~JaeJoong~

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I was wandering back and forth. Picking up stones from the soft sand by the beach, throwing it into the water, hoping that no one was near or in the water that might have gotten hit by my stone

The day seemed too slow for me. Dragging and just slowing my entire thinking, everything down. I looked behind me to see the others guys standing by the food, eating and the girls laughing at some kind of joke Changmin had just said

I sighed heavily as I looked at them. I knew that there was something definitely which was missing from that picture.

"Yumi~~" I whispered

I didn't want to be here, I wanted to know where she was. Not to mention where Yunho was. Obviously, They were spending time together, but what they were doing, I was totally clueless about that..

I wanted them to be here cause only then I would be able to keep an eye on them. I didn't feel comfortable and I knew that I was missing Yumi.

I started to feel sick. Not sick as in sick.. but more.. love sick
I wanted to go home and rest the heart of mine
It needed someone to fill it with love...

"YUNHO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

I heard everyone cheer and shout happily and when I spun around, I saw Yunho smiling and walking towards the girls and the other guys
Surprised by his sudden appearance, I automatically started to look around, searching for Yumi

Of course, she wasn't here

"Oppa, you're not eating?"

I was surprised by Tiffany's appearance that I jumped a bit up in the air because she scared the hell out of me

She chuckled

"GWenchana?" She smiled and caressed my cheek softly

IT gave me chill down my spine but.. it wasn't this touch that I wanted

"I'm .. ok" I whispered

"You've been spacing out the entire day.. You're sure you're ok?"

I nodded

"You can.. tell me if there's anything.. that is giving you a hard time"

She suddenly walked towards me, wrapped her arms around me and hugged me tightly
I stayed still and looked surprised down on her

"Let's.. share the burdens together" She whispered softly

I started to feel uneasy. Very uneasy

I didn't want to hug back but since.. we kind of.. were dating now, I knew that it would be wrong of me if I didn't hug her back. Slowly I wrapped my arms around her and hugged her. BUt not with a loving feeling, more like.. a Friendly hug

I heard Tiffany letting out a sigh..

"Why are you sighing?" I asked a bit curious

She smiled as she pulled away, still holding me though. She faced me

"I'm just.. happy.."

She suddenly stood up on her toes and planted a soft kiss on my lips and then pulled away and looked at me lovingly

"GOmawo~~"

I was a bit.. out of control, not knowing what I was doing as Tiffany grabbed my hand and started to walk back to the others

"I thought you were out with Yumi" Changmin said while drinking coke

Tiffany and I sat down on the blanket as I were listening to the conversation

"I know.. we did. But I dropped her off by her house. She had an appointment or something so I told her to call me if she wanted to come to the beach later if we're still here" Yunho said

"Ahh~~"

A little spark of light was coming alive as I heard Yunho mentioning that she might come over later.

I was watching everyone playing beach volleyball. 2 hours had already past but still no sign of Yumi
I had been observing Yunho, looking at him , hoping that he would suddenly pull out his cellphone and answer the call of Yumi's asking him to come and pick her up

But to my disappointment, nothing of it happened

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2 days passed and I hadn't heard anything from Yumi. I hadn't seen her at school either and I even during the evenings, drove by her house just to see if she still lived there..

She did

I used to do that when I had dropped Tiffany off after our dates. Stupid right?
Going behind her back like that but believe me, I couldn't help it

Yunho hadn't met her either since he couldn't get in touch with her and when he tried to visit her at their house with CHangmin, Yoochun or Junsu, he always got rejected..

Of course we were all worried but.. I.. really wanted to throw a stone at her window, just to see if she opened and would talk to me..
It was getting harder and harder everyday to not see her and not to mention, There was no letter waiting for me..

I got inside the house after my date with Tiffany and took off my sneakers as I headed towards the kitchen..
I saw that there was a note on the table, a white and a pink one. I ignored it since I thought there might just be another not of mom, saying that I have to check the front door and such before going to sleep and also that she had gone with dad to gran

As I was leaning onto the counter I was drinking a glass of water, trying to understand my own feelings, why Yumi didn't come to school and why... everything was so confusing at the moment..
THere wasn't even a letter waiting for me under the stone either..

Now when I think about it.. whenever I couldn't get in touch with Yumi, there was never one single letter waiting for me but when Yumi did go to school.. there was a letter waiting for me..

I sighed and shook my head and pushed it all to the back of my head as I refilled my glass with water. As I was drinking my eyes soon landed on the letters on the table and I started to drink more slowly and slowly as I started to recognize the pink letter on the table..

I was holding the glass in my hand as I started to approach. I stared at the pink letter and my eyes kept getting wider and wider as I recognized the pink letter and the handwriting

I looked around in the kitchen, wondering how the letter were on the table

I stared at the white note

"HI sweetie. Dad and I went to grandma's and we won't be back in three days. I've already prepared and bought some food if you want to cook anything. Take care sweetie and call me if there's anything!

Ps. Dad found the letter. It had somehow slipped under the trashcan"

I stared back at the pink letter as I started to read it

"JaeJoong, You're sleeping very deeply so I don't want to disturb you. I'll be leaving first and I'll see you at school ok ?

Thank you~~

Yumi"

I dropped the glass onto the floor, hearing the shatter break into pieces as I started to sweat while holding onto the letter

"Why.. is.. the letter.. the handwriting so familiar?"

My instincts took over my entire body and I ran upstairs, three steps at the time. I the light while bumping into my room. I ran over to the wardrobe and took the big box with her letters

I felt my heart beating faster and faster as I shakingly just grabbed a letter and put it right beside Yumi's note

I let out a gasp as I stared at the letters

"Im .. p poo oossible"

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~Yumi~

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I was holding my letter that I had written, making my way down to stone to give it to him. I walked slowly, trying to make out the small pavement just in case I would trip over or fall, cause the eyes weren't on top now after receiving the 2 days treatment

I hope.. He wasn't angry with me for not.. writing and answering his letter for the past few days.. but I couldn't really help it.. The treatment was harder than I thought and made my eyes ache so much that I prefer having them closed than.. looking at stuff

FOr the past few days, I had turned my phone off and I heard that the guys had been visiting me. Although, I had always rejected them when I had questioned mom to describe how they looked like every single day..

Even though it's stupid of me, I couldn't help myself . I was hoping that one of them was JaeJoong but of course, he never.. came to see me. It was always Yunho, with eitehr Changmin, Yoochun or Junsu

I held the letter more tightly as I felt my heart sinking inside of me.
I know.. that JaeJoong is taken, so why even bother to think about him? I did try to forget him but.. all the times we had spent together kept popping up inside my head and it was harder than I thought..

I had fallen for him, deeper and deeper.. So hard that it was impossible for me to get up on my own two feet
Silently I felt a tear falling down on the right cheek

I soon reached the place. I wiped away the tears as I looked around, making sure that no one was around to see me lift the stone

At least.. I still had 'Him' ..

I closed the stone carefully and stood up.. I sobbed quietly as I spun around and were just about to make my way home when I felt someone staring at me
I could feel that I Was being watched and automatically I looked up slowly to see JaeJoong standing in front of me

His face was a mess. He was wearing a hat as he stared at me. I couldn't even recall how beautiful he must have looked like when I first met him but his beauty was exceptional tonight

Even with my eyes being blurry, him looking at me devastating, he still looked beautiful to me
I then saw him holding a pink letter in his left hand. So.. he found it ..

He suddenly started to walk towards me.. Slowly
I watched every step he was taking and it was surely going to stand in front of me
His face became clearer the closer he got and when he was about an armlength away from me, he suddenly stretched out his arm and in his hand he was holding something blue

He didn't say anything, but just holding it out for me, waiting for me to grab it
With shaky hands I grabbed the blue letter and I instantly recognized the letter
I knew that I would be able to recognize the letter even if I was blind

THe familiar letter that I had been reading, longing for the last years..
It was His letters
Somewhere inside my head I felt something connect and I looked up slowly to see JaeJoong staring at me

A tear silently fell down on my right cheek as he suddenly took one step forward and within a second, his lips were brushing mine..