Why do they look really happy? Oh yeah, it just happens that this is new year's eve and the sky is so clear despite of the winter wind. They hold hands, kids to their moms or dads, lovers to their loved ones, even those waiters running here and there are putting that big smiles on their faces chatting with their collagues...

And here I am...

Why do I have to be that stupidly confident saying that I'll be okay being left alone this year once again? Yeah, that friend of mine, how dare he ditch me for his new-found ducky- crush just 24 hours ago! I swear I'll roast all of his fish in his aquarium-nah.. Donghae will kill me if he finds out I harm one of his family members.. Ah and that fishy boy must be in one of the beautiful places on earth right now spending the last nigjt of the year somewhere with his monkey boyfriend-can you see how odd this pair is? They may be in a cruise... watching the sky on the blue ocean holding each glass of wine..

I turn my eyes to a beautiful slice of cake in front of me.. the shiny glace of chocolate with a cute little cherry on top. Too beautiful to cut or eat but yeah.. I can just order another one. I scrible down on my phone lookin for something interesting to pass the time while once in a while enjoying the view from the glass wall beside me. Luckily I choose the second floor, people will be too busy with themselves to see me sitting here alone so desperately. Sigh..

Taking a little of my chocolate milk, I inhale the sweet scent and it just reminds me to those old days.. O my God, why is it so hard for me to fall in love?! There are plenty of beautiful and noce people atound me but why won't even one of them click with me?! I cuty cake in a bit anger and shove it into my mouth. Sigh..

"Jae, sorry, it's just that I'm still so busy but I'll be back once it's cool down.." 

I stare at him with my acknowledging smile. 

"It's okay, Jaehyun-ah.." 

It's his restaurant by the way, hey I'm not here for free food! It's just that I had asked for a table here so sudden and he was kindly gave me one of the best one.. I've ordered a full course too. Talking about the man, he is so boyfriend material like people said so often. Kind, considerate, warm and friendly, strong and dependable. Oh, don't forget his perfect figure and handsomeness! But why don't I fall for him? I can only have him as a friend.. just like the others.

Museun malbuteo halkka meomchwojyeo issneun pen
Maeumeul olmgyeo jeokgiga
Saenggakboda cham eoryeopne

Neoreul tashageona miwohajin anha
Neoui geu ttatteushan maltu
Ijeneun heurishal mankeum
Nan gwaenchanheun deusi geureokjeoreok sara
Mudeonhan deut boijiman daman ajik

I'm not over you
I'm not over you
Su eopsi honja banbokhaneun apeun maldeul
I'm waiting for you

The sound of the piano and that soft feathery voice.. it's so soft but how can it really fierce through my heart really hard. I turn my head so fast downstairs. The little stage is still clearly seen from my table. I think Jaehyun has just set up my table in this corner out of my sudden request but hey, he did it well. It fits me so well. I see the singer who is so drown in his own world with his song accompanied by a man playing the piano. My heart beats faster along the song..

Museun mareul sseobwado cheoeumeuro doraga
Nae sonkkeuteul butjaba bwado
nae meori sogen kkamahge nega beonjyeo

I'm not over you
I'm not over you
Su eopsi honja banbokhaneun apeun maldeul
I'm waiting for you

Bamsaedorok sseo naeryeogan nae mam
Ssodanaego isseo michyeosseo nan
Oneuldo neol meomchuji moshae
I'm not over you

I'm not over you
I'm not over you
Da kkeutnassdan geol almyeonseodo yeojeonhi nan

At some point my heart stops for a moment, I don't even realize that my tears have been rolling down my cheeks. My head is spinning it is like something has triggered one of the buttons inside. Cleching my hands on my knees, I can't even turn my eyes away along the tune and that heavenly voice creating a hu