-Epilogue-

“You said you will wait for me even if it takes forever…”- Sehun

*2 years later*

Jiyeon’s POV

I was discussing about our design development with Tao in his room that day when Suzy suddenly knocked the door and told us to come out because CEO Kim is coming. Tao and I start tidying all the sheets on the table before going out together. I can see CEO Kim and his wife Seohyun-ssi were talking with my other colleagues. Looks like they came visiting us here. Of course, our company was listed as the branch that gathered the most asset for our company. I greet them before joining them at the table. Not long after, someone then entered the department. It’s Luhan and Chorong, coming in while holding hand sweetly.

The couple got married a few months after Sehun left… and they really live happily together without any doubt. And just a few months ago, Suzy and Kris got married too. I can tell that IU and Chanyeol will be the next couple to get married looking at their lovey-dovey acts together. I’m certain that Tao and Baekhyun will find their partner soon. While for me… here I am keep waiting for Sehun to come back to me. Two years has passed, but he never contacted me even once since then. The last message I received was the one he sent before leaving the airport. I wonder if he actually remember that he got a wife waiting for him patiently in Seoul right now. I wonder if Sehun will actually come back like he promised.

Or… he might have found someone else to replace me and decide to stay there without even care to inform me anything. Too many possibilities, and I can only thing negatively right now. Throughout the first year he left, I always thought positively. Of course he’s not going there to come back so fast, of course he would take longer time to stay there. But when he didn’t even reply my email, it made my heart disbelief him. I sent him his birthday presents for this two years, but he never replied me or even sent me a single present on my birthday. This make me doubted if he ever think about me like I think about him every second of my breath.

Looking at those happy couples in front of me, it would be a lie if I didn’t feel jealous at all. Of course, they always made me think being with Sehun would look as great as they seem right now. But I don’t have the ability they have, the ability to be with their loved ones. My friends, they have always stayed near me. I know they don’t want me to feel lonely without Sehun, but no matter how many people are there near me, it would never be the same as Sehun. My life would always be lonely. Every time I think about Sehun, my tears are always ready to escape, yeah, I need sehun, I really need him…

“Jiyeon, what are you thinking about?” Luhan’s voice surprised me.

“O—oh! I… I feel sick. Can I take a few days off?” Those words just came out.

“Well… if it’s okay for Suho-ssi…” Luhan said looking at CEO Kim.

“Sure Jiyeon. You worked hard lately. How about three days off?” CEO Kim said without hesitation.

“That’s more than enough Suho-ssi… thanks for your concern.” I replied thanking him.

I can see everyone is staring at me with concern. They knew my loneliness, and they knew none of them can cure it for me, except for Sehun. I’m not really sick. Honestly, I just miss Sehun. I miss everything about him right now. My heart hurts waiting for you, because two years are too long for me. I want you right in front of me now. I want to cuddle up with you every night like other couples do. It hurts me to have you far like this. It would be different if contacted me at least once, replied my email at least once, and just informed me anyway if you would never come back…

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That night I really can’t sleep. Now I got three days off and I really hope I can clear up my mind in this three days and stop thinking about Sehun. Someday, it would damage my whole life, so I decide to give it one last try, and if I don’t get any reply at all, I will practically give up on our marriage, on Sehun, and on everything regarding him.

I sit on my working table and quickly opened my laptop. I logged in to my email account and composed a new message for Sehun. It’s impossible if Sehun doesn’t even read any of my email. He must have known that we didn’t have any other medium to contact each other except by email or social network. International call costs a lot so I understand if he couldn’t call me. So he should check his email often, he should know I would contact him through email. This would be the last email from me, if there’s no reply to… everything is over.

PJY1234

Subject: Please don’t ignore me.

“Sehunnie… it’s me Jiyeon.

Do you read my messages? Or you didn’t even bother to glance on it? I’ve been waiting for two years, where are you Sehun? Are you alright there? Why can’t you inform me anything so at least I know you’re okay over there?

Sehun… I’m suffering here. I need you so badly. But… I feel like giving up right now. It’s true I live without regret like you want me to live, but there’s limit in everything Sehun. It’s so sad and tiresome waiting for something that is unsure. What if you will never come back even if it takes forever? I feel like dying. I miss you too much to the point my heart tearing apart every time thinking about you.

Please reply me Sehun. So I know what is actually happening between us. Reply me and tell me if you will never come back. I can’t do anything right now because you filled my mind. Please… I beg you. Reply me this once and let’s clear things up…

I was hesitating for a while before clicking the send button. But I sent it anyway. I look at the clock on the screen, it shows 11.00 p.m. KST. So it must be about 10.00 a.m. in Montreal right now. There’s no excuse like Sehun is sleeping or anything. It’s morning there and I’m certain that he might check his email. I cupped my face nervously. Should I sleep and check it tomorrow? Before I could decide, there’s notification coming in making me almost jumped onto the chair in excitement.

“It’s Sehun!” I can’t stop smiling seeing Sehun’s name popping up under my message. Finally he replied me. I view the reply and read it. It’s so short… and my smile slowly disappear. What does this mean?

OOHSEHUN

Subject: ­---

“You said you will wait for me even if it takes forever…”

That’s all sehun? That is all you need to say after reading my whole message? So… I really have to wait until forever? I… I don’t think I can do it anymore. Maybe I should really forget him, because he sounded indifferent through that short message. I don’t think he cared about me anymore. Maybe I should just give up and find someone better, someone that will stay by my side forever…

PJY1234

Subject: ----

“I’m sorry Sehun… I give up… it’s the end of us.”

I send the email and of course, my tears start flowing down. No matter how much I want him to be my forever husband, he’s just not what is fated for me. No matter how big is my love for him… After sending the last email, I didn’t shut down the laptop just yet. Maybe I’m waiting for his reply. Maybe I’m waiting for him to persuade me stopping me from giving up or something like that. One hour, two hours, or even three hours… still no reply. I guess it’s really the end. It’s the end for us…

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Today is my first day off, and it really . I thought I can clear things up and start enjoying my three days’ vacation, but I just can’t. Because of sleeping too late last night, I woke up late this morning. I myself couldn’t believe it. I never ever never woke up on twelve before this even it’s my off day. This whole thing really distract me. Finally after two years, I ended everything I have begged to have before. But I don’t really have a choice because I’ve been lonely enough.

It’s only the first day of my vacation, and I really don’t have any idea how to spend it actually. It’s spring time, and I supposed to have a lot of idea about things to do in spring. But all I can think was spending my time at the spa. Yeah, maybe that will help in forgetting all this distractions in my head. Hot water bath… it would be so great! So here I am now, staying in the spa since 3.00 p.m. and no