[ Mayling Prologue ]

I was laying in bed. I wasn't able to close my eyes. 

I just wanted to run out and hug him. Bew with him.

But it was obvious that this was not what he wanted.

A while later I heard the door close. I guess he must have left to go to the airport.

Laying down facing the wonderful will of the Han River. 

I couldn't stop thinking of how it ended up like this.

I am laying in the bed of the person I think I love.

God knows how many other girls have laid here as well.

But who am I upset about?

I can only be upset about myself. 

I am the one who ed everything up.

It was 5 AM and I decided to leave. I home.

I noticed a text from him.

" I left, rest well," he said.

I don't know why but I expected more. 

I thought if I go there he would care for me.

Was I expecting too much?

Barely sleeping for 3 hours I headed to the office.

It was quiet since most of the staff went to the US.

I walked down to the nurse room to get some panadol. 

My head was trembling from the lack of sleep and alcohol. 

Leaving the room, Soobin was waiting for me. 

" Are you alright?" he asked me

" Yes, just a headache" 

" let's go for tea," he said and took my hand. He took it gently.

 We walked to the usual coffee place.

He walked to the counter and walked back serving me tea.

" Where have you been?" he asked me.

" I was in Hongkong for a while with my family" I replied to him and I could see that he was not satisfied with my answer.

" I mean last night" 

he caught me off the guard. 

" I went to have dinner on my own and I couldn't sleep"

" Did you see him?" he asked me changing the topic.

" why...?" I asked trying to refuse to answer

" Can you just tell me, honestly?" 

" Yes," I said and could see his gaze change from anger to sadness.

" Why?" he asked me

" I thought I would be to able to clarify things?" 

" What else do you have to clarify? he has someone else." Soobin raised his voice at me.

" Maybe I don't want to be with him, I just want to talk it out," I said getting slight impatient at him.

" Did you end up sleeping with him as well?" he said in a sarcastic tone and I had enough.

I was upset.

I got up.

" I am sorry" he called after me but I deci