~Changmin~

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As soon as I got home, I tiredly threw myself on the couch and took a deep breath as I could hear soft piano sounds coming from Yoochun's room ..
That sound gave me energy to get up on my feet and I followed the sound. I know that Yoochun Hyung were having classes now and no one were going to be home except...

"Hyung?"

JaeJoong looked up from the piano. I saw him holding a pen and having notes in front of him and he looked really lost

"What are you doing?"

He shrugged emotionless and returned to his composing. I entered Yoochun's room and leaned forward looking at the notes on the papers..

"Can I look at it?" I asked

JaeJoong didn't answer, instead he returned to his composing and I took that as a yes and browsed through it..

"Hyung.. have you been writing all these.. songs?" I asked

"They are only.. half finished" He whispered quietly, his fingers still playing on the piano ..

My eyes caught the words like

"It hasn't been even a day but I begin to miss you again"

Or

"I know, our love's a miracle... You ease the pain in me
and slowly the pain becomes my delight.. "

There was no doubt that all these lyrics were based on the love he had for Yumi ..
He hasn't even tried to get over her.. . And now he was finally speaking.. he had opened himself.. stopped locking the feelings outside and now he was writing it down..

"When you're by my side I am complete as a man " I read..

His lyrics were deep and it was written straight from the heart . His fingers were still playing on the piano as I kept reading. .

"You're just tired of the sadness, right?
Can't you hear anything?
You only love
I can't never give up
Is separation your choice?"

Slowly I started to feel Hyung's pain in the lyrics and I couldn't help but feel my heart becoming heavy ..

"Love is believing in a promise that we'll be together forever.." I whispered quietly

I looked up from the papers as I saw tears falling from JaeJoong's eyes, hitting the piano as his fingers were still wandering. He hasn't given up on her..
He was hoping that she might come back ..

"hyung..."

I reached out for him but he suddenly stood up and grabbed the papers and went back inside his room. His door slammed hardly and left me a bit shocked in Yoochun's room

"What's going on? What's the noi..."

Junsu quieten as he entered Yoochun's room seeing me sitting there

"Changmin? Gwenchana?"

I looked up to see Junsu being a bit worried. He just got home, you could tell by him still wearing his jacket and holding his bag in his hands..

I shook my head slowly as I got up and walked pass Junsu and went inside the livingroom. Within 30 minutes Yunho and Yoochun came home and for some reason Junsu had sat down right next to me, asking me why I was like this..
I didn't know how to answer that either.. cause this is all about Hyung.. his pain .. He was suffering.. so much

"What's wrong? Why are the two of you sitting here?" Yunho asked and sat down

"Yah... Changmin ah~~ Something happened?" Yoochun asked

I stared blankly ahead as I was trying to imagine what JaeJoong was going through ..

"What happened?" Yunho asked Junsu

"mol la yo. I came home and heard JaeJoong slam his door and I found Changmin in Yoochun's room and he looked so devastated.." Junsu explained

I felt all of their eyes on me as I was staring blankly in front of me

"We... have to find her.."

All three of them looked at me. I faced them

"We need to find Yumi for him.. he can't take it.." I whispered

"What do you mean?" Yunho asked slowly

"Hyung is so close to a break down now. He has lost the balance. His path.. Hyung I'm really serious now.. I just read his lyrics that he has written.."

"Lyrics?" Yoochun asked

I nodded

"I came home. Heard the piano and followed the songs and found him in your room composing. He has been writing songs and there's no doubt that all the lyrics are straight from his heart... Hyung, he's suffering more than we know.. He might be expressionless and such. Even though he's trying his best to live his life and move on, it just can't. He's still wearing the necklace with her couple ring. He's suffering. So much Hyung.. It's like eating him up inside.. The pain is taking over him completely.. we need to do something.."

"But how is it gonna help if we find Yumi? Cause obviously she left him for a reason right??" Junsu said sadly

I shook my head

"I believe that she still loves him. And if JaeJoong hyung is prepared to be there for her, and he knows the situation, what is waiting ahead of him. Then there's nothing to worry about. All Yumi have to do is to accept it.."

"I don't know about that.. it sounds so risky.." Yoochun said

"But we have to.. we have to help him somehow" I said frustrated

"What if she leaves him again..?"

Yunho's broken voice forced me to look at him. His hands were entwined, he was leaning with his elbows on his knees as he was staring blankly ahead of him..

"His heart can't take another round" Yunho whispered

I sighed in frustration since I knew he was right..

"He can't take it one more time.. His heart isn't that strong.."

The very next day I was tired. But as soon as I got to the hospital it felt like I was feeling a lot better. Yoona always managed to make me smile and happy so it was nothing wrong with that.. I needed a cheerful person at the moment..

"Oppa?"

I looked up from closing the door

"How did you know it was me?"

"Your walking.." She said from the bed

I chuckled

"How are you feeling today?" I asked

"I think.. I should be asking you that.."

"Wae?" I said softly and sat down on the chair right next to her bed

"You sound.. troubled.. and tired"

I tried to laugh it away

"Not really.. I didn't sleep so well.."

"Hmm.. nightmares?" she asked kindly

"aniya~~ Just.. having troubles with the hyungs lately.."

"Wanna talk about it?" She asked

"Not really..It'll be ok"

"I'm sure it will.."

Both of us quieten and I leaned myself back in the armchair and closed my eyes

"Oppa?"

"Hmm.."

"I want to try something"

"Like what?" I asked

"Just do as I say ok?"

I looked up to see Yoona smiling brightly ..

"You're not planning to do something weird and awkward right?" I joked

She chuckled

"Oppa... trust me.."

I took a deep breath

"Sit here.. in front of me.. with your face facing me.." Yoona whispered

I approached the bed slowly, feeling my stomach getting nervous and my heartbeats were increasing. I had no idea why but it started to get warmer as well..

I sat down in front of her and waited

Suddenly she came closer to me

I followed her motions and soon I felt her warm hand reaching out for my face..
I let out a sigh as I closed my eyes, feeling her warm and soft hands wandering down my cheek.. to my nose to my lips and up to my eyes..

"What are you doing?" I breathed, constantly hearing my heart beats increase

"I just want to know how you look like" She whispered