waahhhhh ~~~~

sorry for a late/short chapter update >_< .. excuse my errors too..

anyways, i'm happy !! know why ..?

* drum roll *

i just graduated!! yey~ banzai!!!

and it's xiumin's birthday yesterday .. well, i still wanna greet him even if its kinda late ..

HAPPY BUN DAY <3

let us all spread a lot of  buns everywhere ..

Author's POV :

 it's already 11:30pm when xiumin came home .. he let out a tired deep sigh as he let mr.yoon take his suitcase, "do you want to eat anything sir?" mr. yoon asked as he bows his head. xiumin's ear twinkled as he notice something missing..

he look around and there's no sign of su ra, usually when he came home, he would always be greeted by a warm smile from su ra, but tonight, he didn't have the chance to get his smile from her..

"is there something wrong ?" mr. yoon asked as he watch xiumin look around ..

xiumin looked at him "where is su ra?" he asked. Mr.yoon, silently gasped oh, now he's looking for her.. he thought. my,yoon let out a smile "don't worry about agashi .. she'll be here- .. -oh, there she is.." mr.yoon said as he saw su ra coming inside the house.

su ra's head jerked upwards as she let out a sigh of relief .. xiumin turned his whole body and look at su ra, suspiciously. "good evening mr.yoon, good evening xiumin~" su ra greeted as she bows her head.

mr.yoon bowed his head before going inside to let xiumin and su ra have their own time..

End of POV

"where did you go..?" the very first thing xiumin told me once mr.yoon left the two of us alone.

i shrugged my shoulders before letting out a grin, "guess what.." i paused as xiumin looked at me "I have a new job!!" i jump all around the living room before grabbing xiumin's arms, shaking it happily as if i won a lottery.

"yah, are you that happy..?" xiumin asked as he let out a short chuckle.

i nodded my head "hmmp .. very. well, since i won't be here alone for a day.. i now have some stuffs to work on, also i'll learn extra money." i said before letting out a shrug. xiumin nodded his head "where and what is it?" he asked.

xiumin and i started walking upstairs as i still hold on his arm "an all around worker, in a very small convenience store. well, i'm planning on going back to mrs.choi's eatery but the spot have been occupied right after i resigned.." i said. "why don't you just take the job i'm giving you? it's much better working on my company" he said.

"seeing you here is enough, my work place is only my break.." i mocked at him before letting out a short laugh.

xiumin scoffed "tss..is that how should a wife would be when her husband got home, tired from working hard..?" xiumin asked, raising an eyebrow on me.

i look at him as i stick out my tounge, grinning like a small kid right! i forgot i need to still treat him as if his my real husband.. "oh, sorry .." i said. xiumin and i entered our shared room, we were planning on me going back to my old room but that wouldn't help, cause mr.yoon's watching us and we thought mr.yoon might tell omma that we were having a fight cause we're sleeping in different rooms..

"ahh...so tired.." i yawned as i stretch out my arms. xiumin went straight to the bathroom to wash up,

i tiredly sat down on the couch as i lean my back, feeling my eyelids getting heavy .. i'm so tired~ i whined on my mind as i let out another yawn..

i was about to close my eyes when i heard a clicking sound, making my head to look on the side. xiumin went out of the bathroom, using a towel to dry out his hair.. and for the first time, i think of xiumin as y..? bwoya?!! what am i saying now..?!!. *gulp*. xiumin looked at me "yah, aren't you going to wash up so you can get a rest.?" he asked.

i quickly stand up and nodded my head "y-yeah!!" i said and dashed out of the sight of xiumin..

when i got out of the bathroom , i saw xiumin sitting on the couch with too many files scattered around him, busy looking on it that he seemed to not notice my presence.

i sat down on the edge of bed and finished combing my hair .. i put the blanket over my legs as i watch xiumin do his work, resting my chin on my palms ..

"is there something you want to ask?" xiumin asked as he continues on checking the files ..

i silently gasped before sitting up straight .. i let out a tired yawn "aren't you going to rest? you're tired already right?" i asked .

xiumin nods his head "then why don't you want to take a rest?" i asked as if my questionings would help him .. 

xiumin put aside his pile of paperworks before taking a stand making me to look at him, confused. he grabbed a pillow before laying down besaide me making me feel dumbfounded "yah! what are you up to now..?" i asked as i softly taps his amr with my hand. xiumin snuggled closer making himself to feel comfort as for me ..

my heart starts to go beating fast like crazy..

"sleeping..taking a rest.." he mumbled as he rest his head on my lap, hugging the pillow he took from the side.

i look back on the pile of paperworks on the couch, "b-but don't you have-.."

"-no i don't..i'll just rest since you insisted me to take my sleep, so please.. kindly.. do the wifey role~" xiumin grinned as he closes his eyes . aishh..why is he being like this ..? always making my heart confused.@_@. i let out an awkward laugh as i softly pats his arm "y-yah..you can rest without my help right.?" i said, hoping.

xiumin didn't respond as he keeps on finding a comfortable position. "o-okay.." i said, giving in. 

"first, i'll give you a massage then make you sleep.." now i think i'm taking care of a baby bun..a very big baby baozi~. xiumin hummed as he stops on moving.

i started to massage his temples as i focus my eyes on his lovely chubby face. looking at his calm face makes me calm too, even though i know that he kinda look scary when he's serious. cause honestly, when xiumin's serious and he's on his grumpy mode, my heart starts to get nervous making me to produce cold sweats on my palms..geez~

i smiled when i notice xiumin's lips curling upwards, as he let out a sigh.

"can i ask you something..?" i heard xiumin's voice making me to snap out of my thoughts, i look down on him as i hummed. "what do you think of me?" my i stop moving my fingers as i shortly stop on breathing. i look down on him, blank and i don't know why i'm this..

xiumin opens his eyes before he look up, i remained silent as i don't know what should i say cause i don't know what he meant by that. kind ..? stubborn sometimes..? bipolar..? a friend..? a good husband..? those were the anwers that played on my mind that couldn't be out.

seems like he's losing his patience, xiumin sat up looking at me with questioning eyes "hello..? what?" he said again.

i blinked for a several times before sitting up straight. i cleared my throat before looking on the side "w-what do you mean by that..?" i asked.

xiumin let out a sigh "you know..? how do you see me as me or what do you think of me as me..?" xiumin shrugged as he puts his hands up.

why am i being like this..? he's just asking a common question..! i hissed in my mind. i look at him "y-you're a great person.." i said while nodding my head. xiumin looked on the side as he put his index finger on his chin, pouting. "jinjja..?" he mumbled.

"anyways, why do you ask so..?" i asked.

xiumin shrugged "i don't know either.."

As i look up on the ceiling, thinking on why am i being a fool on such a common question. xiumin were calmly sleeping beside me..no actually beside a pillow on between us, serves as a safety wall.. 

even though he's just asking for no reason, it sure made my mind went crazy. i don't know my heart, i don't know why i'm acting like this when he's being like that. my mind were sure that me and xiumin were just friends acting like a married couple. a fake married couple.

what do you think of me..?

how do you see me as me..?

he's questions kept on repeating ..

i turn my body to the side. watching xiumin's back figure as it faces me.. i let out a soft sigh as i can't get myself to sleep..

"why are you making me feel like this.?" i whispered, tapping the pillow in between us. "why i am like this..?"

another sigh escaped from my lips making me to feel gloomy all of a sudden.