Hey guys! I'm SO SORRY that I've been very busy these past few days.

I haven't been able to update.

So, I'll be doing a TRIPLE UPDATE for you guys today! <3333

But before that, COMMENT REPLIES!

It's funny how all of you guys think that YoungHae is the REALLY BAD PERSON here. Just like kprincess1995 and imkeysyeobo that think and that she deserved being litterally choked by Jonghyun-sshi. x] And it's even FUNNIER that some people [like PaintMeBrown and geec_II ] even ECOURAGED Jonghyun-sshi's attempt! x]

I guess Younghae-sshi really IS a here. x]]

But anyway, the title of this chapter really is something, because it reveals what everyone didn't know while the whole "SHINee-planning-to-kill-Younghae" fiasco was happening. It's not explicitly stated though, but from here, you guys might get an idea. =]

So, are you guys ready for the shocker?

Brace yourselves.

Enjoy.  =]

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April 28, 2011
Hospital Severance Event - SHINee's Holding Area
7:18 P.M.

"Tell me truthfully, YoungHae-sshi. Were you the one who tried to kill Rin-ah?!" JongHyun exclaimed as he continued to hold tightly onto the girl's throat. When YoungHae tried to protest, he tightened his hold on her.

"Liar. I KNOW you were the one who placed the super glue chemicals in my Rin-ah's grape juice. YOU were the one who tried to kill her!" He added, an evil smirk spread on his face as he relished the feeling of making the one who made his loved one suffer feel pain.

"That's why, maybe this time I could try to kill YOU so that you'd feel how MY GIRL feels being under the mercy of time, and the intervention of someone who might've been MERCIFUL enough to save her."

In the background, the other four members began to get worried and scared for their main vocalist, whom they didn't expect to explode like that.

By how hard he is holding YoungHae's throat, all of them knew that even if they try to separate him from the girl, it wouldn't work. He looked like he was ready to kill, and no one from SHINee could stop him.

YoungHae was now gasping for air, and her struggles started to get weaker. This made everyone afraid.

If he doesn't stop or no one stops him right now...

"HAJIMA!"

A very familiar voice echoed throughout the holding area, and just like a frantic person who had just been slapped to snap out of his hysteria, JongHyun looked to the entrance of the area to find the ONE PERSON he least expected to see.

"Rin-ah?"

JongHyun immediately let YoungHae go and rushed towards her, but even before he could reach her, she held out a hand and said...

"Don't touch me."

= = = Chapter Soundtrack: Y Si Fuera Ella - SHINee [JongHyun Solo] = = =

"I said DON'T TOUCH ME!" She once more exclaimed when the male held her hand, and unable to control herself...

...she slapped him.

As the shock crossed the features of every single face in the room, ShiRin walked towards the girl who attempted to kill her, and surprisingly, she helped her stand up.

"What are you doing, ShiRin-ah?! Don't you know who she is?!" Key frantically asked.

"Yes, I know her. She is Yeon YoungHae, the girl who attempted to kill me because she doesn't like me. She doesn't like me sticking around with you..." She began, and even more surprise showed in the men's faces.

"And you know what? She's right. Her e-mail made sense. I should leave the JongHyun of the ShaWols alone. I should not lead SeKyung-sshi's Jjong-ah away from the one who loves him."

JongHyun couldn't believe his ears.

"Here." ShiRin murmured, before taking out her wallet and giving YoungHae a few Won.

"Use this to buy yourself some painkillers and rent a place to rest. I know you hate me because you think I'm flirting with SHINee. But I'm not." She said to the shocked YoungHae. ShiRin pushed the money into YoungHae's hands, and a confused look crossed the latter's face.

"Take it. It's fine with me." She murmured, still supporting YoungHae's body, before looking at SHINee.

"I have talked to SooMan Sajang-nim the moment I got to Japan and I asked him to let me have a search team on my own. He let me, and I asked him not to let you know about this thing I'm doing, because I can't just rest at ease knowing that I might've done something for this girl to hate me so much that she'd kill me. In fact, it was I who found out about her first, and I just reported it to him." ShiRin began, then looked at the still weak YoungHae.

"And you said that I never belonged in his world anyways. It's true, I'm just a girl who forced herself into his world when I warned him about SeKyung-sshi because I saw them together..." She continued.

"Rin-ah..." JongHyun murmured as he heard ShiRin's next words.

"And if SeKyung-sshi wants him, then he's hers."

"What are you saying, Noona?!" TaeMin screamed, not believing what the woman is saying.

"I love the guy, true. But I have no right to. Me loving him destroys my career, but him loving me destroys his life. I can lose my career and find another thing to do with my life, but if I take his career away from him, then he could boil down to nothing. If I wreck other peoples' perception of myself, I could live. But I know that if people would look at him differently, they wouldn't put him in any place other than the stage." ShiRin said while looking at YoungHae, but meaning more to JongHyun in reality than to her.

"Which is why..." she said, once again facing SHINee.

"...I'm cutting off all connections with SHINee. All other artists of SME can talk to me, and groups of other companies even. But not you five. Not you, most especially." She began, pointing her finger to JongHyun.

"I went back here with HeeSung-ah and JaeLi Sunbae-nim so that I could prepare for my comeback, which would perhaps come around the time after the SNSD Unnies come back on stage as well. I just got back 30 minutes ago, and I went straight here, knowing that THIS was going to occur..." She said before escorting YoungHae out of the holding area where HeeSung was.

As her 'cousin' continued to accompany YoungHae away from them, she glared at every SHINee member.

"I need to talk to you before I officially cut off all connections... and I'll just make this quick."

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April 28, 2011
Severance Hospital Event - SHINee's Holding Area
7:18 P.M.

"Are you serious about this?" MinHo-yah asked me, and I nodded.

"Yes, I'm serious about this. Everything has been a fun roller coaster ride for all of us, even for me. But just like how every ride at an amusement park has an end, so does every fun time with you guys." I said, and at that, tears began to form in SHINee's eyes.

"Can we not have a say in this?" Onew Oppa asked me, and I shook my head.

"You have a say in this, but I'm not allowing it to be heard. I've been wrecking SHINee's reputation just by staying and being with you guys. And to think that I'm not even a full SME talent..." I continued, but even before I was done, Key-ah was already shaking his head.

"If it's about JongHyun Hyung, it's okay. We can handle it. If it's about our scandal together because we got caught in a coffee shop together, it's fine with me. Scandals can cool off..." He began, but I cut him off.

"But it takes long before it does. Besides, every scandal can be brought back with just a tiny hint of suspicion and doubt of truth or lies." I said, and no one can find any idea or thing to rebutt my statement.

Because it is true.

"Noona, think about this again...Jebal..." TaeMin-ah begged as he knelt down in front of me, but I just shook my head before pulling him up to his feet.

"I've already thought about this for a lot of times since I got to Japan. And I figured that it's for the best of all of us. I could focus on my career, and you guys could actually hang out with the people whom you should hang out with...like F[x] for example." I explained, and they once more became quiet.

They didn't hang out much with the girl group because they would usually come to my dorm, if not talk to me via phone and me2day. They made me the center of their social life, especially JongHyun Oppa who blurred Luna-yah, a good friend of his, in the background because of my entrance.

If it was not for me hanging out with these girls, I wouldn't have realized the neglect of the wonderful girl group by SHINee.

"Also, you said to SeKyung-sshi that you're willing to be friends with her, JongHyun Oppa. So, why not make a move to do so?" I then pointed out to JongHyun Oppa, who just had his gaze fixed on the floor. He was silent, and that unsettled me.

But I just decided to brush it off.

"ShiRin-ah? Are you done there? We have to leave already..." I heard HeeSung-ah's voice from outside, which was why I stood up and bade them goodbye.

"I'll be adressing all of you as Sunbaes again starting now. I'd be changing my number, so don't try to call me in my old one. I also requested the other SME artists not to tell you my new number." I told them.

"This JongHyun Scandal has already been too much. I guess it's time I end it here, and now. Thank you for enduring this with me Sunbae-nims. But goodbye." I said for the final time before turning to leave.

I was already at a distance out of the door when JongHyun Sunbae suddenly held me from behind.

"Kajima, Rin-ah. Jebal..."

I just sighed before trying to pull myself away, but everytime I do, he tightens his hold on me.

"Don't leave me here, Rin-ah. I could take anyone else leaving me. Just not you. PLEASE...." He said, his tone begging on the word 'please', but I just pressed my lips together before attempting to pull myself away from him again.

But he just once more held me tighter, this time turning me around and crushing me to his chest. I could hear his soft sobs now breaking out from his frame.

"Rin-ah... Stop pushing me to SeKyung-ah. Stop leaving. Stop separating yourself from me... I beg of you." He weakly begged me. He slightly pulled back to hold my face in his hands.

It shocked me that I was not crying, nor were tears in my eyes. Perhaps, it just was because of this new resolve I manged to build in Japan...

...and the tears I cried there as everyday, I received poisoned food and drinks from YoungHae-sshi.

I think I've already dried my eyes up of all the tears it had.

I found it in myself to give up, even if I already love JongHyun Oppa a lot.

"I hated it so much when you said goodbye! You sounded like you're not gonna be a part of me anymore... and I don't like that. I don't want my reality to be without you... that I couldn't take." He said, his teary eyes staring straight to mine.

"I won't be able to be me if I can't see you, if I can't talk to you, if I can't feel your presence in my life. I couldn't be myself anymore."

I tried to push myself away, but all he did was hold me firmly in front of him.

"I could be Bling-Bling JongHyun in front of all those ShaWols on stage. I could smile and laugh and act okay in front of them. But I can't be Kim JongHyun without Song ShiRin. I can't be a man if you're not there..." He his lower lip and bit it hard, trying to control himself as his tears overflowed from his eyes.

"I was the happiest on my birthday, Rin-ah. I felt like I was already in heaven the moment you said you love me. Actually, anywhere you are is my heaven, Rin-ah. It's PURE HELL without you." He told me, and with one last push, I freed myself from him and swiftly walked away from him.

As I finally caught up to HeeSung-ah, she held me by the shoulder...

...and I cried.

I cried as hard as I can.

I know it's going to be difficult for me.

But if it meant that JongHyun Oppa... no... JongHyun Sunbae would have a better career, then so be it.