I see"
" Okay, I got to get going. Nice to hav
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