Sumi's Pov

"What was that just now?" Namjoon asked as we walked in to mine and Beilinh's room. I threw my bag to the floor and removed my high heels without saying a word to him. "Sumi? You're playing mute again huh?" He sounded somehow really amused.

"No.. It's just." I sighed and placed my phone to Beilinh's desk before turning to face Namjoon properly. "There's something you need to know.." I started and saw him walking to me so the gap between us became void.

"Is it something tragic?" He eyed my facial features and I lowered my gaze. Do I really want to do this? I know I should tell him but.. Namjoon needed to know we were leaving in a month but maybe it just wasn't the best time to do that since he'd be debuting soon and I didn't want to make him worry over this. He needs to focus on his future career. I'm not so selfish to ruin his dream.

"Actually.. It's something really big." I forced myself to smile again.

"I'm getting a bit scared you know.." Namjoon furrowed his brows to me.

"Okay.. If I asked you to trust me, would you do it?" I tilted my head slightly and eyed his bit baffled expression.

"You're really scaring me out now you know.." He gritted his teeth together like he'd be thinking hard. "But of course I trust you."

"That's good." I smiled for real this time and took a step closer to him so my body hit gently his. I took a grip of his shirt's collar and pulled him down to kiss me. I kissed him shyly at first but when I felt him smiling, I opened my mouth for a deeper kiss. I moved my hands slowly lower towards his waist and felt how Namjoon playing with my tongue gently. I slid my hands under his shirt and at the same time felt his hand moving down. Suddenly I felt him withdrawing himself so I shot my gaze to his. I noticed myself panting slightly so I tried to hide it. I noticed his unpleasant look. Oh boy.. Did I screw things up?

"What's going on?" Namjoon asked like he didn't know.

"Don't act stupid Namjoon.. You know what's going on." I shook my head and avoided his gaze.

"Yeah but why? Why suddenly rush on things? I mean you don't have to force yourself--" He explained so I shifted my gaze to his.

"You don't want me?" I dared to ask with a slight of a smile. "I mean that's perfectly fine.. It would've been just nicer to know earlier since now--" I blabbered until Namjoon sealed his lips with mine.

"Shut up and let me finish." Namjoon whispered as he broke our kiss. "It's not that I don't want you since you know perfectly fine that I really do want you."  He stated sternly and suddenly his words on the beach flashed through my mind. Everything about you turns me on. And with that thought, I felt shivers running down on my skin. "It's just something I didn't see coming. I didn't think you'd be so unabashed about this.." Namjoon eyed my expression now really closely.

"There's still few things you don't know about me." I gave him a quick girly smirk and saw him smiling amusedly.

"So.. If you're fine with this.." He placed his both hands on my pelvis and pulled me closer. "Then I guess I need to figure you out fully." Namjoon smirked and kissed me more passionately than he'd ever kissed. I answered to his kiss and felt him pulling my dress' zipper down and soon removing the shoulder straps. I love you Kim Namjoon. (A/N: I'll keep this part censored since there'll be otherwise lots of mature content and there might be a bit younger readers so..)

I felt my breathing getting slowly back to normal as I lied on my mattress next to Namjoon. I was lying on my back while Namjoon had his arm placed over my waist. I dared to glance to my left to see Namjoon who had his eyes closed. My heart was beating loud and clear so I wondered if Namjoon was able to hear it also. He's so beautiful. I eyed his long lashes to his perfect lips. I really loved this guy there was no doubt. Suddenly he opened his eyes and we were now looking at each other quietly.

He leaned closer to me under the blanket and wrapped his arm tighter over me. I felt his lips kissing my cheek gently before closing his eyes again and holding me tightly.
 

"Namjoon?" I started.

"Mm?" He hummed and didn't open his eyes.

"I don't know what time it is but if Beilinh comes in and sees us like this.. She'll kill me for sure." I explained with a chuckle.

"I'm not moving." Namjoon just stated.

"I'm not telling you to go it's just.." I looked to my right and reached his clothes from the floor. "At least get dressed before she notices."

"Oh right." Namjoon sat up and started to put clothes on same as I. I took my pajama and wore it instead of wearing the same black dress than earlier. When Namjoon was done, he lied down to my mattress again and I heard a heavy sigh from him. I looked down and lied down next to him so my head was lying on his right arm.

"Wae?" I questioned when he didn't say anything after the sigh.

"..." Without any words, he just reached his left fingertips to caress my cheek lightly.

"Namjoon?" I looked slightly to my left and saw his troubled expression. He didn't like it?

"Sorry. I was just thinking." Namjoon smiled to me quickly and closed his eyes again.

"What you were thinking?" I questioned curiously and heard him exhaling slowly.

"That is it possible to love someone this much." He glanced at me and grinned which made my heart throwing somersault.

"I think it is." I snuggled against his warm body and felt him replacing the blanket over us. "At least that's what I feel for you."

"You've been overly cheesy today.. Wonder why?" Namjoon smirked to me but I just smiled to him and closed my eyes.