Yoongi's Pov

I was sitting in the taxi with Beilinh while getting to her grandparents' place. Even though I heard Beilinh saying something to me, my brains were not functioning properly to actually hear what she said. I was traveling inside of my train of thoughts while thinking about the conversation with mom earlier. 

Flashback

"Can I come in?" I asked even though I was already standing inside of her room. What I saw made my heart feel uneasy. My mom had a thick bandage around her head and her both legs were wrapped up as well. I couldn't see what else was wrong with her since the blanket covered rest of her body. She looked tired.

"Is it you Yoongi-ah?" My mom squinted her eyes open as I made my way closer.

"Neh.. I heard what happened and--" I started but mom cut me off.

"Why did you come?" She asked weakly and I stopped walking.

"What do you mean?" I furrowed my brows to her.

"Why did you come to me? You could've just stayed away." Mom turned her head to look away from me.

"I came because I heard what happened and was worried about you. I was afraid you'd die!" I accidentally raised my voice.

"Like you've ever cared." Mom snorted and I lowered my gaze. It was true that when she was sick or hospitalized, I'd never gone to see her. I'd never gone because I was too angry, too sensitive -but mostly- too afraid. I was afraid her reaction since she was the one who kicked me out four years ago.

"You know perfectly fine that it's because of my job." I said still gazing the floor.

"Your job huh?" Mom sounded annoyed.

"It is my job now. I fulfilled my goal which was to reach my dreams and got even further when it became my daily job. I wanted this mom. I wanted to show people what I could do." I explained and felt this sudden emptiness inside of me. This really was the first time discussing this with her after I left home.

"You could've done better." She stated with tears in her eyes.

"Even in that state, you still won't appreciate my choice." I chuckled once but it was nothing near happiness.

"..." She didn't say anything so I continued.

"What happened to you? You were the one who supported my dreams ever since I was little. You paid my piano lessons telling me that I was the best." I shook my head in disbelief.

"..." Mom sighed heavily.

"You were the one encouraging me to do what I wanted to do when dad taught me physics. Now I only want to know what changed?" I noticed myself holding the tears inside of me.

"Your father's accident happened!" Mom finally managed to say something. "How was I supposed to raise two kids without your father's help? It was rough for me too.." She bit her lips together and I gulped hardly. "Only then I realized that my artist's career was all for nothing because I didn't earn as much as your father did. When your father passed away, I became the one paying the bills, rent, everything. I noticed that I couldn't pay those since I hadn't earned much as an artist." She explained while holding the tears in.

"..." I knew I needed to say something, there was just nothing coming out.

"I wanted you to get yourself a job you'd get benefit from. If you'd become a doctor you'd have at least the financial future guaranteed. All I did was trying to help you." She shook her head and I felt a tear rolling down on my cheek.

"Mom." I whispered.

"When I heard you wanted to become a singer I just wanted for you to see it's not an easy road to take. I wanted to show you how the life was for me when I had no money, no friends to rely to, nothing. I wanted for you to see how hard it was, only for you to come back home. When you didn't come, I felt that I failed as a mother." Mom told and I closed my eyes as more tears slid down.

"..."

"After Yura left for the same reason as you, I knew I did wrong. When she last time walked out of the front door I realized how stupid I'd been to prevent you from living your lives. And for that.. I'm sorry." Mom apologized and now I saw her crying. "But seeing you've become successful, makes me happy. It proves that I was wrong and I remember it all the way to my end. It was my mistake for pushing away my son." Her lips were trembling. I walked closer and reached to grab her hand. I held it tightly.

"Because of you, I learned many things but same time I had really hard time." I told with tears falling down and hitting the bed. "I didn't have hard time because you tried to teach me a lesson but I had a hard time because the person I loved the most pushed me away." Those words were the hardest for me to state.

"I'm sorry my son." Mom squeezed my hand weakly and closed her eyes. "One of my wishes came true when Yura came to me and another one when you walked inside. First I thought there's nothing for me, I'm just a waste of space. But hearing you say those words.. I love you Yoongi-ah." Mom smiled through the tears.

"I'd never leave you no matter what you'd do for me. My girlfriend taught me many things so I decided not to back down anymore. I wanted to see you but I was too afraid. I've gotten stronger through these last years." I explained with a smile.

"I'm happy I got to say what I needed to say before the deity would take me." Mom stated and loosened her grip. "Is there a way I could see your girlfriend? It could be my only chance." She chuckled once so I wiped my tears away.

"She's behind the door. I'll bring her in." I chuckled as well, trying to cover my red eyes as well as possible. "Wait a second."