** Author Note** sorry guys I am getting way too dramatic and philosophical but I am at a rough stage in my life (not really just being dramatic) let me know what you think.

and once again a gentle reminder that I am starting a new story <3 you can find it HEREEEEE and HEREE and THERE. <3

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[ Mayling Prologue ]

" I really still do" I looked at Sarah and she smiled. I still loved him with all my heart. I never stopped loving him. Every time I saw him around the office I could feel my heart beat faster. I would be sad when I knew he would be away for a few days. I don't know why I have been denying it for the past months. I don't know why I am presenting to be so strong when all I would want is just to run into his arms and hold him. 

But aren't we good at putting up a strong front to other people? Pretending to be fine because we don't want them to know how much of a mess we actually are. Just to look like we have the perfect life to other people.

" Did you guys ever talk it out?" she asked me and I thought back of the last conversation we had that was not work-related. 

It was in the car ride back from Busan. I remember holding in my tears because I didn't want him to see how much I was hurting. and I am sure he was probably doing the same. But we just spoke calmly saying that it would probably just not work out between us. 

" You have to think about your future. Yes you love him but can it work out and how you are going to do that?" Sarah added.

" Do you think we could work it out?" I ask her for reassurance.

" Why not May? I know for since our childhood. If you put your mind to something you can conquer it" 

" So I am to conquer a K-pop Idol that had millions if not billions of fans" <