Chapter 77
You Said Remember Me II
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They’d taken place up with a crowd and had safely entered a gas station after breakfast. Donghae had wandered off and had returned with two cans of soda to see Eunhyuk sitting by the table at the window. He couldn’t help but feel somewhat lonely for Eunhyuk seeing all the things that Eunhyuk was putting himself through.
Pressing his lips together he stepped forward and took a seat to Eunhyuk’s left. Setting the can down on the table Donghae copied Eunhyuk and looked out as well.
“Are you thinking about home?” Donghae started.
Eunhyuk took his can and took a long sip from it.
“You want to say something?” Eunhyuk asked.
Donghae’s lips curved up and he laughed a little, “It would’ve been alright to start off with small talk too. It gets more comfortable that way.”
“We can’t get any more comfortable than this.” Eunhyuk sarcastically stated.
A snort escaped Donghae. “You really have to put it that way?”
“Sure.”
“Look, Eunhyuk,” Donghae said, “we’ve known each other for a really long time, right? I don’t want to see you like this. I asked you a question the other day, remember? Do you like her? Nana?”
Eunhyuk’s jaw tensed.
“I hope you can come to terms with yourself so you won’t hurt yourself,” Donghae told, “but you’ve already come this far and Nana has also been left in the middle of your road. I don’t want to see you sad or feel regretful when you know you could’ve done better. Remember when you told me everyone knows why I went to Seoul? I’ll say it here, everyone knows why Nana’s leaving. Do you really want to see her go? Stop being so hesitant. You’re not one to do anything without a reason, so nothing would have happened between you two if you didn’t give a damn about her at all. Think about it, Eunhyuk. If you like her, stop her. I hope you will make a decision that will be for your benefit and not others.”
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What was this? Weakness? Nostalgia? Cloudy disappointment? Or was it just deep, dark fear?
Lying on the edge of the bed on her side staring at the wall ahead of her with the door left wide open didn’t help much. It was hard to ease her uneasy heart. By staring out into the empty hallway reminding herself of how empty her life used to be wasn’t helping to comfort her. What was she doing by even reminiscing it?
In Seol…Han In Seol…
“Are you watching me? In Seol, are you watching me?”
Victoria clamped her eyes shut hoping for a moment of peace from her wavering thoughts.
The hospital, sickness, the morning of discovering Sandy and Il Chung’s deaths, police cars, the flowers with the notes, Seo In Ji….Donghae…
Yes, it had all happened so fast and it was all in the past year too. Victoria had tried to be content with her present, with Donghae, with what she had, everything that had shoved itself into her life. She’d tried to accept it, she’d thought she’d accepted it all…
There was nothing she was unhappy about. There were just things that were hard to speak about.
“Will you not tell me what’s going on?” Donghae had demanded after he’d started onto the road, leaving Eunhyuk behind in the rain.
Victoria had swiveled around in her seat to stare back at her friend, Eunhyuk, who Donghae had made her leave behind so pitifully. The sun was setting, though it wasn’t dark yet, but Eunhyuk was a long way from home. How could she just leave him behind like that when she asked him out first?
“Stop the car,” Victoria calmly tried.
Silence. Donghae was ignoring her. His fiery anger heated up the car like a bomb about to explode.
“I said stop the car!” she raised her voice somewhat.
Donghae ignored her again, but clearly stepped on the accelerator with more force. The car surged forward and now Eunhyuk had become a tiny black speck in the side mirror.
Victoria spun around to face Donghae angry, “Are you really just going to leave him there?! Eunhyuk is your friend! You’re just going to abandon him like this?! Stop the car! Stop right now!”
“Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!” he scolded.
Victoria gritted her teeth frustrated with his temper. Unbuckling her seatbelt she twisted around to unlock the door and grabbed the door handle ready to just jump out.
“What the hell do you think you’re doing!?” he grabbed her arm to pull her back.
“If you can abandon him like that, it makes no difference if I go out to join him,” Victoria growled.
His grip on her arm tightened.
“No.” he breathed under his heavy breath. “You’re not going back. You’re not going to him. I won’t allow you.”
“How can you just leave someone behind like that?! Did you forget what kind of important person he is to you? How can you be so childish?! You’re no better than a measly kid still growing up!”
“What the hell, Victoria! What about me! Have you thought about me?! Who am I to you? I’m your damn husband! How can you go prancing around with someone who isn’t your husband and disappear for a whole day?! A whole day! And here I find you two resting somewhere in a single room together…” his voice shook with so much disappointment. “For hours I ran back and forth, made phone calls to Chief Kang and Sasha to check every damn hospital in search of you because I was afraid something might have happened…and here you are…without a scratch, but spending a whole day with Eunhyuk…in a single room? I’m wondering now…who am I to you?”
The conversation faded in Victoria’s memory. For a few days after, it had been hard for the both of them to share words with each other. Donghae had been visibly hurt. And even then, Victoria couldn’t explain herself. Why had it been difficult to tell Donghae what really happened? Victoria still couldn’t find the answer.
For a million times, she was sure Donghae could have married someone better than her. Yet, when she thought of all he’d done for her, all they’d been through together…she would wonder why she would even think that. Did she not love him too when he came after her? When he was lying in the hospital, did she not purposely keep him company? Yes, she loved him too.
Then why couldn’t she tell him why she’d really gone the whole day with Eunhyuk and what they really did? Why couldn’t she say a damn thing!?
Her hand climbed unconsciously over her abdomen, maybe in hopes of searching for a little bump. The child Donghae had been waiting for had finally come. Would she make the same mistake this time around?
No, no. She couldn’t. It couldn’t happen again. Victoria wanted the baby. She wanted to have the baby for her and Donghae.
Honestly, she had promised herself not to think about In Seol or the baby he’d left her with. But with Nana’s earlier question…she was starting to ponder the forbidden thoughts again. She knew it was bad to worry. It was unhealthy to become occupied with thoughts that made her depressed. It would affect the baby as it grew and she didn’t want a sad baby, but a happy one. She wanted a bright child, one that would smile at all times. A child that would resemble her and Donghae and their love.
“Victoria?”
Her eyes opened alarmed and she found Donghae standing at the door.
“Are you feeling unwell?” he asked worried.
What had she been thinking earlier? She was really a fool. Here she had a husband, the best one in the world, yet she was thinking about so many other things.
“No,” she replied starting to sit up, but Donghae quickly leapt over her to the other side of the bed to lie down as well.
He tossed an arm over her and snuggled against her back.
“Taking a nap without me?” Donghae wondered.
Should she tell him what she was really thinking about? It might create another argument and she really didn’t want to argue with him. It would be such a sad thing to break the smile he was carrying.
“No,” she replied placing a hand over his while enjoying the warmth of his body.
He gently placed his head on her neck.
“I just had a talk with Eunhyuk,” he told. “I feel kind of bad for the guy, so I wanted to say some things to encourage him.”
“He does need to be encouraged after all.”
“He does, doesn’t he?” Donghae agreed. “I’m glad we weren’t like them.”
“It’s only because you’re an overconfident person,” Victoria commented.
“Proud of it.” he giggled against her.
A smile also spread itself across her lips.
“Donghae, we’ll have this baby, right?” she asked after a moment of silence.
“Of course we will.” he sounded sure. “We’ll have a baby boy.”
“Donghae,” his name rolled off her tongue.
“Hmmm?”
Victoria paused to gather some breath, “I’m sorry.”
“What?”
“I really love you.”
“Who else would you love?” he teased. “I know. I love you too.”
The smile from earlier had already dissolved from her face. She couldn’t set her heart at ease yet. It wasn’t because they weren’t back in the safe of their home. It was because In Seol still clouded her mind. And the day she had spent with Eunhyuk…
When would she be able to tell Donghae about it?
She was scared. Donghae had been angry about the incident for a long time, and he was still angry. He’d be even more upset if she brought it up. Even if he wanted to know what really happened, would he be able to accept it when she told him?
Victoria worried even more.
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It had been a light day at work and Yuri had been able to avoid coming in contact with anyone working on the homicide case. Steering her wheel straight as she drove into her driveway, she put the car in park and slowly stepped out from the comfort of her small car. Slinging her bag over her shoulder she started toward the front door when running footsteps and a shout made her turn.
“Excuse me, miss.”
When she spun around she spotted a young man bent over with hands on knees catching his breath. She quickly recognized him as the soju tent owner’s son.
“Yes?” she asked shifting her whole body so she could face him.
Panting some more, he straightened up and Yuri was surprised to see how tall he was compared to herself. His boyish hair didn’t help her in assuming his age.
“Is your house under construction or something? Or maybe perhaps you’re having your house checked out for damage?” he wondered.
Yuri’s brain twisted, “Eh?”
“I mean…” his face flushed from frustration or maybe embarrassment from assuming. “There’s been a lady going around your house lately. My mother stops by to check up on her tent sometimes and she’s been seeing someone go around your house early in the mornings and late at night, so…she was just curious.”
Yuri stared at him blankly. Someone going around her house? Maybe it was the neighbor?
“The house isn’t under construction,” Yuri clarified, “but thanks. I’ll be on the lookout to see if there’s anything strange.”
“Then…I’ll be off now. Sorry to bother you,” he bowed before running off toward his mother.
Yuri watched him go before glancing around the quiet street.
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Changmin awoke from his small nap thirsty. It was quiet and he wondered if the others were also sleeping as well. With a short yawn he got up and headed down the stairs to hear someone moving in the kitchen. Stepping in he found Yuri pouring herself a cup of water.
“Oh? You’re home already?” Changmin questioned.
Yuri spun around surprised.
“Are you all resting? I was wondering why no one was down here,” Yuri said. “You want some water?”
“Sure,” Changmin answered.
Yuri grabbed another cup, poured some water, and pushed it over to him. Changmin grabbed the cup and drank out of it while watching Yuri carefully. For some reason, she seemed to act so cool now. Had she done something he didn’t know about?
“Ah…for the play…I was wondering if you might have something Nana could borrow,” Changmin shyly suggested, “it’s kind of a formal event so…”
“Ok, I’ll take care of it,” Yuri easily replied then reached into her bag and pulled out two large tickets. “Here.”
Changmin glanced at the tickets in Yuri’s hand and accepted them.
“Thanks.”
Yuri grabbed her cup and drained the rest of her water. Changmin took his cup and turned around to walk away. He didn’t know what to say to Yuri. How to talk to her, he felt nervous and unsure now.
“Changmin,” Yuri’s voice made him stop, but he didn’t turn around.
Yuri didn’t continue right after. He wondered if she just wanted to say his name.
“I know, Changmin…I know,” Yuri gently said. “You can stop now.”
Stop? What was Yuri talking about? He recalled her yelling at him yesterday. Did it have something to do with his being nice to Nana?
“Changmin,” Yuri said again, “if I started all this trouble, I’m sorry, but we’ve known each other for a long time so I really wish you could be honest with me. Changmin, I like…”
“I know,” Changmin cut her off afraid to hear what would come next.
He slightly turned his head to look at her.
“I…I’m going to go back upstairs,” while gripping tightly onto the tickets he rushed toward the stairs.
***Yuri could've confessed! Changmin would've heard it! But NO! He had to cut her off -___________________-
***Finally moving back to HaeToria again, which means the end is drawing near since it started off with them, and it's going to end with them.
***My friend took us around her city and we went to the Memorial Park in their city. We went to the top of the really high hill and boy did it offer us a really nice view of the lake and the other areas of the park. Even though it was practically dark, it was really windy and reminded me of those animes or kdramas where the person stands at the top, arms spread out with the wind blowing at you. Ah...how peaceful, right? heheh~ Anyway, during those peaceful moments, I was able to think a lot and I also thought a lot about YSRMII. I don't regret spending a lot of time on the EunNa & ChangYul couples. Not at all. This story was meant for them too, not just HaeToria even though it's a sequel. But a sequel doesn't particularily have to stick to the same format as its first part, does it? Nope, cause there's no rule! So now I'm glad I wrote a lot about the side couples. And now I know how I'm going to end this story and how to get there. Stay with me until then!
***I should make a photoalbum of all my covers! LOL!
***Today, my two friends and I went to the airport to see off a Korean friend, but when we got there we found out that he'd already checked in and gone through the gate. Cause once you go through the gate, you can't come back to the other side. So, my friend texted him and we found out he already went :( Honestly, I felt kind of sad we didn't make it cause we made fun notes and a card for him xD I don't know why we stood around, but while we did it really felt like a melodramatic kdrama moment hehehe~ Cause we weren't able to say goodbye xDDD But he came back and one of the security had to stop him but they only let him walk up to the black belt separating the people going toward the plane area. So we talked while the securities stared at us LOL! Boy, was it embarrassing. Then one of the securities told him he couldn't stay anymore and led him away. :( But I'm really glad he even came back to see us :) Oh well, he'll be back in September for the rest of the school year :DD But we weren't allowed to give him the card, so now my friend has to send it to him lol!! But I'm glad he told us when he was leaving and what time. The other korean guys didn't :/ So we couldn't say bye to them :/ Oh well :D
spring semester ends this friday and i'm off for summer break :D i'll get back on track with YSRMII
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