A/N

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Light, I saw light flashing through my eyes. Is this heaven? That would be great; I don’t want to go back to that horrible life of mine. But then a sudden pain strikes on me, so I was alive, how disappointing.

“Hey, Eunhyuk are you okay?” Leeteuk asked me as he gives me a smile.

“How’s Donghae?”

He sighed, “Can’t you care for yourself?”

“Answer me!”

“He is okay now…” Then he tap my shoulders.

I quickly remove the thing that was connected to me, and left, didn’t even care to the pain I am feeling or to Leeteuk that is trying to stop me. I was so happy, Donghae didn’t leave me, I know he wouldn’t leave me like that! I must see him now and hug him! Ah! How I miss my best friend!

I excitedly open the door but then, I saw an empty bed, that’s then I saw a figure near the window. I gasped, he’s awake now! Oh God! Donghae, he’s alive! I can’t take the happiness in my heart, I quickly ran to him and tried to give him a hug but before I could move closer he said…

“Don’t…” His cold voice made me to stop.

But I still smile and said, “Oh come on Hae, I just want to hug you”

He didn’t even look at me, and sigh as he stare to the window, “Don’t ever let me see your face”

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What is he saying? Is he angry to me still? Ah! Maybe he’s just sad about what happened… I should ask for forgiveness first.

“Hae, I know, I’m sorry I didn’t really mean to…” But then, he didn’t even urge to turn around and see me.

“I’m not asking for forgiveness. I said don’t ever let me see you again” His words are like thorns that crush my heart. He can’t possibly serious right? He’s just fooling me right? He didn’t mean it right? He doesn’t hate me right?

“But I’m your best friend…” Then I move closer to hug him but again, he stops me by saying.

“I don’t have a best friend”

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“Hae, don’t do this to me. I know I’m wrong but please, don’t do this to me” I beg and kneel down before him. But he didn’t try to see him, he just there, staring at the window.

“I don’t want to see you anymore” Again, those words, those sinful words, slowly, hurt my heart.

No this can’t be, why are you doing this to me Donghae? Why are you making it hard for me? If I could only bring back time, I would never love Yoona… But why are you unfair? How could you do this me? I am your best friend! But why are you coldly to me? Don’t you even care?

“Can’t you forgive me?” I pleaded him, trying to keep myself compose.

“Leave me already” How could he say those words easily? I was hurt, badly hurt but yeah, if he don’t want me anymore then I can’t continue this anymore. I can’t force him to forgive me if can’t… maybe I should just leave him.

“If I leave then will you be happy?” I asked again, wishing that he’ll change his mind.

Bu he didn’t and quickly answered, “I will if you’re gone”

“Okay, goodbye” I tried to stand up and didn’t let him see me weak. I must stay strong, but deep inside I am dying.

He didn’t even try to say ‘goodbye’, he just stare outside, as if it’s nothing for him. It breaks my heart, leaving him there, inside me I want to hug him! Then, do things together with him. I just want that back but I can’t anymore. I have to leave because he wants me to, and he doesn’t like me anymore.

I left, with a broken heart. I should have died but knowing that he’ll be happy without me, it gives me a reason to live. At least, he’s alive, that’s enough for me. Maybe staring at him afar would lessen the pain I am feeling.

I look at the skies to tell myself not to cry but I failed. Tears started to fall, and I can’t do anything to stop it. Damn it hurts, it freaking hurts! I can’t breath, this is just too hard to accept but I don’t have any other choice but to do so. He said he’s happy without you Hyukjae so don’t feel bad, I should be happy for him and for Yoona.

It would be great.

Smile Hyukjae, be happy for them. At least they’re happy, brace yourself! Be strong! You can’t be sad; you have to at least smile for them.

But how? How could I do it?

If I cry, would this pain fly away? If I tell myself to, will I forget everything? If I smile, will this sadness be gone?

What should I do?

What should I do now? I tried to smile, again but I failed. Instead, I cried again, again and again until my eyes feel sore. But it didn’t stop, I still cry but what can I do? I can only cry, I didn’t even see his face before I leave but that’s better. It wouldn’t be hard for me to do this, but I can’t lie…

It hurts.

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Annyeong...

This chapter is just... sad

I cried you know, did you also?

I'm sorry, if you're sick with this angst (just a little bit more okay?)

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--heechan27

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