Still You

Still You

A/N: I'm facing my huge mirror while typing this and I had some time of acting out certain roles from the fic. Tried speaking as Soeun and Yeojin and damn, I was literally crying I didn't know I can also be a great actress. Gosh. I regret talking as them, because I feel like I'm going to sleep with such a heavy heart ~


“I'll go tomorrow to see you before you go.” Jonghyun said after dropping Yeojin into her mother's house. “I need to see you for one last time.”

 

Yeojin shook her head. “It's okay. I want to be pretty when I go. I don't want to cry and smear my make up.” She laughed, though both of them knew that it was a sad thing. “You need to go back and take some rest, and talk to Soeun tomorrow.”

 

She smiled one last time before unfastening her seatbelt. As she was about to open the door, Jonghyun stopped her by holding her hand. Her heart skipped a bit from that small touch, but she didn't want to give him a harder time being so guilty about what she was going through.

 

“Thank you.”

 

It was the first time in her life that the word 'Thank You' was actually a heiartbreaking word. It was like Jonghyun's way of saying, it was a good thing that you set me free. But she didn't want to be negative, she accepted it wholeheartedly and nodded with a genuine smile.

 

“Just make sure you'll make Soeun and Yoogeun happy.” She said and patted his hand with her other hand. “It was time for the three of you to be a real family. The painful path of being together is finallt done. It's time to be happy and enjoy the most of your time being together.”

 

“I will. Thank You.” Jonghyun said.

 

“And... don't make it hard on both of you again. Heartaches are over, okay?” She thought for a while and talked again. “Ah.. before the day ends, go to her and fix everything. Right. Do that.”

 

“Are you really sure about this, Yeojin?” Jonghyun was still in awe. Yeojin seemed to be fine. She had fully accepted everything and he didn't know if it was a good thing or not.

 

But Yeojin smiled, “It makes me feel better that you're still worrying about my feelings. I really need to go. Omma won't sleep until I arrive.” She said and was about to plant a kiss on his cheek when she immediately retreated. “I forgot I don't need to do that anymore.” She said and quickly her back and opened the door. She stepped out, closed it, and still waved at him through the window.

 

“Get in first.” Jonghyun said but Yeojin shook her head.

 

“No, leave first.” She insisted.

 

“I won't leave until I see you get inside.” He said which made her sigh. At this moment, she was sure Jonghyun would never want to lose. She eventually nodded and opened the gate of the house. She waved one last time before closing it back again to walk inside the house.

 

Jonghyun smiled and waited until she was out of his sight. There was a mixture of relief and guilt in his heart. He was relieved because finally, he got to be honest to himself and to Yeojin, but was guilty because he left her, when all she did was love him with all her best.

 

He sighed... he still had to deal with someone else before the night ends.

 

*** ***

 

Soeun and her son sat together on the couch while watching a film together. They loved doing that as a mother and son bonding whenever they had the time to do so, and now, Yoogeun was watching his favorite Despicable Me movie for the 3rd time already and Soeun wondered why he never got bored of that.

 

As time passed by, Soeun's thoughts flew somewhere else as she started thinking about her conversation with Yeojin just a while ago.

 

Eventually Yeojin found out that she never had any brain deficiency all these time, and everything was just a cover up because of what she wanted to happen. She also thought about how Yeojin decided to go and leave them all there, also filing a divorce to void any marriage right between her and Jonghyun.

 

Was it a bad thing? Or a good thing? She didn't know... and she has yet to figure out about it.

 

But she also thought... will Jonghyun come to see her? Will he be more open about his feelings and after all these years, still end up beside her... and Yoogeun?

 

She rested her head on the couch and looked up at ceiling. As she closed her eyes, different thoughts from the past up to present entered her mind. They are memories, and most of them were not as beautiful as someone normal would have in her life.

 

She never had the chance to live comfortably during her childhood. She was born in a poor family that was only able to survive from day to day basis. She grew up living in a small apartment, with her omma being just a simple housewife and her father having different jobs from here to here just to get extra money for their living. One job wasn't enough, for one never really gave a satisfying salary that would provide all they things they need. Her father, during her childhood, sold newspapers every morning, gave out flyers along establishments during afternoon, and served as a dishwasher on a small eatery during the night. It was a tough life, especially the part where she often saw her parents argue because of money. She was an only child, nothing to be with her on those times that her parents were fighting.

 

Then her mother died as she was just new to the teenage life. She had tough time adjusting especially when it was the time that she needed her mom the most. Few years later, her father remarried, and lived somewhere, almost forgetting about her. He sent her money, but that was not enough so she had to work to satisfy all her needs. Her highschool life was never happy if Jonghyun didn't came.

 

She smiled, when Jonghyun came into her mind. He was the only person that made her really happy. During those times, he was the only reason for her to smile, and just by thought of remembering the past, she was still smiling.

 

Looking back, Soeun has gone through so much of what they call life, and the worse, she never had any fair share of happiness

 

“Omma...” Yoogeun called out after hearing her mother sigh. “Are you okay? You don't feel well?”

 

“No, baby. Omma's fine. Maybe I just need some rest.”

 

Yoogeun nodded and immediately turned off the TV using the controller. “Then let's go to sleep, omma!” He said, stood up, and tried pulling his mother up from the couch.

 

“But babe, aren't you still watching the film?”

 

“I can watch it some other time, we need to rest, omma.” He insisted and pulled her again.

 

Just then, someone rang the doorbell and the two of them looked at each other. “Who is it?” Soeun frowned but Yoogeun just ran towards the door. “Yoogeun-ah! Don't open it if he's not someone you know!”

 

Yoogeun looked at the monitor. “It's Jonghyun appa, omma!” He shouted which made Soeun really nervous.

 

He never said anything about going tonight so she knew he went there by rush. She stood up in panic and was frozen when Jonghyun stepped into the house and both of them looked into each other.

 

“Why are you here, appa?” Yoogeun asked but he was ignored by Jonghyun.

 

Soeun swallowed and held her breath when she saw that look from Jonghyun's face. It was unreadable but she was certain that Jonghyun finally figured out something. If it's about her pretending about her amnesia, she didn't know...

 

Jonghyun walked and stopped when he was just few inches away from her. “First it was Yoogeun...” He said with his hardened expression. Soeun was scared. “then now, it's your memory. What else will you sacrifice in order to give what you consider is better for me?”

 

“Jonghyun ah.. I... I...”

 

“Damn, Jung Soeun, when will you stop deciding for my sake? I don't need you to keep pushing yourself away from me. Why would you go as far as faking it? Do you know how it hurts?”

 

She bit her lower lip and looked down, her tears falling as she felt not the pain but the overflowing of love Jonghyun was sending her. He loved her that's why he was angry, and she didn't know how to react with such love that he had for her.

 

“Look at me.” Jonghyu ordered which Soeun slowly complied on. As she lifted her head to meet his eyes, Jonghyun leaned down and owned her lips. Her eyes widened in surprised but was even more shocked when Jonghyun wrapped an arm around her waist and pulled her closer. The kiss lasted for few seconds before Jonghyun let go and looked at her again. “From now on, you won't ever .. ever .. need to run away from me again.” He said carefully wiping her tears away.

 

Meanwhile, Yoogeun was standing in front of them with his hands covering his eyes. He found that scene familiar and knew that his mother would often cover his eyes whenever it comes out on TV while telling him it's bad for the kids to see.


A/N: This didn't reach a hundred subbies just like what the other stories had before they end mainly because this is not everybody's type of story. For those of you who were able to withstand all the hurt and pain this fic has given to you, I sincerely thank you for supporting Jonghyun, Soeun, and Yeojin... with some of you even loving the girls more than Jonghyun. This isn't really a goodbye because we are never done until Yeojin gets her happy ending. :) Let's go with Yeojin in the Philippines as she spends some time alone... and let Minho meet her again.

Yes, that was a spoiler, but I don't mind. I promise I would make up with all the hard things I gave you because of this fic so.. hang on and brace yourself for the most romantic things ever. LOL.

Still have one more chapter for this one before we move on. :)

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Chapter 56 will probably be on Saturday afternoon or Sunday morning ~ Sorry I wasn't able to keep my promise on updating immediately. I can't seem to focus well

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Issdnn
#1
Chapter 71: Honestly at first I was doubting myself whether to read this story or nor because from tue comments below, I assumed that Yeojin and Jonghyun didnt end up together and it somehow make my heart breaks</3
(And yes, I read the comments first before the chapter one)
But I chose to read this until the end because Im really curious about its sequel, Perfect Two.
And as I read this story, I realized so many deep meanings inside. Like first, being happy doesnt mean being comfortable but being comfortable doesnt mean being unhappy. I understand this as I know that Yeojin lets Jonghyun go bcs it will be uncomfortable for both of them to be together when both of them know that they dont belong to each other. And the fact that Yeojin feels comfy around Minho, it creates happiness between both of them.
And second, fight for what u have to fight for. I know this sentence is common but I really understand this when I see Jonghyun and Soeun fight for their relationship. I didnt like Soeun at first but as the story flows, I realize Soeun didnt do anything wrong. Now im glad they end up being together or else it will make Yeojin sounds like a really bad OC when in fact she is my fav here:')
And last, from Yeojin I realize too that when u letting go of smthg for the sake of someone, u will get smthg in return. Im happy she meets Minho bcs of Jjong:')
Okay in conclusion, good job!:') i really learnt alot, and i enjoy the plot:')
Sorry english isnt my first languange so well...yeah:')
And thank u once again:')
mushroomonew #2
Chapter 15: why i got the feeling that yeojin will just leave jonghyun and let him be with soeun :(
lee-chelle #3
Chapter 69: Thank goodness for yoogeun. I needed that comedy break after all that heartbreaking drama lol. Can't believe I'm saying this but I really liked both of the women. Usually the author would sway the reader in an obvious way. I guess that's why the plot was even more heartbreaking but beautifully written. ^^
lovescomplicate #4
Chapter 71: Wow this fic is just awesome. The storyboarding and all. Soeun is just soooo sweet sacrifice so much pity her! But she finally get her part of happiness
silentlydreaming1209
#5
Chapter 54: Well, can I say I do understand this one? I know about this things somehow. And it's quite a bad thing. No I think this is really a bad thing.
silentlydreaming1209
#6
Chapter 42: OMG! They are cheating! I mean... OMG! Why? OMG. Gosh! But that was sweet.
JadeKKeyLoveYOU
#7
Chapter 71: I absolutely loved this story.
It's great and well written.
You did a great job!
Now I'm going to read the sequel.~
pradiv1819 #8
Chapter 71: wow i loved d way yeojin said her final bye...finally soeun n jjong r together...another good fic frm you...great keep going...
pradiv1819 #9
Chapter 71: wow i loved d way yeojin said her final bye...another good fic frm you...great keep going