*Your pov*

Lay in my bed crying, thats what i do best right now. A part of me still believe that Taemin will come home soon. Everything i do reminds me of him. 

"Seolhyun-ah~" someone knocked at my door. I hide under my blanket.

"Crying again? Get up now!" his voice is familiar tho.

"Key?" he stand beside my bed holding a food tray.

"They told me you didnt want to eat, you refused to go out from your room. You wanna die in here?"  I could hear the anger in his voice.

"I'm not hungry! You can leave now" i said.

"Stubborn" he said, then he sits on my bed. "I dont care, you have to eat this"

I cant deny im starving but everytime i remember about Taemin, i lost my appetite.

"Open your mouth. Aaaa" 

"I can feed myself" i take the spoon from his hand and eat. He smiled, "Good! Taemin must feel happy to see you eat again"

When he mentions 'Taemin', i stopped eating and sighed. "I want Taemin back in my life" i can sense tears coming in.

"Seolhyun... you have to accept that he's gone and move on with your life. Stop torturing yourself like this. We missed him too" Key said

"Wait, you used to call me Yunnie" i said realizing he called me Seolhyun. "I dont want to use Yunnie anymore, it brings back bad memories" he looked down.

"You can go now. I'm fine" i lied. I actually wanted to go to Taemin's room. He nodded and left.

In Taemin's room, i took his favourite t-shirt and wear it. It fits me perfectly. Taemin please come back, can you hear me? I talked to myself in the empty room. When can i fully accept that he's gone and impossible to be back in my life.

*Yuna pov*

"Your name is Lee Taemin, and you involved in an accident but you're so lucky that you're still alive. Thanks to your wife" the doctor explained.

I smiled sweetly to my "husband". "Wife? I-I'm married?" Taemin said.

"Looks like your husband is having amnesia. Come to my office later" the doctor said and i nodded.

"Taemin honey..thank god you're awake. I'm worried that you'll leave me" i hold his face. He just stared at me.

"I know you cant remember anything.. but im your legal wife, Yuna. And this is our son, Yonghee" i used my little brother as my son.

"He's 4 years old now. I'm so happy, Taemin-ah" 

"S-son? I have a son? And a wife? Where is my parents?" he asked.

"Mom and dad are at home. I'll them this good news later" i smiled.

"So you're my wife and this is our son? Sorry.. i couldnt remember anything" he holds my hand. This is really happening, right? YES!!!!!

"It's okay~ i'll help you, im always by your side honey" i kissed his cheek. He's mine finally!

"Doctor... is there any possibility Taemin will regain his memory?" i pretend to sound worried.

"Possibility it will takes for few months but if you helped him to reminisce things before he lost his memory, the process might become quicker" the doctor smiled. 

No, i wont let him remember his family, friends or Seolhyun. Never.

"Umma appa..listen to me carefully. Please admit that you guys are Taemin's parents for the time being. Please please help me. You know how i love Taemin so much right? Please do it for me" i called mom.

"Okay.. we'll do it, anything for you dear" mom said. "Thank you mom!" i hang up. 

*Taemin pov*

Not remembering every single thing ! I'm a married man yet i couldnt remember my wife and my own son!

I take the water bottle at the table, i saw a green bracelet. Made with love? Ah my wife made this for me!

"Honey..the doctor said you can go home today, or tomorrow. Its up to you" Yuna came.

"I dont want to stay at the hospital any longer. Bring me home today" i said. "Yes! I cant wait to spend more time with my husband" Yuna smiled.

Weird, i dont feel excited when she said she wanted to spend more time with me. As a husband, i should be happy, i have a beautiful wife and a cute son. Ahh this maybe because i lost my memory, i'll be okay soon, i thought.

"Honey..we have arrived home" i looked at the house. How i wish i can remember everything right now.

"My son! You're finally home" dad hugged me. Again, i feel weird. I hugged mom. I didnt feel the closeness between us. I keep saying to myself, it takes time Taemin. Be patient.

"Honey let me show you our room" Yuna hold my hand, i looked around the house. Nothing familiar to me. Aish this really !

"Tada~ this is our room" Yuna hugged my arm. 

"Where is our wedding pictures? I dont see any" i looked around.

"Uh its in our own house. For the time being, lets just stay at this house, okay?" I just nodded.

Yonghee came and sit on my lap, "You miss dad? You're happy to see dad?" i hugged him

"Taemin sleep here?" why didnt he called me dad?

"Yonghee! its Taemin appa. Call him appa. Dont be rude" Yuna said. "Yes! Dad~" 

I cant bring myself to smile, my son didnt call me dad, he only called me dad after being told to do so. Ahh whats wrong here?

*Your pov*

Onew, Jonghyun, Key, Minho and Hyejeong are gathered at the living room watching a movie.

"I'm going out now" i go straight to outside, i didnt even look at them when i said that.

"Wait" Key hold my arm. "I'll go with you" he smiled.

"No, dont follow me. I dont need anyone right now" i replied coldly.

"You need somone to talk to. Why are you being so stubborn lately?" he said.

"You're right. I need a friend right now. I just..." i paused. 

"I just need a getaway from all of this" i said. "Let's go! You need to have fun today" Key smiled.

He brought me to the arcade. I refused to go at first because its so noisy but Key forced me to go inside. He played each game at the arcade, laugh uncontrollably ignoring people watching him. I know he's trying to cheer me up.

I smiled but i dont feel happy inside. On the bright side, i feel slightly better, i had fun eventho i didnt play anything.

"I want icecream!" Key smiled.

Ice cream.. that reminds me of Taemin. tsk 

"Are there any birthday cake available here?" Key asked. Birthday cake? Today is not my birthday.

"Yes~" "Good! I want chocolate flavour" 

"Seolhyun.. lets sit here" i just followed what he said.

"Ya ice cream is enough. But a birthday cake? Whos birthday are we going to celebrate?" i asked.

"Me. Its my birthday today" he smiled.

"What? Omo~ happy birthday! Mianhae~ i didnt know" pity him, he bought himself a cake. Aigoo

"Ofcourse you didnt know, you prisoned yourself in your room. You didnt care about your surroundings" i know he's being sarcastic.

"I'm really sorry.. Why didnt they celebrate your birthday? Shall i buy you a gift?" i smiled

"I told them not to celebrate, it just didnt feel the same without him. Anyway, i dont need any gift, being with you on my birthday is enough" he said.

He didnt want to mention HIS name, i dont want to be sad on his birthday either. 

"Then.. blow the candles out! But first, make a wish!" i said.

"Please give me back the happy Seolhyun, thats all i ask for" he said before he blow the candles out.

I looked at him, "the happy Seolhyun" is no longer exist eversince Taemin left the world.

Then Key and i take a walk. My mind is at somewhere else, i keep looking down.

"Thinking about Taemin again?" Key just read my mind.

"I wish he's here on my birthday but things dont go smoothly as we thought it would be" he said.

"I'm sorry..I shouldnt feel sad on your birthday" tears filled my eyes. "It's okay~ just let it all out" he said.

"I know this sound stupid and impossible..but i just want Taemin back, thats all i ever wish for" i wiped my tears away, i dont want him to see me crying.

Key suddenly stand infront of me, "Crying again?" he said. "No~" i denied.

He hugged me, "I know you wanted to cry. Cry it all out if thats makes you feel better."

I cried harder when he said that. A hug, thats all i need right now. Thank god he can understand me.

*Taemin pov*

"Where am i sleeping tonight?" Wait, what kind of question is that? I mean, this is my room, she's my wife. Ofcourse i'll be sleeping on my bed.

"Uh forget about that. Where is Yonghee?" i asked Yuna.

"Oh he's sleeping with umma. Lets sleep now" she lay next to me.

I feel so awkward to be in one bed with her. Then she hugged me, "I miss you honey. Can we do it now?" she whispered at my ear.

I pushed her and jumped out of bed, "Sorry Yuna. I'm not ready yet" i said. She rolled her eyes and turned at the other side.

I'm a bad husband but i didnt feel any love for my wife. Maybe its just too soon for me. Aish can someone please just give me back my lost memory? It just doesnt feel right, for everything.

Story updated! ^^ Anyway, I'm SO SORRY guys! :(