~Yumi~

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Feeling him so close to me was making me even more nervous, the beats of my heart increasing. It started to get a bit awkward and I was embarrassed cause after all, he was listening to my heart

But I couldn't move him, pull away from him cause I wanted to be close to him. Isn't that why.. I have been thinking about him so much ? Dreaming about having him close to me..
And now knowing that he was the person.. that I've always longed for, ever since I was a little kid..

It made me feel like I had just.. seen my fairytale..

I heard him breathing deeply, listening to my heart as I was staying still. I didn't dare to move

I felt him soon, motioning away from me, pulling away, his warmth disappearing with him as he sat up and stared straight into my eyes..
I didn't want him to move away. Having him so close made me feel safe.. and protected.. I wanted him to be close..

He was about to move away from me cause obviously he must have noticed me feeling nervous because my heart were beating like crazy but before he even had time to move any further I threw myself at him and wrapped my arms around his waist and hugged him tightly, my head right under his chin

I could her him gasp, shocked but I didn't let go. I was afraid that this was a dream of mine, one of the dreams that might disappear any minute.. I didn't want to wake up

I shut my eyes hard, and was holding onto him for dear life, afraid that he might leave.
Although, My heart started to beat even faster and I felt him soon relax and his arms wrap around me, resting his chin onto my head..
He started to play with my hair, combing it with his fingers, giving me a ticklish feeling

I relaxed my body as he was holding me close to him

"I'm not going anywhere. . Don't be.. afraid" He whispered softly

I let out a sigh of relief as I was holding him close to me, like a little girl holding onto her teddy while sleeping. JaeJoong.. he really was here..

I don't know for how long we were sitting there, just.. holding each other.. but I felt myself getting tired a bit as he was caressing my cheeks.. drawing circles on my back while I was still hugging him.
He was sitting up, leaning onto the bed while his arms were wrapped around me, me resting onto his chest holding him tightly

"Mianhe~~" I heard him whisper

"What... for?" I asked with my eyes still shut

"FOr.. treating you like that.. If I only.. knew.. that.. you were.. her.. if I only had found the letter .. a bit earlier.. "

"Why did you date her JaeJoong?" I whispered

I don't know if he heard my voice disappearing, it was barely audible when I asked him.. I guess he did notice the broken voice of mine, I was in pain.. that was for sure..

I was hurt by his actions.

"I was confused.. I..."

He sighed heavily

I knew he was going to continue. Through his letters.. he was always straightforward... and honest

I waited for him to continue

"My feelings and my heart.. were confused.. "

"Wae?" I asked

I felt hi pulling me closer to him and he hugged me tightly

"You were.. getting into my heart.. Slowly and unconsciously.. I .. was afraid.. since I already had someone in my heart"

I felt myself shaking as I pulled away slowly and I stared at him..

"You have.. someone.. in your heart.. already?" MY voice cracked as I felt the tears well up in my eyes

Even though I was getting.. all heartbroken, he didn't move an inch..
Suddenly he smiled at me

"WHY ARE YOU SMILING?!?!?!" I shouted at him as I started to move away from him

How dare he smile at me when I just.. when we just..
He kissed me earlier

"Someone's.. in your heart already.." I stuttered as I backed, crawled away from him. I was moving backwards with my hands as I was trying to get away from him

Suddenly he shot up from his place and stopped about 1 inch away from my face

"The girl.. that I've been writing letters with.. ever since.. I was a kid.. has my heart in her hands.."

"W w hat?" I breathed

He came closer and closer, his eyes still looking at me as I felt his lips brushing mine. He didn't kiss me and his lips didn't stop where my lips were..

It was more like.. he was.. holding him back so that he wasn't going to kiss me..

"The girl that I've always loved is right in front of me.. And I was too blind to realize that you were her.."

I stared at him as he was looking into my eyes

"You've always been the one.. I've always loved you.. Your letters.. is like a drug to me.."

I felt myself shaking as I started to lean backwards, him getting closer and soon I was lying down on the floor with him on top of me. Each of his hands on the floor, right were my shoulders were.

He came closer as he was resting his weight on his elbows and he wasn't far away from my face now

"And when I started to fall for you Yumi.. I backed away since I was too afraid that I might forgot that the one I was writing letters with.. That I Would forget her and fall in love with you instead.. BUt now.. when I know.. that it's the same person.. There's nothing that is stopping me.. or my heart .. from.. getting closer to you.." He whispered

I felt him leaning closer and closer and pulled myself up on my elbows, wanting to kiss him.
I was about to fulfill my desire of kissing him, our lips almost touching when the familiar ringtone from my cellphone went off

Both of us startled and I looked at my phone which were on the floor..
He heaved himself up and helped me sit up as well and grabbed the phone and gave it to me

It was a message, not someone calling

I read the message seeing that it was from mother, wondering where I was..

I sighed heavily

"Home looking for you?" He asked

I nodded slowly

He stood up and helped me up as well. He the lights and went over to his wardrobe. He pulled something out of there and smiled at me

"I'll take.. you home" He said

I dragged my feet towards the front door, not wanting to go home. I wanted to stay here with him.. STaying close to him..
Even when I was putting on my coat, my shoes I was still looking at him.. not believing that all of my dreams and wishes had become true..

The guy I had been writing with .. was JaeJoong. JaeJoong also the guy that I had fallen in love with..

When he was done with putting on his shoes, his jacket he waited for me and we soon got out of the house and went straight to his car

He opened the door for me and I got in and he went over to his side, got in and soon we were on our way home. AS he was driving I was concentrating on listening to him breathing..
I really didn't want to go home. I wanted to stay.. Stay right here with him..

I didn't want to leave his side.. and I didn't want him to .. leave me..

AS I was staring blankly ahead I soon felt a hand reaching, and searching for me and soon I felt his warm hand wrap around mine..
Surprised I looked down on our hands and automatically, I held onto his hand tightly as he was squeezing it lightly

The drive didn't take long which made me angry and disappointed cause I really wasn't ready to part from him yet. I parked down the road so that mom and dad wouldn't see his car. He let go of my hand and went outside, over to my side and opened the door. He reached out for my hand, I grabbed his and we walked hand in hand, slower than normal as we were walking, approaching my house

I sighed heavily which made him stop
He spun around and looked at me

"What's wrong?" He asked and walked closer to me, still holding my hand

I shook my head

"I don't.. want to go.." I said honestly and looked at him

He smiled sweetly.. and caressed my cheek

He then went inside his pocket and took out a key

"You can have my housekey. The weekend just started, mom and dad aren't home so.. come by tomorrow whenever you want.." He smiled

"Even in the morning?" I asked bluntly

He chuckled quietly

"IF you want but I can't.. promise you that I'll be awake"

"I don't care.. as long as I'm with you.." I said and looked down on my two feet"

He chuckled

He took his index finger, lifted my chin and looked at me

"I'm already missing you.." He whispered

Suddenly I felt him leaning forward. I closed my eyes as I felt his lips touching my own. The warmth and the scent from him was immediately being registered inside my head and heart as he slowly started to kiss me

The sudden kiss he had given me earlier this evening was more like a peck than a kiss..

I slowly wrapped my arms around him, him putting his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him as he was kissing me passionately

He soon pulled away from me so that we both could breathe..
I then leaned forward and planted a kiss on my forehead

"You should go.. Your parents are probably worried" He whispered

I nodded slowly

Before letting me go he suddenly pulled out something from his pocket
He then grabbed my hand and I soon recognized the jewelry that he was putting on. I looked at my finger to see it was a couple ring

I looked at him, and soon seeing him moving the ring he had on his finger to the other hand, putting the ring on it's right finger

I looked at him questiongly

He faced me

"I've been wearing this ring ever since I bought them.. which was on my.. 18th birthday. I've been waiting for the day to meet you.. to give it to you.."

I swallowed hard as I looked at the ring

"I didn't know.. that you.. had such strong feelings for me.."

He chuckled

"It hasn't been easy... Since.. I didn't know if .. you felt the same for me.. But even though you haven't said a word tonight, I still believe in my heart.. that you have something for me.." He whispered

I looked at him

"How can you be so.. sure?" I whispered

"TO judge by the actions of yours, I'm pretty sure that there is a piece of your heart that loves me.. I'm giving it a chance.. Yumi.." He whispered

I looked at him

"And I guess you kissing me back.. is an answer enough to me to believe that you do love me.." He said

"I love you.." I whispered

I felt his hand freeze in my own as I looked straight at him

"I love the boy I've been writing ever since I was a little girl and.. I love you.. JaeJoong.. my first crush.." I whispered

I leaned forward and planted a kiss on him

"IS that enough.. as a proof for you?" I asked

He chuckled happily as he pulled me into a hug

"More.. than enough.."

He then pulled away from me and look down on my hand. He then looked up with a big smile on his face

"Now you're .. marked as mine.."