Then my phone rang again and I saw Joonyoung’s name register on the screen.

‘I’m sorry,’ I whispered as I put it back on my pocket.

We will be better this way Joonyoung. I am sorry that I can’t grant your wish. I am sorry that I am giving you the gift you never asked from. I left you not because I wanted to live another life and for you to depress yourself, I left you because I wanted you to reach the top. How can you ever move to the top if I am there blocking you on your way? How am I supposed to feel happy if what I did was bring you down instead of raise you up?

This is my gift for you Joonyoung. I want you to be successful. I can wait for a long time for both of us to reunite once again so long as you do well while I am away.

Today, certainly for just one day, I hope you are happy.

Merry Christmas! I pray for you not to be alone in the snow