Jiyeon pov

Early in the morning, I woke up and rolled from side to side in my bed. I sighed as I still felt that miserable feeling in my heart. "Am I sick again?' I thought worried while I rubbed my chest with my hand. I plopped my head back onto the pillow and stared at the ceiling. Why does my hlife have to be so difficult? Being born in a weak body, I really pity myself.

My eyes trailed down to a shelve and saw my phone laying on it. The green light was blinking, a sign that I got a message. I frowned my forehead and stood up. I took big steps towards my phone until I could reach for it and take it into my hands. My fingers flickered across the keyboard and then the message opened.

I smiled as I saw from who it was.

Keekoooo~!! Goodmorning, how has it been going with my best friend?

With love~, Fei.

Fei, I haven't heard that name in a long time. I'm touched that she still remembered me after so many years. I may have lost her number but she still kept mine, so we could still stay in touch. Fei was actually a girl I have met in a hospital where I was staying with Shindong. She suffered from leukemia but luckily she still could manage to keep her life stable, even if her life span was short. My smile faded a little if I thought about losing her someday.

I rapidly typed a message back and put down my phone. Not long after, I received one again.

Oooh, it's fine with  me, I'm home right now, with my boyfriend, kekeke~

How is your love life going?

Love life, I have never thought about it. Would I ever come across my first love? A person who would love you, my first kiss, I have dreamt about those things but I would never realize that it would come across me, since I'm, you know, not really attractive.

I smiled and typed her an reply back and told her that I have met a person who has been lovesick for a long time and that he somehow had affected me. I mean, there would be a reason why I was feeling like this.

Ooh, gosh, pabo, that's called love~ Jiyeon, have you never ever fallen in love, up until now?

In love? I'm not in love. I'm just feeling miserable but I admit that I liked being around Kwangmin, oh no, is she really right? Do I have fallen for him? But I don't like feeling this pain. Is this pain called love?

I decided to answer her again with a refusing reply and then turned around to change me since sleep didn't really work for me. I brushed my teeth and looked into the mirror. My eyes were sad while I looked at myself. I frowned my forehead and tried different expressions. I always liked to do that, it was almost a daily routine for me.

I wiped off my mouth and walked out of my bathroom. The house was empty and when I had passed my unnies room, I couldn't help but to stop and peek a little. I wanted to see if unnie was awake but when I saw her lying next to Jinyoung,cuddling, I sighed. I closed the door again and walked down the stairs with my hand on the rails, slightly gliding down. 

'Did I really wake up so early?" I thought confused when I had noticed that I haven't met anyone yet. And indeed, it was only half past seven. Sandeul, the earliest of them all who would wake up to make breakfast would only wake up around eight o'clock.

I sighed and traced with my hands across the cupboard. I lightly ticked with my fingers and stared around. What could I do? There's no one yet. My eyes traced down from the clock to the window. The sun was coming up and as energetic as I was, I had a liking for jogging in the morning. I took on my shoes and took my keys, silently.

I closed the door behind me and began to jog into the direction of my school. I breathed in the fresh air and a smile lit up my face. So fresh and clean.

The streets were empty while newspaper was laid in front of their door. I smirked as I saw old people yawning in their pyjamas. They had opened the door and were standing with the newspaper in their hands outside. When I had passed them, I politely bowed my head a little, flashing them a friendly smile. The old man smiled back but then he looked over me. I frowned my forehead and turned my head to see but I couldn't. 

As soon as I had turned my head, my face smacked against someones chest. I stepped back and rubbed my nose. It hurt. I looked up at him and winced in pain.

"I'm sorry..." I muttered with a slight thick voice since I was rubbing my nose. My eyes looked up at him and when I had recognized his familiar curves, my heart skipped a beat.

"K-Kwangmin..." I stuttered with a whisper. Kwangmin looked down on me and didn't say anything. He had a lazy smirk on his face that somehow looked creepier than I was used to him.

"Jiyeon, what nice to see you again. I wondered where you went these past days. You haven't visited me though." he told me with a smirk. His pupils were wide and I could immediately feel that he wasn't himself. He put his hand on my shoulder and squeezed it but I shook it off by taking a step back. I looked cautiously at him and bit my lip.

"I know, but I was a little busy." I lied and I was slightly happy that he believed that. Kwangmin laughed and took a step closer to me. I looked sideways to see if the old man was still standing in the doorway but there was nobody. I stepped back and looked Kwangmins actions. I was slightly afraid.

"Wy are you stepping back?" he laughed while he took another step closer. I shook my head and stood still, clenching my fist. "No, I wasn't." I neglected.

Kwangmin smiled and took another step closer and I could feel his chest against mine. But my legs were urging to step back and finally got what they want. I unintentionally stepped a little step back.

"See?" he smirked. I smiled weakly and looked at him. "S-so, what are you doing here in the morning so early?" I asked him. Kwangmin chuckled and the side of my face with his finger.

"I was planning to go to you. I missed you." he smiled. I looked at his finger and couldn't believe what I heard. "You missed me?" I asked him again. Kwangmin nodded and bent closer to my ear. "I have missed you so much that it felt like I was dying." he whispered, making me shiver.

I couldn't believe my ears. Kwangmin was missing me. I felt instantly happy but my conscious told me that there was something wrong behind that sentence. But I was inexperienced, so I followed my heart.

"That's kind." I muttered under my breath, while blushing lightly. Kwangmin chuckled and looked into my eyes while his face was very close. I could see his chocolat brown eyes very clearly. I almost drowned. A feeling of butterflies fluttered in my stomach. I gulped lightly while Kwangmin looked from my lips, back to my eyes.

"Is this the moment? Will this be my first kiss?" I thought excited. Kwangmin leant more closer down and closed his eyes. He kissed me lightly on my lips for a short time and then shot back up. He smirked while I touched my lips with a flustered face.

"I-I err..." I stuttered astonished. Kwangmin smirked and tapped my nose with his finger. "You like it, didn't you?" he told me. I gulped and lightly, just a little, nodded my head.

Kwangmin smirked again and took my chin. "You like me, don't you?" he asked me again. I looked into my eyes and felt mesmerized by its beautiful colour. What I was feeling right now, I couldn't even bear to say.

"Say it..." he muttered.

"I-I... like y-you..." I stuttered flustered. Kwangmin chuckled and brought my face closer to his again, making me step closer towards him.

"Let me give you a deep kiss so you would know how to love me..." he spoke to me before pressing his lips fully on to mine.

He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me against him. His eyes were closed while I looked at him surprised but finally, closed my eyes to enjoy my first, correction, second kiss from Kwangmin. Does this mean that I own his heart? Kwangmin will be mine?

(...)

Almost the whole day, I felt like my head was floating in the air. I had a very cheesy smile on my face. Even Shindong couldn't stand my good mood today.

I skipped to the kitchen while I looked at Gongchan who was looking into a magazine. I stood next to him and peeked over his shoulder at the magazine. "What are you reading~?" I sang in his ear.

Gongchan chuckled and turned him around to show me the magazine. It was one about fashion. It surprised me that he would read something.

"It's about err... fashion..." he smiled at me. I giggled and took over the magazine. "Oppa~," I whined. "You are holding it upside down."

I flipped the magazine and gave it back to Gongchan who looked at it surprised. "That explains why they were wearing everything upside down." Gongchan gasped while he browsed through the pages. I giggled again and skipped over to Sandeul who was setting the table with CNU.

I looked at them and saw that they had almost done everything and dinner was ready to be served. But something caught my attention, Baro wasn't here and as soon as I thought that, Sandeul spoke about it.

"Hey, CNU, have you seen Baro today?" he asked him. CNU shook his head and looked at him with questioning eyes. "Why, has he been gone all day?" he asked him on his turn.

Sandeul bit his lip and thought about it. "I don't know. I haven't seen him. Maybe he went out to do something early in the morning." Sandeul assumed. I listened to their conversation with a big smile until they had noticed me standing there the whole time.

"Ooh, Jiyeon, what's wrong?" he asked me. I shook my head and smiled happily. "Nothing, I wondered if I could help out on something." I said.

Sandeul laughed and shook his head. "No need anymore. Everything is alright, dinner will be served now." he stated. I nodded and then looked at the dishes. I honestly wasn't hungry. I pouted lightly and looked at the clock.

"Omoo, it's already this late, It's time to see Kwangmin again." I thought. I was very happy that we had agreed to see each other at his house.

"Errr... Sandeul, I'm not really hungry. Do you mind me skipping this dinner? I'm going out." I told him. Sandeul nodded and motioned his head at the door. "You can call the love birds and then you can leave." he told me.

I nodded with a smile and skipped to the hallway. There I saw my unnie with Jinyoung coming down the stairs. She was helping him down since I heard from Gongchan that his wound got worse.

They hadn't noticed me, so I hid myself behind a wall. They had stopped midway the stairs and my unnie looked concerned at Jinyoung who was lightly wincing in pain. "Are you okay?" she asked him. Jinyoung nodded and smiled weakly. "It's not your fault. I'm really alright." he calmed her down.

My unnie nodded and smiled lightly. "I'm really sorry,..." she muttered. Jinyoung chuckled and put an arm around her waist, pulling her closer to him. He lightly pecked her cheek and went his way down to her lips, sharing a sweet kiss. I melted when I saw them.

They looked so cute. I wondered if Kwangmin would do that to me too. But now I have Kwangmin, nothing could go wrong.

I stepped from behind the wall and jumped in front of them. "Jiyeon~!" My sister yelled shocked while holding a hand on her chest. I smiled brightly while Jinyoung smiled back.

"You scared me, what's the matter?" she asked me. I shook my head and nodded my head towards the door. "Dinner is ready. I'm just here to call you two." I told them.

My sister nodded and smiled. "Right, tell them that we're on our way." she told me. I bit my lip and moved from left to right with my shoulders. "I can't.." I said. "I'm about to go out."

My sister frowned her forehead and looked at me. "To where?" she asked me.

I rolled with my eyes and looked at her a little annoyed. "Geez, unnie, why all those questions? I'm just going to a friends house." I chuckled. My sister nodded and then looked at me. 

"Aren't you going to eat first?" she asked me. I shook my head and looked on my watch. "I'm late already. I'm skipping it today."

"Are you sure?" she asked again. I rolled with my eyes and sighed. "Unnie~!!" I whined.

My sister laughed and smiled. "Araa... Go..." she said to me. I beamed and waved them goodbye, before speeding through the door. Before I could leave the door, I could hear my sister whisper to Jinyoung. "It's probably a boy she's heading to." she giggled.

I laughed and waved the others goodbye. I took the keys and walked out of my house. I took my bike and hiked to Kwangmin with a rapid speed since I didn't want to be late.

The sun was setting, making a beautiful orange glow in the sky. Everything felt so beautiful. My life felt so good right now. Being in love is soo fantastic. Kwangmin as my boyfriend.

"Omo, we should go on a date tomorrow.' I said to myself excited. I really couldn't wait to see him again.

There arrived, I ran the bell, and not long after, Kwangmin opened the door with a lazy smirk. "Jagiya..~" he happily sang. I wanted to bow but he took me by my knee holes, surprised my with his lift.

"Kwangmin~!!" I squealed laughing. I hit him softly while Kwangmin laughed.

"Let's go up, hum... I have bought some delicious food in my room." he told me. I nodded with a laugh while he lifted me up to his room. He softly placed me on his bed and gave a light kiss.

"So what do you like to eat first? I have black bean sausaged noodles, kimchi,..." he summed up. I giggled and shrugged my shoulders. "Everything is fine with me." I smiled.

Kwangmin chuckled and bent down to kiss my cheek. "That's what I like about you..." he told me. He opened the box with food and gave me two chopsticks. I grabbed a piece of noodles in my chopstick and turned myself towards him. I raised an eyebrow and motioned him to open his mouth. Kwangmin refused and looked at it a little disgusted. "Hmmm... I'm not hungry, It's all yours." he told me.

I laughed and nodded then. "Thank you, then I'll eat everything." I told him. Kwangmin nodded and shove closer towards me. He brushed my hair to one side of my neck while he lightly kissed my neck.

I giggled by the tingling feeling but when Kwangmin began to caress me, I couldn't help but to feel a little uncomfortable. I put down the chopsticks and took his hands, stopping him from giving me kisses in my neck.

"Aren't we going to talk about how our day was?" I asked him. Kwangmin smirked and shook his head, and proceeded to kiss my neck. "Kwangmin..." I muttered while I avoided his kisses. Kwangmin looked up at me questioning.

"There's no need to talk... I have missed you, can't I kiss you?" he asked me with a smile while pushing me down on his bed. I giggled and nodded.

"Fine," I smiled while he proceeded to kiss me again. But his hands were very disturbing. I tried to grab his hands as I felt a little uncomfortable by his touch.

"Kwangmin,..." I muttered, trying to warn him from touching me but he kept on caressing me, eventually, slipping his right hand under my shirt.

"Kwangmin..." I said what louder, but he ignored me, and tried to push me down.

"I thought that you liked me... Don't you enjoy this?" he asked me with a smile. I smiled weakly and looked at him awkwardly.

"I-I- but  this is my first time. You're just a little too fast." I confessed. Kwangmin smirked and kissed me playfully. "This is normal. You just need to get used to it." he told me but that didn't calm me down. He slipped his hand again under my shirt and I stopped him.

"Kwangmin, stop..." I moaned. I didn't want it this way. I would like the way Jinyoung did to my sister. That soft kiss,that carefullness. Not this..

Kwangmin didn't stop and proceeded to touch me. I began to feel smothered. I didn't want this. Tears began to come in my eyes while Kwangmin still proceeded.

"Kwangmin!!" I sobbed. "How can you do this? I'm your girlfriend."

Kwangmin looked up and smirked. "Girlfriend? I never told you that I was your boyfriend. You're just a friend. A friend with benefits." he smirked.

I widened my eyes and looked at him shocked with tears in my eyes. "He was just using me." I thought shocked.

And then, my body acted before I could realize what happened. I slapped him hardly across his face, earning a very angry glare of Kwangmin I have never seen before.

Meh,,...stupid homework, making me feel sooo busy!!

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