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We fell in love in little words and steps
Gikwang’s POV
She was with him. She stayed the night at HIS house. What the hell did they do? Are they friends now? Or worse, are they together? I felt terrible. I felt a thousand times worse than ever. I couldn’t believe it. And I couldn’t believe how harsh I was. I overdid it. I hurt her, and I could see that. I offended her, right then when I told her I didn’t’ care. She believed me, and I bet when I left…he comforted her, not me. She probably realized what an idiot I am and how cool and better Yoon Doojoon is. I bet she lost interest long before now. The first thing I wanted to do was go back there, I wanted to run to her and hold her so close, let her know I never wanted to make her feel this way. I know I’ve hurt her…
Gikwang, you could have at least listened to what she had to say. But I couldn’t. For once, something belonged to me. Miu was…is my friend, she’s not just that. She’s the first person to have ever given me a chance, she’s so special and I…I love her. I can’t stand it’s the only thing I had. And now, it’s gone, all because of Doojoon. The idiot that has been making my life hell since day one, I’ve lost the only thing that ever belonged to me, to him, again. I clenched my fists and banged them against my locker hard. You’ve messed up Gikwang.
Whatever went through my head for the rest of that day, I couldn’t get the image of Miu and Doojoon being so cosy and comfy around each other. Laughing and smiling in the cooridoors, while I desperately seeked for her. Maybe you do deserve better than someone like me Miu…maybe you’re better off with the most popular guy in school.
Miu’s POV
I dully walked down my street, on the way to…where? I can’t go home, and how exactly would I stay at Doojoon’s? I already told him to piss off, and besides I don’t want to. I checked my phone once. It was charged and only now did I see the countless texts and calls from Gikwang. He was up all night, looking for me. Then it suddenly came to me, a quick flashback.
‘I love you, Gikwang’
I whisper in the rain, in his arms. ‘OH MY GOD’ I shouted to myself, I grabbed my cheeks. I CONFESSED TO GIKWANG YESTERDAY? I thought…and then I sighed in relief. ‘Oh wait…that wasn’t Gikwang, it was…’ I paused. ‘Me?’ says a voice behind me. I turn to find that person, I glare and turn back, ignoring him. ‘You really need to stop talking to yourself’ Doojoon says catching up with me, walking next to me like he always did. ‘I told you to leave me alone’ I said quietly. ‘You have nowhere to stay’ he says reasonably, I could tell he was trying hard to handle me, to not make me explode like before. ‘It’s fine I’ll stay somewhere else’ I said, but really in my head…I needed him to stop me, because I really had nowhere to stay. ‘No you won’t, just stay at the dorm I won’t bother you’ he said, almost frustrated with the needless arguing. ‘You want me to stay In a dorm with 5 boys?’ I said trying to be less mean. He looks down and chuckles lightly, damn…Doojoon is an , but he sure is handsome.
‘We won’t bother you. I promise’ He smiles softly. I was kind of getting used to being around him, but annoyed me that somewhere around here, Gikwang could be watching. He could see me and Doojoon walk away together, it could hurt it… he could really believe there’s something between us, if he sees us. ‘…I don’t want to’ I say looking down, clutching my bag. ‘Why, because you don’t want Gikwang to see?’ He says, like he read my mind. I opened my mouth to argue, but what was the point? ‘…Yeah’ I muttered. ‘You’re…never gonna give me a chance…right?’ he said, but he sounded less pained, like he expected it.
I looked up at him, I felt bad, like I really was trying to not hurt his feelings. What happened to me? And since when are we friends? I nodded slowly, and Doojoon…looked disappointed. ‘Doojoon…I’m sorry, but…I like Gikwang’ I said scratching the back of my head. He snickered, but friendily, I felt less bad. ‘You mean you love him’ he says and looks up at me shyly, he looked cute, like the different Doojoon I thought I knew. I got a slight shock from what he said… ‘You…um…heard that’ I said red as a tomato. I guess I did confess to Gikwang in Doojoon’s arms after all. ‘Yeah, you sort of said it yesterday’ he says with a small smile. I nod embarrassed. ‘I’ll accept this…if you let us be friends’ he says jokingly. Somehow, I didn’t want to say no. He was being nice after all and he didn’t seem like such an when you got to know him.
‘Fine then Doojoon, friends’ I said smiling. He laughed lightly and looked down at the floor. ‘Why are you laughing?’ I asked confused. ‘That’s the first time you didn’t call me Donjong’ he said. I punched his arm lightly and we walk to his dorm. It felt good that we were okay, but I still had a heavy heart, and I couldn’t forget Gikwang’s words.
‘I don’t care what you two did’
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