[ Mayling Prologue ] 

I woke up a couple of hours later with Mark still in my arms. I was feeling terrible. Both physical and mental. 

This is going to make things even more awkward.

I pulled myself out from under him and placed his jacket over him. Taking one last glance at him I left. I wish I could pretend this never happened. I want to be a friend but I don't know how.

Walking out the pitch black office building. 

I sat in my car. Looking at my phone it was 2 AM. Jungkook blew up my phone asking where I am. I was thinking of how to reply.

I sat in the car looking at the white garage wall. Hitting my head.

" How can I be so stupid?" I could feel tears run down my cheeks. 

" Why do I not think before doing something?" 

Taking a while to calm down.

I drove home on the empty night streets of Seoul. The quiet scares me. 

Am I just not used to being alone?

Standing in front of my porch it felt strange. But then I was already feeling terrible. Can it get any worse? If I would die at this moment I wouldn't mind.

I entered my house and laid down in my bed. I picked up my phone texting " I went to see Mark, his father has passed away. I am home already" Then threw my phone on my bed.

Starring at the ceiling. I had all these different thoughts in my head.

What is going to happen to him?

What is going to happen to me? 

Why did I not stop him?

Did I possibly l