Confess, or not?
Maknae Still Believes in Fate!=Yumi's POV=
The next day started and ended without me texting or talking to Kyuhyun-ssi.
Yes, I am talking about the day after our kiss,
after that mind-blowing, confusing, but surprisingly perfect kiss.
But for some reason, I chose not to contact him for the whole day,
actually, he also did the same thing.
Don't get me wrong here, I did that not because I hated what happened,
If you ask me how I felt,
Oh God. ASDHSCFJLLLMNC!
I loved it, I swear I could kiss and hug you right now to prove so.
But I don't know,
I really don't know what to tell him or say to him right now.
I feel like it's gonna be too awkward.
I am so freaking confused.
Like, should I act like nothing happened?
Should I tell him that I liked it?
Or should I ask him if he liked it?
I mean, come on!
That would just be plain inappropriate.
But, something was bothering me even more.
Why wasn't he contacting me?
Don't tell me,
Is he avoiding me now?
Does he not like me?
Did he not feel something with that kiss?
GAAAHHH!
Jung Yumi, what the hell is happening to you!?
I actually waited the whole day for even just one message,
One message.
Guess what, it's already 9pm.
*sigh* Stop dreaming, Jung Yumi.
I decided to take a shower first before I go to sleep.
After taking a shower, I opened my phone and saw that there were two messages.
Oh please, please let at least one message come from him. Please.
I nervously opened my inbox,
Well...guess what?
Both of the messages were from him.
AMEN.
I opened the first message.
"Yumi-ssi?"
Then the second read.
"Uhm. Are you mad?"
WHAT THE HELL CHO KYUHYUN.
Why the hell would you think I'm mad?!
Well, yes.
I am kind of mad.
I'm a girl who's uncertain of her feelings for her only best friend,
I guess you could consider that being mad.
I thought of what reply should I give him.
Hmm. This is harder than I thought.
"Mad? Why? Why would I be mad at you? ^^"
You should be the one mad at me.
Unless you liked my kiss too.
HAHAHAHA~
"Oh. I just thought so since you didn't contact me for the whole day. ^.^ Kekeke~"
Aish. Should a girl really be the first one to make the move!?
"Well, you didn't contact me. I wouldn't be the one to contact you first, you know." I anxiously replied.
"What? Why? You sound like you have feelings for me."
W-WHAT!?
Cho Kyuhyun, how dare you!
"What?! I can't believe you're flirting with me. Kekeke~ first time, Cho Kyuhyun."
"You didn't answer my question. You like me, don't you? ^^"
. CRAP. HELL.
What the hell should I tell him.
Ugh. Deny, Jung Yumi!
A message came in as I typed my reply.
"I'm kidding, Yumi-ssi. You didn't have to think of an answer that hard. Kkk."
Aish. Is he doing this to make me confess to him or something?
Well Kyuhyun-ssi, unfortunately, I'm not that gullible.
I'm totally not falling for this trap.
"Sorry I just had to reply to someone. What? Maybe it's you who has feelings for me, Kyuhyun-ssi. ^.^"
He didn't reply for a couple of minutes.
HA. IN YOUR FACE, KYUHYUN-SSI.
Now you can't say it yourself, huh?
Wait. What the hell am I assuming anyway?
Do I actually think that the Cho Kyuhyun has feelings for me?!
GAHD. JUNG YUMI, STOP BEING DELUSIONAL.
After a few minutes more, he finally replied back.
My heart almost burst out of my ribcage as I read his message.
"What if I do?"
Crap.
Kyuhyun-ssi, please don't say that.
I might just die of happiness right at this moment.
Ugh. Aniyo!
Why am I doing this?
My feelings for who's supposed to be my best friend just changed drastically because of a kiss?
An accidental, probably meaningless for him, kiss?
What is wrong with me?!
I can't possibly just tell him that I like him right,
or what if he does too?
But gah! Still. This is too risky.
I feel like I'm risking our friendship.
Risking it for something unpredictable.
Though I do have this feeling that it's worth risking for.
I received yet another message from Kyuhyun-ssi.
"Our MV's said to be released tomorrow. ^^ Wait for it, okay? I have to train now. Goodnight, sleep well."
Wait, did he just forget that he asked me a question or did he change the topic on purpose?
But heck,
The MV's gonna be released tomorrow!?!?!
WOOHOOO~
PARTYYY!
now I feel like I don't know what I'm looking forward to anymore.
Or specifically,
who I'm looking forward to.
Siwon oppa...
or Kyuhyun-ssi?
and I can't believe I still call him the formal way though.
Kyuhyun...oppa?
Kekeke~ That would be too awkward.
"Really!? Can't wait! Arasso, goodnight. Take care, Kyuhyun-ssi. ^.^"
I guess I'm not yet sure of my feelings though.
I don't know if this is the right thing to do anymore.
I don't know if I should be pushing through to know what I really feel,
or if I should stop here and end my feelings as early as this.
I need...signs.
=Kyuhyun's POV=
"Sorry I just had to reply to someone. What? Maybe it's you who has feelings for me, Kyuhyun-ssi. ^.^"
CRAP.
BLANK.
MIND-BLOWING.
FREEZING.
MIND-BLOBBERING QUESTION.
And here I am, thinking about a million make-up excuses on how to deny the fact that I do, with all my heart and soul, like...
Aniyo, 'like' would be an understatement,
LOVE Jung Yumi.
I don't even know if I should still continue to deny this.
I mean, after what happened between us,
you know the 'sensual accidental kiss',
my hopes literally soared up.
Especially with her returning the kiss.
I mean, that can't possibly mean nothing to her, right?
Unless she just wants to play with me,
and my feelings,
but Yumi-ssi's just nothing like that.
What if...I confess to her while the iron is hot?
I anxiously typed each and every letter and hesitated,
Aniyo. I have to.
"What if I do?"
I waited for Yumi-ssi's reply.
Patiently.
As I have been waiting patiently for the girl fated for me for what seemed like my whole life,
As I have been waiting patiently for her for the past two months,
As I have been here. Waiting.
Just simply waiting.
But,
what if...I'm going too fast?
She might think that I'm just doing this because of the kiss.
Yumi-ssi, she's confused.
And that means to say that she's not yet ready.
Not yet ready to hear my confession,
Not yet ready to know my suppressed feelings for her.
Everything's been going perfect, and I can't ruin this now.
Hold it in for a little longer, okay Cho Kyuhyun?
"Our MV's said to be released tomorrow. ^^ Wait for it, okay? I have to train now. Goodnight, sleep well."
I decided to act like nothing ever happened, like the previous question had never been raised.
After a couple of minutes, she replied.
"Really!? Can't wait! Arasso, goodnight. Take care, Kyuhyun-ssi. ^.^"
Let me play my role as a best friend for a little longer,
until I'm certain that you could consider me a step more than that.
Until that day comes, I'll be here.
For you.
Only for you.
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