It's not the last chapter, just for ___'s POV. 2 chapters left!!!! *cries Niagara Falls* Please listen to the linked music, it will help set the mood.

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uQ3lSHNw9uE

3 weeks later...

"So, Ms. Yoo, you're moving where you say?" Mrs. Kim, The guidance counselor asked.

"Thailand" I said, then digging inside my back pack to find the letter from my parents.

"And you're withdrawing from this school?"

I unconfidently nodded as I finally had the letter on my hands and with a bow, I handed it to Mrs. Kim. "My parents couldn't make it today since they're busy finalizing papers for our move to the country"

It was the first time I went to school wearing my casual clothes on. Though, it was pretty acceptable since I'm going to school to withdraw from "going to school". I had a week left before leaving to Thailand.

My parents and I had decided that I should stop going to school since we will impose ourselves into preparing for our new life in the new country. 

"It's completely fine... But Ms. Yoo, tell me, how did you work things out with your beau, Mr. Lu"

I glutted from my own saliva then coughing for probably the longest time in my life. Mrs. Kim even stood up from her chair, with faltering gestures, not knowing what to do.

"Lu Han-ssi?" I said, clearing my throat.

For a guidance counselor, she's quite snoopy with people’s private lives. She nodded in reply.

"Oh… Pleasantly, Mrs. Kim"

That was a complete lie — obviously. However, I had the feeling that she knew our situation to begin with. We weren't seen together anymore, that's because I refused to be with him. Mrs. Kim probably wanted to get some confirmation, in which I didn't really understand why she would put interest in. 

I had bowed one last time, as a farewell to Mrs. Kim and Seoul High, where I had encountered many things that had helped me grow as a new person.

As I walked out of the room, closing the door, I had turned around to see Lu Han.

It was like those dramatic scenes where you feel the moment happen in slow motion and there, I had that incidental moment of gazing in his eyes for quite a long time. I was making up for those weeks that I have not seen him.

I had been avoiding him then actually and it was definitely one of the difficult trials that I had to face. Simply because, Lu Han was really good at finding me, but somehow I actually managed to hide everyday.

Apparently, he continued to look for me, despite the fact that I have never showed up in front of him.People said that he never stopped even if I never appeared in front of him, he still knew that I was at school

I hadn't gotten over it; it's quite embarrassing to stand in front of him because he probably sees me as more pathetic than any person can be. I can't deny my feelings. Like I said, I don't think my feelings for Lu Han will ever wear off.

"Hey..."

His face still remained the same. But his hair had gotten shorter. However, realizing my own common sense, we can't really expect people to change right away — 3 weeks had just passed.

I beamed a small smile but my hands were shaking so much. I was so nervous... so afraid... I honestly missed him so much.

"Why aren't you wearing your uniform?–" He instantly grabbed my hand "Come, I'll drop you off to class"

Awkwardly, I had pulled my hand away from his, his expression had changed.  Was it Disappointment?

"I'm not going to school here anymore. I'm moving, remember?"

"Right"

"Look, I have to go. I still have to do some cleaning around the house”

“I’ll drop you off then”

"It's fine" I mumbled, starting to walk away, but he ran after me.

"I'll drop you off to your house!"

"You have classes, just stay"

He strongly grabbed my wrist and slightly pulled me towards him "Why do you keep avoiding me? You've been making up excuses to get away from me and... you don't even... look at me anymore" He eased off his grip "I thought you loved me"

 I do.

It was such an unusual sight that I was also on the verge of crying. However, confidently I had held it all in.“It’s fine, Lu Han oppa. You don’t have to feel like you’re obligated to, okay? We're not dating anymore right?"

"What are you talking about?" He grabbed me in the shoulders. His grip was naturally strong, but somehow it felt as if my arms were being crushed."We never broke up... I won't—"

I stopped and turned around to face him. I was astounded by what was streaming down his face.

Tears — actual tears.

I freed myself from his grip and loudly I said "Well, I'm breaking up with you!"

And from there, I just left him behind without even telling him what I really felt about the situation. No matter how many times I keep telling myself to stay away from him, I still can't help but look for him. I really didn't want to be far away from him.

Why did I tell him off? Why did I tell him that I wanted to break up with him?

I really didn't want any of that to happen, In fact, I want to be with him —Always.

            We had begun to clear things up around the house, we had sold a lot of furniture to thrift stores and we had splurged on new clothing and things that we will bring with us to Thailand.

As I had myself in those moments of preparation, I was contented. I realized the feelings that I combatted through happiness and sadness, and I was really thankful.

But of course, I had never forgotten about Lu Han and how he had held me too tightly, telling me how he will never break up with me. I never wanted to in the first place, but I don't have the confidence to continue on. Knowing that I'm still dating him while I'm settled in another country, it's lonesome.

He deserves someone way better than I am.

Though as days passed, and our time to leave Seoul is impending, it was upsetting to see the house disappearing. There weren't any furnitures left in the house except for our beds, our closet have been cleared and was put away in our baggage.

It felt really empty (like literally), that whenever I speak, it seems as if I'm speaking very loudly and the cold air  had completely circulated around the house.

"Unnie, want me to help you out?" Mei suddenly suggested.

I was startled "It's okay" I promptly grabbed the box and walked towards the door but  I hesitated to open the door. We're leaving soon. I could hear my parents shuffling things around and moving around to put things inside our car.

They were so excited and they think that I was but in reality I didn't want to leave.  I had took a moment to scan the empty space and closed my eyes, to calm myself down.

I'm going to miss all of my friends.

And of course Lu Han.

"Unnie?" Mei said.

"Oh! sorry..." I slowly turned the doorknob and I saw Mrs. and Mr Lu helping my parents outside of the house. In an instant, they saw me standing out of our house and waved at me.

I waved back; fatigued. I scanned around the outside, Lu Han wasn't even there. Where is he?

"Gege, is sleeping over at Wang Zi's place" Mei said, promptly.

"Oh I wasn't–"

"Of course you didn't" she chuckled.