Donghae enter the room, the whole room in dark he turn on the lamp, Hyerin is sleeping there’s a trace of tears in her eyes; she fell asleep while crying again. He lay down beside his wife hug her to find the comfort that he is missing, he wipe her tears away.

                “Agi-ah… let umma come with you… Agi-ah.. please… take me with you” Hyerin talks in her sleeps

                Donghae is shock from what he heard from his wife as he starts to cry again knowing that even in her sleeps the pain is still lingering in her.

                “I’m sorry…. Hyerin…. I’m sorry Agi-ah…. Appa is sorry….. please forgive me agi….” he drift of to sleep

Donghae POV

                “Where am I?” I look around the place is full of flowers, different kinds and different colors.

                “Appa……” someone called me, I turn around to see myself as a kid.

                “Hey! Kid!” I said to the kid, whom I’m getting scared of, why I’m seeing me

                “Appa” he run towards me and hug me “Finally….. I met you”

                My heart pumps so fast as heat cover my entire body I look down to see the kid again and he’s looking back at me with a smile on his face.

                “Appa… don’t you recognize me”

                “Agi-ah…” I whisper

                “Neh… it’s me….”

                “Agi-ah…. forgive appa…. I’m sorry..”

                “It’s ok appa… I’m ok here now” I didn’t realize I’m crying until he wipes it

                “Appa.. please don’t cry now… umma is also crying… I hate seeing both of you crying” he whine, he really look like me

                “Are you mad with appa?” I ask

                “Ani…  how can I? when I love appa very much”

                “Really…” I hug him again

                “Appa….can I ask a favor from you?”

                “Yes, off course” I look at him

                “Please don’t leave umma…. she’s very afraid thinking you will leave her after what happen to me”

                “Ani…. I won’t leave your umma… I won’t”

                “She’s really weak right now… umma really needs you…”

                “I know that Agi-ah… I know… Umma is really sad losing you… but I think umma is angry with me, she doesn’t even want to talk to me”

                “I know that… I can see the two of you…. but she still loves you…. and your love for her is strong too... just believe on that and everything will be fine again” he smile again and touch my right cheeks

                “Appa… I need to go now… I just wanted to meet you”

                “Wait… wait…” he runs off fast

                “Agi” I called out and he stop to turn around

                “Appa… I love you… and umma too… bye…” he wave goodbye and run off

                Donghae wake up from his dream and to his shock Hyerin is already awake, looking at him.

                “Baby” Donghae brush off the hair strands in Hyerin’s face “You need anything baby?” he ask

                “You should just killed us both, why did you let me live when I’m already dead?”

                “Andwae…” Donghae capped her face “I’m sorry.. I’m really sorry…. I know it hurt too much and I’m really sorry for being such a bastard…”

                “It won’t bring back the life of my baby….you should just killed us both” Hyerin get out of the bed

                “Hyerin… what are you talking about? Hyerin… please let’s talk… I need to tell you something… please listen to me”

                Hyerin turn to look at Donghae “Does it make my baby back again?”

                Donghae keep his silent he doesn’t know what to say, Hyerin just walk out the room and he follows her.

                “Hyerin… let’s talk…” Donghae grab her right arm

                “GOD DAMN IT!!! WHAT ELSE DO YOU WANT FROM ME!!!” Hyerin shouted

                Kyuhyun came inside the room with Leeteuk and Heechul.

                “I’m already getting off your just like what you told me” Hyerin said

                “What? What are you saying?” Donghae lost in his wife words

                Hyerin can’t help it anymore she slap Donghae’s cheek using her free hand.

                “STOP ACTING LIKE YOU DIDN’T DO ANYTHING…. What else do I miss? Huh?” Hyerin wiping her tears “I give everything to you..... my heart, my body, my soul…. I give up my dream wedding, my dream honeymoon and I’m willing to give up my dreams just for you, to start a family with you… I’ve been patient and understanding to everything… I  even agree to hide our relationship even it hurts me a lot knowing that I can’t say to the whole world that I love you…. but what do I get…… I’m still breathing but both my soul and heart is already dead….” she free her arms from him “You should just told me that you don’t need me anymore. You should have told me that you don’t want my baby…. so we can go far away from you. If you want to be with Miyeon you should have told me…. I can stay away from you even if it’s hard for me I will deal with it…. you don’t have to kill my baby…” Hyerin sit on the floor and cry really hard “What did I do to you? What did I do wrong to you to do this to me? If you love her more than me, I can set you free… just spare me the life of my child…. That’s all I ask….”

                Donghae bend his knee to level with his wife and hold her shoulders “Is this what Miyeon told you?”

                “ANIYO…. this is what you show me… I won’t ever believe in her but you… you show me that everything she says are true. We were happy but you change all that…. You’re with me but all I can feel is your coldness……  I cook for you, wait for you but all I get is cold stare and hurtful words. I’m saying I love you but you don’t even response… because you are glady to reply to her than me. Do you know how I felt when I sleep in cold room alone thinking what I do wrong to upset you? Do you know how I felt when you told me to get out from your life? Do you know how I felt when I saw that you’re exchanging sweet message to her? Do you know how I felt when i see those pictures of you kissing her? Do you know how I felt when I see the picture of you dating her in park? Do you know how I felt realizing that you have courage to date her in public while me staying in the dark? And I keep telling myself why is he not brave enough to say the people that I’m his wife? But why to her? Why he’s willing to risk everything just for her…. Why? Why? Why? Why Lee Donghae? I’m ready to risk everything for you but why can’t do it for me? If you two have intention to break me apart then you successfully done it… I’m already broken….. that I can’t live anymore, breathing is just giving me too much pain…. you should have killed me also…” she remove his hands off her “You don’t need to stay here anymore…. You can go with your Miyeon…” Hyerin stand up weakly

                “Hyerin” Donghae hold her

                “Let me go… I’m tired already……..” Hyerin lifelessly said still crying

                “Please… Hyerin…. if you just listen to me….”

                “It’s too late… my baby is already dead” Hyerin push him away and make her way to the bedroom.

                Donghae is about to follow his wife but Leeteuk hold his arm tightly.

                “You need to explain something to me before my fist landed to your face”

                “But…hyung… I need to talk to Hyerin…. please hyung…I already lose our child I don’t want to lose her either.” He pleading his hyung with his eyes

                Before Leeteuk can answer Hyerin open the door walk out with her luggage.

                “Baby” Donghae hug Hyerin from the back, wrapping his arms around her waist trapping her arms “Where are you going?”

                “Like you cares…. Let go of me….”

                “Aniyo….i won’t let you go…please baby..stay here… I don’t want to lose you…. don’t let go of me…”

                Hyerin turn around to face him “But you’re the first one who let go of us… Lee Donghae…. I just want to leave while I still love you… while I can still have an Illusion that you still love me… don’t want to leave with all the hatred and anger inside me…so please… let’s just do this to make it easier for both of us..”

                “Ani..” he hugs her tightly “Don’t go… don’t leave me… Hyerin…. I love you…. I love you…. I already lose our baby… please don’t make me lose you too…I just can’t…”

                “I can’t stay here anymore…. All the things here are already ruined… I shouldn’t came back here…or I shouldn’t have met you and fall in love with you… how I wish to forget all about this so I can continue” she look at her brother “Oppa…. please allow me to go…. I need sometime for myself…I need to fix myself… I can’t live with this anymore…please…” she said weakly, as her face is turning pale and fainted.

                “Hyerin….” Donghae carry his wife back to the bedroom, he lay her down on the bed, worriedly caressing her face. “Baby….baby…”

                “Here, wipe this to her face” Kyuhyun gave his hyung a damp towel

                “Hyung, let’s bring her back to hospital” Donghae

                “There’s no need… she just need a proper rest without getting stress like this….”

                After minutes, Hyerin color is coming back.

                “Agi-ah… Agi-ah…. wait for me…. take me with you…” Hyerin said in her sleep

                “Shh…. I’m here baby…” Donghae tightly hug his wife

                “Let her rest here…. Let’s talk” Leeteuk walks out with Heechul

                Donghae kiss her forehead before leaving her with Kyuhyun. When Donghae close the door, Kyuhyun sit on the bed next to Hyerin, he held her hand, caressing her face.

                “I’m sorry…. If I just fight for you maybe it change everything and you won’t be hurt like this.” tears start to fall from his eyes “I’m sorry… I can’t do anything to take your pain away…if I only can take it and place it on mine I will do it… I’m sorry my dear dongsaeng… I’m sorry my love… I couldn’t protect you from all this pain…”

                In the other room, Donghae told everything to about his deal with Miyeon to his hyungs.

                “What the?” Leeteuk grab Donghae’s collar “Are you even thinking?”

                “I didn’t cheat on her… I swear…. I just did that in order to protect them from Miyeon “

                “It’s the same thing idiot.. you cheated on my sister…hurt her and make her lose her baby”

                “Leeteukssii…. Calm down” Heechul holding on Leeteuk

                “Miyeon will hurt her..”

                “But she terribly ruin right now”

                “Hyung….forgi ve me… I should have told you from the start…”

                “What did she do to Hyerin? Why Hyerin lose her baby? Why is she scared when she wakes up?” Leeteuk has so many questions

                “I don’t know hyung, I don’t know”

                “If that’s acting you shown to Miyeon then why being cold to her… feeling her wanted…why you should have to do that”

                “I don’t know about that hyung…I don’t remember treating Hyerin coldy…I will never do that to her”

                Leeteuk push his dongsaeng making Donghae fall on the ground “Then are you saying Hyerin is just making a story to blame all the things on you…”

                “No… I didn’t mean that... I just don’t have any idea when I get home all I remember is waking up in the couch or in the dorm… I don’t remember what happen next after I met Miyeon, after I get home. I swear hyung I’m telling you the truth”

                “This Miyeon is very tricky… she have something on her sleeves to break you and Hyerin” Kyuhyun pops out “She already got you but she need Hyerin to ruin herself..”

                “What do you mean ruin herself?” Donghae

                “She wanted Hyerin to kill herself, so you can only turn on her if Hyerin isn’t here anymore”

                “That !!!” Heechul said

                “What are we going to do?” Donghae ask

                “We need to know what that did to my dear lady” Ms. Kim suddenly pops out

                “When did you came here?” Kyuhyun ask

                “It doesn’t matter but I heard all the stupid things that kid did” she looked at Donghae “I don’t care what will happen to you or go with that ty but I wanted to know what she’s done to my lady… and make her taste her own medicine”

                “What are you going to do with her?” Donghae ask

                “This idiot is hopeless… he concerned about that who killed his child and almost kill her fiance.”

                “I’m not concern about her but if something happen to her… I’m sure she will point out Hyerin and I don’t want that to happen”

                “Fine… I won’t but i’m sure Mr. Hyun will do something about it if the news will reach him but as of now let’s find out what that did to my lady”

Skip

                The next morning, Hyerin woke up as Donghae staring at her with a big smile on his face.

                “Good morning… you want to eat first or take a bath before breakfast”

                Hyerin turn her back to Donghae “Why are you still here?”

                “I’m here because I’m your husband and you are my wife….”

                “I’m not your wife anymore…” she get off from the bed

                “How long will you do this to us? Miyeon will be successful breaking us if you continue this” Donghae

                “I don’t want to agrue... blame it on me if you want it too” she open her luggage searching for something

                “Are you leaving again?”

                “What do you think?”

                “You’re not allow to go out” Donghae shouted

                Hyerin stop what she’s doing “Now I’m allowed to go in my own exhibit” she throw a piece of clothes.

                Donghae soften, he walk closer to Hyerin takes her hand “I’m sorry….  It slips off my mind, Ms. Kim told me she will be here to drop your dress and we will go there together with Leeteuk hyung.” He capped her face “Congratulations my angel” he lean his forehead against her “I love you…”

                “Stop the crap Lee Donghae” she pull away and walk towards the bathroom before she could open the door, Donghae grab her arm.

                “I won’t let you go… no matter how you push me away I won’t let you go…. I promise that… as I promise to our baby”

                Hyerin turn her head to Donghae “You’ve seen him…”

                “Neh… in my dreams…. Last night… he really looks like me…it feels like I was looking at myself”

                “Neh… he really looks like you…” smile escape from her sweet lips but it washed away quickly “if he only…” Hyerin stops her own words “Nevermind”

                “Hyerin…. we can fix this right?”

                “I don’t know” she remove donghae’s hand off her “I don’t know… right now all I know is you betray me…you betray us”

                Hyerin takes a shower then they have a quite breakfast before lunch time Ms. Kim arrived to drop off her dress, it’s a black short dress. Hyerin dress up and fix her hair and put some light make-up on her. She’s looking at herself at the mirror, her eyes don’t have any light on it, she can’t even painted a smile on her face just for today events. Donghae comes out in the bathroom figuring out how to do his neck tie.

                “Come here” she softly said

                Donghae just walk towards his wife, he stand in front of her. Hyerin gently tap Donghae’s hands off the tie and she fixes the tie for him. She’s just looking at Donghae tie while her hands on Donghae’s chest.

                “Can I ask something for you?” she said

                “Sure… what is it?” he lifts her heads up to look at him

                “Just stay by my side even just for tonight… just for this night just stay where I can easily reach you..”

                “You don’t have to ask that… I’m always here by your side….” He capped her face

                “After this I won’t ask anything from you”

                “Aniyo…. as I told you… I won’t let you go…. I love you…I want to spend the rest of my life with you”

Skip

                Leeteuk, Donghae and Hyerin arrived at the art gallery; they are welcomeby Mrs. Kwon and Ms. Kim.

                “Hi!! How are you? How are you Mr. Park?”

“I’m great Mrs. Kwon, by the way this is Lee Donghae” Leeteuk introduce Donghae

“It’s nice to meet you, Donghaessii” they both shake their hand

“So…dear are you ready? Why you look so thin? Did you get sick or something” Mrs.Kwon

“I just can’t sleep well lately.. probably being anxious about this exhibit ” Hyerin forcibly form a smile

                “Oh…. My dear” Mrs. Kwon held Hyerin’s hand “You probably need to take some vacation after this.”

                “Neh, I probably will”

                “Ok, just relax for awhile; the guest will be arrived soon”

                They guest soon arrived; Hyerin together with her brother, Donghae, Ms. Kim and Mrs. Kwon welcomed the guest, some guest are friends of his brother from music industry, some are named people who invited by Mrs. Kwon and Dr. Hyun.

                “Congratulation Hyerinssi…” Dr. Hyun giving a bouquet of flowers to her

                “Thank you uncle”

                “Hyerin…congratulation” Dr. Shin

                “Thank you Auntie” Hyerin give her some hug

                “Are you ok now?”

                “A little bit” Hyerin force a smile “Have a drink first, we will start soon”

                The guest already arrived including Hyerin’s oppas, the program start with welcome greetings from Mrs. Kwon then she call Hyerin to have a little speech for the guest.

                “Good evening ladies and gentlemen, first of all I want to thank all of you for coming here, for giving me this kind of opportunity. I’m still young and have many things to learn so I’m apologizing if you find some of my painting is a little childish or undefined but that what’s makes me an artist and a person. I’m in my early 20’s I can’t say that I’ve experience everything in this world but I’ve been through a lot of things, having a dream then losing then finding another one, losing someone, earning someone then losing someone again. I don’t know if you will agree with me or not but for me life is a vast space of battle field, war for dreams, war for love, war to live, to survive. We’re fighting in everyday of our lives not because to achieve happiness but to continue, to protect the happiness that we are holding in our bare hands. Life is a matter of choices; it’s a choices between yes or no; true or false; stay or leave; to fall in love more or to fall out of love. No matter what people says to you in the end you’re the one who will decide, as you decide be sure that you are ready to the consequence of your decision. Well, as of now, I wish all of you choose to stay and spend your precious time to take a look of my little babies, thank you very much and I hope you enjoy this night.”

                Hyerin makes a formal bow to the guest as everyone clapping their hands for them. Leeteuk and Ms. Kim help Hyerin to stand up. Hyerin started to entertain the guest at the exhibit, Leeteuk also talk some of the guest while Donghae is keeping his distance to his wife, looking at his wife with pride. He wanted to give a hug and kisses to her but he restrains himself for awhile, he knows there will be a time for them.

                Everyone is enjoying themselves having a little chat while looking at Hyerin’s paintings and sculptures, some of guest are purchasing, having an auction on Hyerin’s paintings. Donghae left his eyes on his wife just a few moments, Hyerin is gone already, he look around to find his wife and he see her walking towards the back room office of the gallery with Miyeon following her. He immediately find his hyung to follow his wife, he knows that Miyeon will just ruin Hyerin’s night.

At the back room office

                “Having fun?” Miyeon ask crossing her arms infron of her chest

                “I didn’t remember inviting a ; this isn’t an opening of a club?” Hyerin backfire

                “Why you?” Miyeon will slap Hyerin but Hyerin grab her hands tightly

                “You can’t hurt me anymore ” Hyerin smirk

                “Yah, let go of me you ” Miyeon struggling from the tight grip

                Hyerin let go Miyeon’s hand that makes her fall down on the floor.

                “YAH!!!” Miyeon shouted

                Leeteuk and Donghae enter the room.

                “Baby” Donghae called out

                “Donghae oppa” Miyeon called out but Donghae just passed through her and when to Hyerin capped her face.

                “Baby, are you alright? Huh?” he ask but Hyerin didn’t answer

                “Get out of here Miyeon and don’t ever show yourself to us” Donghae

                “What!!” Miyeon stand up “Oppa… she hurt me..”

                “Just get out of here” Donghae

                “Do you still love her after she killed your baby?” Miyeon

                Hyerin heated up from the words that came out from Miyeon, she clench her fist tightly, her teeth are grinding, she passed through Donghae and grab Miyeon’s hair pulling it down.

                “You have no rights to say those words… you don’t know anything about having one because you are a baby killer” Hyerin is firing with anger

                “Baby….. stop now….” Donghae stopping her

                “Wae? Are you hurt because I’m hurting your precious one” Hyerin looking at Donghae

                “Hyerin…. stop it” Leeteuk holding Hyerin’s hand that holding Miyeon’s hairy preventing her to pull it more.

                “Crazy don’t blame me for being such a careless mother, miscarriaging her baby”

                 “YOU ING ” Hyerin pull more of her hair and slap her left cheek

                  “Let go of me or I’ll make you regret this, I’ll bring you to hell” Miyeon threat

                Hyerin hold Miyeon’s face to look at her straight to her eyes “Are you even been in hell?” Hyerin ask “After my baby died I’m not afraid anymore on what’s going to happen to me, I’m don’t care if I go to hell I’m already there right now.”

                “You , you can’t threaten me, don’t you know who am i?” Miyeon

                “Yes, I know who you are; you are a ing idol who killed my baby and trying to steal my husband but do you know who am i?” Hyerin eyes are really scary that the two men can’t stop her “I’m Hyerin Park Lee, I can drag you down or I can make you disappear in the world you’re trying to get in.

                “If something happen to me, I’ll make sure you’re the one who will search for”

                Hyerin smirk “You still don’t get it do you, the two of us are different, you are just small tiny little trying to fit in the world of glittering world, while me, I’m the world that you’re trying to get in, I don’t need to be a like you just to be like by someone.” She grin “I will let you off the hook tonight, considered it as a gift for my exhibit but when you dare to cross my path again, I swear you will regret that you meet a person named Park Hyerin, araso ?” she look at her brother and Donghae “Let go of me”

                The two men just step back and just watch what’s going to happen next.

                “Now, run along little one and don’t you dare open your dirty mouth to create your little illusion, araso?” Hyerin voice is so wicked, then let go of Miyeon

                Once Miyeon is free she attempt to redeem herself by slap Hyerin but Hyerin dodge it. Miyeon got slap by Hyerin’s firm hand.

                “Run along while I’m still being patient here”

                “You will pay for this” Miyeon said before going out the room.

                As Miyeon left the room, Hyerin knees are shaking even her whole body, her fists are tightly clenched and she’s breathing heavily.

                “Hyerin” Leeteuk put his hand on Hyerin left shoulder

                Hyerin take a few deep breathe, fix her hair and clothes “I’m fine” she breathe out and show a smile “Let’s go, they might probably looking for me” she walk at the door before she turn the knob "I have an offer to go to Russia, they're asking me if i can work with them. I'm considering to accept the offer after all it can help me to grow as an artist."

              "Are you going to leave me?" Donghae

              Hyerin didn't answer she just open the door and walk out

Skip

                At Miyeon’s car

                “AHHHHHH……” she screaming like a crazy person in her car “I swear… I will get you Donghae oppa… I’ll make that Hyerin disappear in our lives… I swear that…” she said griping the stirring wheel tightly.

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hello guys..... i'm back..hehehehe... I've been busy for whole week because of the convention i had to attend hehehe... but things gone well at the convention...yehey..... well anyways here's another chapter for you to enjoy.... hope you like it