I'm going to do a double update today, because I found some time on my hands.

As I was looking at this story, it kinda made me feel that I have a duty to this fic, especially since it's been almost a year since I started writing this. It made me want to finish it, and of course, update more frequently.

I don't know if I could do that with my schedule, but, let's see what I can do.

All right, my updates have been WAY WAAAAY overdue. So, to satisfy your curiosity, here is the 45th chapter with 2 Soundtracks.

First Chapter Soundtrack:

Not Me But Four - IU

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March 20, 2011
SME Rehearsal Room
8:35 P.M.

"Rin-ah!"

I heard a familiar voice echo in the rehearsal room as I was fixing my stuff, practice now over. This would be, perhaps, the last practice that I'd have before beginning to promote my Dark Album two days from now. I had already washed up and changed clothes, prepared to go home. I didn't mind the voice at first, even if it was very familiar, so when it echoed the second time, I didn't turn my head still.

Maybe there was another person named RinAh in the distance that the person is calling.

But wait. Didn't JongHyun Oppa call me "Rin-ah" two days ago?

"Rin-ah! Kaja! I have to get to SHINee rehearsals now! I'm already 15 minutes late!"

As the words resounded in my head, I immediately turned around and felt that my lips met with JongHyun Oppa's. I quickly pulled back, embarassed at what happened to us, but he didn't seem to mind. Trying to hide my blush, I turned away from him and began fixing my things again.

"Come on, Rin-ah, let's hang out today." He told me, and as I zipped my bag up, I smiled.

"Didn't we hang out two days ago after your rehearsals?" I jokingly asked him, earning myself a pout.

"But I wanna hang out with you again. After all, two days after today, you'll have a comeback. Then, you'd be so busy again, and with our Japanese debut coming up, I couldn't hang out with you anymore..." He said, and with another pout, he playfully whined a childish "Please?" to me.

With a laugh, I nodded.

"Arasso, Oppa."

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March 20, 2011
Streets of Seoul - Shops Area
9:50 P.M.

"Hahahahaha. Seriously, Rin-ah. How could you control your laughter at those times?! You are certainly weird." JongHyun Oppa exclaimed as I told him about the things that happened when Super Junior was the guest of the 'My Culture Share' segment of MusiChart.

Leeteuk Sunbae tripped on the wires of the cameras, EunHyuk Sunbae mistakenly drunk cold water for lukewarm water and spit it out, and Ryeowook Sunbae had pronounced "I hope all of you would give more love to Super Junior" wrongly, thus, we have to repeat the final part of the filming. With these stories, JongHyun Oppa cracked up, which caused the both of us to stop walking down the streets of Seoul.

We continued walking then, our laughs still ringing clear in the evening air. Not long after, we met up with HeeSung-ah and Onew Oppa, deeming it necessary to have other people around so that this get-together wouldn't be scandalized.

"Thanks for helping me here, Hyung." JongHyun Oppa told Onew Oppa, and the older man just smiled before patting his shoulder. Onew Oppa then looked at me and smiled.

"So, HeeSung-ah, tell me, you wanted to see your bias that's why you went with Onew Oppa here, right?" I teasingly asked my manager, who gave out a squeak and a whiny "Yah!" while pushing me gently. The four of us erupted in laughter afterwards until Onew Oppa spoke up.

"But, actually, ShiRin-ah, I already knew that I'm her bias in SHINee. She told me on the way here. And I'm fine with it, as long as she doesn't act like a really hardcore, hyper fangirl." He told me, and now, it was my turn to crack up as I remembered the reactions of TaeMin-ah and JongHyun Oppa during the SPARKS filming, when they saw me in my costume for the first time.

"Bwahahahahahahaha!" I began laughing hysterically, stopping my strides, to the confusion of the other three. I immediately smothered up my laughs before telling the reason why I suddenly broke out into laughter. Or rather, acting it out for better recognition.

"Hyung! What do we do? What if she's like that fangirl who almost ripped my clothes out once?!" I shrieked, imitating TaeMin-ah's voice, and JongHyun Oppa's eyes immediately widened. HeeSung-ah understood what I'm saying, and she giggled as well. Onew Oppa just smirked.

"Molla! Seriously. You're not the only one nervous here, you know!" I exclaimed immediately after, this time, imitating JongHyun Oppa. The mentioned SHINee member bit his lower lip, presumably planning to get revenge on me for doing that in public. Onew Oppa now chuckled, remembering the things I told him on the phone during the second day of SPARKS filming. I told everything to him.

"ShiRin-ah, you better run. And I mean now." HeeSung-ah suddenly said, and almost immediately, I broke out into a run, laughing as a fuming JongHyun Oppa chased me, screaming "YAH! I'LL GET YOU FOR THIS!" with HeeSung-ah and Onew Oppa running behind him, laughing as well.

Seriously, JongHyun Oppa.

I'm worried about you catching me. After all, you already have a healed ankle and leg. You'd get to me quite easily.

And I'm afraid that you'll catch me, too. Because if you do, I might fall for you even more.

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Second Chapter Soundtrack:

SHAMPOO: After School

March 26, 2011
Arirang Studios - Live Showing
International Music Convergence Show
4:25 P.M.

"I would like to thank everybody for being so supportive of my new album, the intro 'He Said, She Said' and my current song 'I Was Ready'. I am very grateful to all of you who helped get the song to the top. Again, thank you very much for the support, and I hope everyone continues to give love to my music." With a warm smile on my face, I bowed in front of the audience of the International Music Convergence Show, a special bi-annual awards show by Arirang which features performances from different artists from different asian countries, with awards given to exemplary singles, albums, and artists.

My album intro, "He Said She Said", as well as my debut song, and of course my current single "I Was Ready" were voted for the "Best Rising Artist Single" in the show in 6th, 4th,  and 1st place respectively, as well as my current promoted album awarded as the "Album To Watch Out For". I was very surprised to find my name next to my Sunbaes in music like TVXQ, who was proclaimed as the band with the "Comeback of The Season" and Big Bang awarded as the band having the "Best Club Beats" for the males, and 2NE1 with "Best Club Beats" for the females. It had been a great honor for me to be there.

I was already awed with the recognition, and my heart was already full of thanksgiving, but I felt even more grateful when the MoonBeams began chanting "Selene-ah!" with proud smiles on their faces.

The chants continue to echo even as I was making way to my dressing room, seeing my laptop on sleep mode in the distance when I opened the door.

I opened the cover and pressed a few buttons, making the object whir back to life, slightly tilting my head to the left side at the IM from LeeMyeong Appa that appeared.

LeeMyeong Appa [ParkLeeM_smeSE]
ShiRin-ah, report to SME immediately after the show.
Another trend of rumours started. It's with Key-ah this time.
Reply once you read this IM. See you later.

I typed a few words in, replying like what LeeMyeong Appa wanted me to do. Then after, I closed all windows of my browser, and the media player which was playing a whole playlist of SHINee songs.

GoDdEsS-RiN [SSLene_seSME]
I already read it, and I'm going to SME now.
Don't worry, I'll take care of the issue.
Don't stress yourself too much, Appa. =]

I quickly shut my laptop off, noticing that HeeSung-ah received a message and had a serious expression. I guess LeeMyeong Appa texted her about it, too.

"ShiRin-ah, what did I tell you about hanging out with SHINee?" She asked me in a very low tone, sounding like a real authority, as she slung my bag on her shoulder and we made our way out of the studios.

"You told me that I should be careful. I must always consider the three sides of the issue which are the artists' point of view, the companies' point of view, and the fandoms' point of view. You also told me to never ever settle with just the artists' point of view but also consider the fandoms' point of view." I said, repeating the same words she had given me as advice 4 days ago, when Key-ah and I hung out around downtown Seoul.

"Exactly. You've been telling me constantly that you have done your best in disguising yourself. So why the heck are you still recognized?! This is your second scandal already, and with a DIFFERENT SHINee member. Remember that if 3 more issues of you hanging out with SHINee recklessly go out in public, then SE is gonna step in. I'm sure you won't like it if a company fight was to ensue between SE and SME just because of you." She warned me, and with a loud huff of breath, I quickened my pace.

It wasn't that SME was careless and reckless in handling my career. I had also exercised care in my moves behind the camera. But the netizens are becoming more and more observant and intelligent, thus even the most planned outings with me and SHINee members turn into the freshest scandals. Some netizens had already given skeptic comments, and some of those even stem to possible anti-fandom.

When it was just with JongHyun, I didn't doubt anything about Selene-ah's side. But after reading this article, I'm beggining to think twice.

Whoah! She's not yet satisfied with JongHyun Oppa, now she's taking Key Oppa too?!

NOOOO! KEEEEEEYYY!

Selene-ah! off! He belongs to the SHAWOLS!

I think I'm losing my respect for Selene now. She's becoming too flirty for my taste.

Is this who she really is? Foxy? If so, then I'd rather support Han Groo than her.

I'm becoming scared. I had expected this kind of negative rush when I decided to follow my mom's last wish.

But I wasn't expecting for it to be so... overpowering.

If I only knew that I'd be constantly under attack by ShaWols after that meeting with SME about my second scandal, then I would have acted differently.