Today is just one of those same days, I actually hate this. I don't like arguing with my family, but every single time they try to talk it over, the result is always ended up the same. So here I am, sitting alone on the bench under the roof of a little hut at this secluded park, trying to ease my heart and mind. The serene of the surrounding along with the cold breeze helps me calming myself down. Is it goin to rain again? Just like yesterday? No wonder there are only few people passing by.

I like spending my time staring at the huge pond in front of me, lots of lotuses are blooming, a really nice view, but two days ago, all those beautiful sceneries in front of me were swept away by a presence. It had captured my eyes, and I was left awestrucked. For a moment I was drawn by his presence.

I just know it. It's started since the last year of my high school, and it has become a huge issue and concern in my family. Well, at least for them. We always be really opened to any problems we faced and find a solution, but not to this one. It seems to always find a dead end, for them who can't yet accepted this fact, and for me who has seemedly helpless, it's been a huge struggle for the following years. Once again, we have to be clashed with each others. Those set-up meetings, honestly speaking, are big tortures.

I can't really depend myself. I haven't had anyone that I love dearly so far, which always fuels their beliefs that I just need to meet that right girl for me who can change everything, but so far I'm positive that those girl, they're just not the one. Somehow, I'm so frustrated myself, finding that it just doesn't work with those girls, and yet, that one guy-the pefect one for me, has shown no sign to come to my life. So far all of those guys are just close enough as my friends, but this guy...

He has taken my heart just by sitting down beside me, doing nothing.

Yup, nothing. I was too speechless to utter any words, and he seemed to be drowned in his own thoughts.

His red hair, those one-lidded eyes, prefect nose, ripen pair of lips, and nice jawline, God, he's been made perfectly as a human! Judging from the thick jacket with the sweater underneath, a pair of well-fitted jeans, he isn't look like any regular worker. Is he a model? That day my mind was filled with this stranger, and yup, up until now.

It will be pleasant if he's here, right? How can I even have this thought that he's the one for me? I don't even know his name! I'm sure the age-gap between us won't be that far, and how I really wanna hear his voice..

I take my phone and start to scroll down list of the songs I'll play to kill the time, don't have any plan to go back home anytime soon. Putting on the headset on my ears, my move is stopped midway when my eyes catch him. Oh God, he's here! Continue on plugging my headset, I prefer to spend the time, a blissful one, enjoying his presence beside me. He's wearing a jacket with ripped-jeans and a pair of boots. He looks stunning as usual, specially with those spiky hair.

I swear I have planned of something to come up with, imagining that he'd show up again here. So I've made some scenario of what I'd say, but my plan is ended up just as a plan since again, just like before, I just sit here saying nothing, secretly enjoying his presence, sharing the same bench, taking in the same air, staring at the same sky beside me. I think I can accept it, for now. Just let me have him again next time and I promise I'll be better.

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Today is completely crazy. I've made one of the most craziest decision in my entire life. I've decided to leave the house and live alone away from my family. There was a huge argument and seeing how they kept adamant with their mind, I can no longer find my place there. But yeah, it's crazy. Where should I live? I have nowhere to go. It's a sudden decision, and here I am, sitting with just a wallet in my hand. I'm totally out of my mind! Should I call Hee hyung?

"Okay, Hyung.. Thanks, it's okay. I'll be at your place at dinner time. See you then, hyung. Thanks again."

Seems like I'll be staying here much longer, and I wish I've taken a thicker jacket. The wind blows harder and I can feel the chill. It's goin to be raining again soon. I have to go. At least I still have some money to go to the nearest coffee shop to have a hot treat for the day while waitin