Sungmin’s POV

“Sungminnie, you have to be happy with your new family now.” Umma gently roamed her soft, warm right palm on my face. I was resting my head on her lap, lying on her neatly arranged bed while umma was resting her back on the bed’s backrest. I had just woken up from my nice slumber.

I had a very good sleep last night where I found myself snuggling tightly against umma’s fragile and comfortable body. She had brought me to our old home; our flat and I was the happiest when she had showed up in the Shin’s garden last night to bring me here.

She had cooked all my favourite recipes and surprisingly, I could finish them all clean despite not really feeling hungry.

Oh, how I missed her delicious cooking.

I later lay on the bed with her and hugged her tightly so that she couldn’t leave me when I fall into my deep sleep. I’m glad the technique worked like always because she’s still here now, gently looking down and smiling at me while softly caressing my cheek and scalp.

“This blonde hair colour really suits you very much. Donghae certainly did a good job.” She chuckled.

“Umma~ I still don’t like this colour. The only reason I’ve still not changed it back to my original black hair colour is because Nari-ssi loves the hair colour a lot and I don’t want to sadden her by going against her likes.” I pouted.

Her laughter echoed my ears. “My baby is still so kind hearted and caring towards others.” She said in between her beautiful laughter that I had missed so much. “To be honest, I love the hair colour on you too. You look very beautiful.”

I scowled at the term. “Umma~ I should look handsome, not beautiful!” I couldn’t help but groan in slight annoyance. Her laughter only increased at my reaction. But despite being teased by her once again, I couldn’t feel happier than now because she was finally here, with me; giving me her tender love that I have been longing for quite a long while now.

“By the way, I hated it when you told you wanted to follow me to my grave after my death.” her tone had gotten a little serious.

I couldn’t help but feel a bit guilty as she mentioned that. “I was very broken back then. A lot of things were going wrong that day. You know, I had lost my first kiss by force the day I lost you.” Surprisingly; although sad about that whole event, I didn’t hate Doctor Kyuhyun for doing that to me anymore. “Although I have put that lost kiss past me, I am still a bit uncomfortable about losing it to a male.” I added nevertheless.

“Why?” she teasingly questioned.

I looked up at her teasing face that had been looking down at mine. “Umma, I lost my first kiss to a male!”

“So? Does love have a gender?” her teasing smile turned into a deeper mirth. “I’m sure you don’t see that being the case with Donghae and his boyfriend.”

“True.” I replied dejectedly. “That makes sense. But my kiss wasn’t out of love.” I retaliated.

“Well, that we shall see when time comes.” and another set of laughter escaped her lips. It feels so good to see her laugh and have her spend time with me like this again.

But what did she mean by that?

“Sungminnie, you can’t be sad anymore, alright?” she said after her laughter decreased. I looked up at her eyes that were showing that tender love she always had for me.

“As long as you are with me, I can never be sad.” I smiled at my answer. She softly shook her head left and right and vice versa.

“You have to be happy without me around.”

I quickly got my head off her lap and sat while tightly clasping her hands with mine. I’m sure I had that desperate look on my face of not letting her go.

“Umma…”

“No, you have to realize that there are many people out there who love you.” I didn’t want her to go on with whatever she was going to say. I gave her that desperate look again but her words just kept flowing out of her lips, “I’m not coming back. I can absolutely not come back to you. And you have a wonderful new family now.” By now, I could hear my own sobs escaping my lips.

“Um..mma—”

“Nari has beautifully taken my place in your life. And you finally have a father figure in the form of Shindong-ssi. And not to forget, an amazing and loving best friend in the form of Donghae who is like a brother to you. You have a complete family now.” I didn’t even realize her hands had escaped my hold on them as she wiped my tears off my cheeks using both her hands. “And you have a great love waiting for you.” She whispered loudly yet softly. I didn’t understand what she meant by her last sentence.