Chanyeol —

Hello. 

I wonder how all of you are dealing with everything.

According to my calendar, it’s been four months.

I hope you’re all okay. 

Can I ask you something?

How can I get past this?

At this point, I’m heartbroken. 

I love Ariel. I do. 

But I never got to tell her. So how? I feel like an extreme idiot for telling her my true feelings. I should have when she left that night. 

Here I am, in my room with my precious Hannah. (She’s my guitar if you forgot.) I’m dwelling my pain away writing songs, listening to sad music or I’m trying not to cry when my mind brings back memories of Ariel. 

I force myself to not think of her. I don’t go on Youtube anymore. I don’t drink fruit flavored drinks. I can’t even look at makeup without being reminded of that one night she put makeup on me. 

Can I tell you guys a secret?

I wrote a song for her. 

I remember when we first met, she told me people around her never complimented her. She use to get flustered all the time when I called her beautiful. She’s like a Disney princess. 

That’s why I wrote something for her. It’s not done yet, so I’m not going to reveal anything about it. You’ll all have to wait. 

Don’t you all have questions for me?

I’ll answer them. 

When was the last time you talked to her?

That night she left.

Why haven’t you called Ariel?

Different time zones. My schedule is keeping me away from my phone all the time. 

Why did you drink that night?

I wanted to drink the pain away.

Why were you a complete to Ariel?

I was drunk. 

Why