Then my daily routine continued. I admit I did well on my work and I was focused during our recording because that is the only way I know on how to forget. But every time I go home at night, she will be the first one that I will remember and all the memories we shared together so I would call my band members t drink at any open bar.

There was a time I really miss her and I decided to make her jealous by sending her a photo but she didn’t even replied or called. So I drunk a lot since she didn’t even showed any care or attention about the photo.

Doesn’t she even miss me?

I don’t know but I actually left a very long voice message for her that same night. I voiced out all my feelings, everything. I just want her to know about how I feel towards this torture she is giving me.

Long emptiness, frequent loneliness

Now I have nowhere to go

Sometimes I long for your lips

I wanted you but you pushed me away