~Yumi~

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Of course I noticed all the deathglares I was getting from the beloved schoolgirls that had I crush on JaeJoong. I was afraid. To death..

I was so insecure and I didn't know what to do except that I wanted to hold onto JaeJoong since I was afraid that something might happen if they would do anything against me.. JaeJoong which had obviously got the picture, was holding me close to him, not leaving me alone for a single minute. he refused to leave my side without anyone around me.

But when it was lunch, I started to feel a bit more relaxed and the guys were taking good care of me.
What I was the most surprised about was that I thought Tiffany and her friends were going to yell at me, scold me or something like that but she didn't. In fact, when she saw me she smiled warmly and waved at me happily.

The other girls too..

I have never talked to them, not much at all but still they treated me so warmly..
Maybe they were nice girls after all. At least I knew Tiffany was cause she was very gentle towards me and I've never seen or heard her say anything bad about me..
Not the other girls either..

The schoolday passed by really quickly and I knew tomorrow's lessons were canceled. The history class was canceled since the teacher was sick, or chemistry class, we had our own projects going on and we didn't to be presence for the lesson tomorrow and I knew that since I was finished and JaeJoong as well, we had the day off. I guess the others as well

I looked at the clock to see that I had my appointment with the doctor soon and I had to hurry back home so that I wouldn't be late. I cannot afford to miss out the treatments..

"Something wrong?" He asked while driving

"Mwoh?"

"You seem.. to be a bit distracted" He said warmly and looked at me while he stopped at the red light

I shook my head

"Aniyo.. Wae?"

He chuckled

"Are you.. busy today?" He asked and looked at me

"Why are you asking?" I smiled and looked at him

He chuckled as he started to drive again since the light switched to green

"Well.. since we had the day off tomorrow.. I was thinking of.. doing something"

"Doing what?"

"Actually.. it doesn't matter.. As long as I'm with you" He said honestly and looked at me

I chuckled

"Jae..We've been together the entire day.. Don't you get tired of me?" I asked and looked at him

He stopped at the red light again and looked at me, as if he wished that he just heard wrong

"Tired of you? How.. can you say that?"

"I.. I.. was just asking.." I stuttered

He let out a sigh and grabbed my hand

"How can I possibly get tired of you? Being without you.. is like.. being without food.." He rolled his eyes causing me to laugh

"What did you have in mind then?" I asked

"I don't know.. You decide? I don't care.. as long as you're with me.. I'm.. down for anything"

I shrugged

"I don't know.. I haven't been spending so much time at home lately.." I said slowly

It was just an excuse since mom was kind of happy that I was spending time with 'friends' since she thought that I would.. do as much as possible.. Anything to forget the illness.. I have..

I sighed..

JaeJoong pulled over down the road, a few feet away from my house since he didn't think I was ready to introduce him to my family yet.. Which I wasn't.. I couldn't possibly introduce him when we haven't been dating for so long..

"Can I pick you up after.. supper?" He asked and looked at me

"Uhm.. I don't know.. I was thinking of spending time with mom tonight" i said slowly

Actually, I didn't know how long the treatment was going to take.. that's why

"So you can't see me at all today?" He asked almost like he got hurt

I really couldn't take seeing him like that

"How about 8? We can just.. watch a movie later on.." I said

I saw the glimpse in his eyes, he instantly smiled at me. He leaned over to kiss me before I was leaving him

The kiss started out at first, carefully, just feeling and tasting but when I was trying to pull away I could feel the smile on his lips as he pulled me closer to him, cover my entire mouth with his lips as he kissed me more passionately

"I h h h ave..t.t.f..........too go. ." I chuckled while trying to pull away

After a few seconds he let go and chuckled himself

"COme back to me soon araso?"

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~JaeJoong~

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After I had dropped Yumi off by her house, I drove over to Junsu's house, knowing that the guys were waiting for me. They just wanted to chill and talk.. and hang out and since I had to make the time pass by somehow, I decided to come.

Junsu opened the door for me as I entered and he went back to the livingroom after closing the door. I came into the livingroom to see Yunho and Yoochun sitting down, Yunho on the armchair, Yoochun lying down on the couch in front of me as Junsu were on the soft and thick carpet with a pillow and a bowl of popcorn

"Where's Changmin?" I asked and sat down

"Oh.. he had some kind of appointment.. so he'll be late.." Junsu said

"Ahh~~"

"So.. are you going to tell us or do we have to ask for it?" Yoochun smirked as he sat up

"Tell you what?" I asked

"YUMI AND YOU!!" Junsu squealed

"Tell us!!" Yunho said

"What do you want to know?" I asked and scratched the back of my head

"Everything!!" Junsu said

"Aish~~ I don't know even where to start" I said slowly

"How about from the beginning?" Yunho suggested

"But.. what about Changmin?" I asked

"He'll be late.. we can always tell him later.. Just shorten it up a bit" Yoochun chuckled

I sighed and took a deep breath..

The guys looked at me with intense eyes, Yoochun holding onto the pillow tightly, Yunho biting his apple and Junsu on the floor with a bowl of popcorn waiting for me to start

And I did..

I started from the very beginning, the little curious boy who was bored and went to explore the countryside, ended up in the forest seeing a pink letter inside a tree..

He was just a kid so with the curiosity of his, he had taken it and read it and for some reason he wrote a reply and put the blue letter back inside the tree. He had followed his instincts ever since, always coming back to the tree and just like always he had replied every single one of them..

I told them everything, every little detail that I felt that wasn't private and I paused once in awhile to let them ask me questions.
Seems like they were taken away with the story, that no one of us noticed the clock ticking away

Of course they found it pretty annoying that I hadn't figured out that Yumi was her, and that I couldn't see the similarities and also because I had started to date Tiffany.. just because I was afraid of Yumi.. of loving Yumi .. thinking that I might loose the love I had for the girl I had been writing to.. which actually turned out to be her..

When I had finished the entire story.. the guys didn't say much..

"Sounds like..a drama.. except that the male lead is stupid and blind" Junsu scolded

I rolled my eyes

"I was blind.. i admit it.. but I was scared" I said

"Understand you.. though.. but I can't believe that .. you actually have been writing to her ever since.. no wonder you never wanted to do anything else except going to the country side.." Yoochun said

"Now we know the reason" Yunho laughed

"I'm just annoyed that you didn't tell us a bit sooner though" Yoochun said

I sighed

"I know.. and I'm sorry for that.. I just felt.. that it was pretty private.."

"But still.. we didn't know that we were making things hard for you.. you could've.. at least said that you had someone else in your heart.. " Yoochun shrugged

"I know.. Mianhe~~"

"Aish don't be.. I'm happy..that you finally met her and .. look at you now.. You're dating her.." Yoochun smiled

"She's really a wonderful girl.." Junsu said and looked at me

"Indeed.." I whispered

"haha.. look at that face.. Whenever we mention her name, his eyes starts to glitter somehow" Yoochun laughed

"Well.. being in love is really something" Yunho laughed

I looked at the clock to see it was still an hour left until I got to see her..

"So.. are you going to see her tonight?" Yunho asked

I nodded

"But.. she wanted to spend some time with her mom.. and dad.. I couldn't refuse her that.. so I said ok.. I'm going to pick her up at 8.." I sighed heavily

Everyone quieten

"Seems.. like.. a long time for you huh?" Yunho asked

"It's.. frustrating" I whispered and looked at them

"How is it like Hyung?" Junsu asked sincerely and looked at me

"What?" I asked

"being in love..."

I chuckled and looked down on my ring..I touched it slightly as I thought about it

"It's.. beyond your imaginations.." I said and looked up

"What do you mean?" Junsu asked

"It's.. so.. exciting.. warming.. yet frustrating"

"Ahh~~ I know that feeling.." Yoochun chuckled

Junsu laughed

"It's been awhile.. I've forgotten.. how that feels like.." Junsu said

"Aish.. Our time will come soon.." Yunho laughed

"It's so frustrating cause I know I can't be away from her.. and just thinking that she might.. might.. might.. drift away from me someday.. that she might.. loose her feelings for me someday.. It's.. killing me" I said and looked at them

"You shouldn't be thinking about that.. " yunho said

I nodded in agreement

"I know but it's hard.. I'm just afraid that I might loose her.. The feeling .. it just.. won't go away you know.. I mean, it just stays there inside my head and ruins me.. I'm just afraid that I might loose her"

"You won't.. she loves you" Yoochun said

"I know but.. you should at least be prepared.. right? In all relationships , it can be wonderful and in the next second turn out to be a disaster.. The feeling's.. always there..." i said

"hey guys.. missed me?"

All of us looked up to see Changmin smiling

"Oh.. There you are.." Yunho laughed

"What's up with the serious facial expressions?" He smiled and sat down on the couch next to Yoochun

"Aniya~~ Just talking" Junsu shrugged

"About what?" He asked

"Sarang~~" Yoochun said cheesily

Changmin chuckled

"Anyway.. Don't worry hyung.. I don't think you should.. think stuff like that.. just.. focus on her now will you? It's unnecessary to even think about those stuff, not to mention that you could waste your energy on her, making memories instead of wasting it on something useless" Yunho said

I nodded

"You're right.."

"Are you talking about Yumi?" Changmin asked and looked at me

I nodded

"You missed the story. It's.. awesome.. it's almost.. magical you know.. as if they were meant to be or something.. almost.. like a drama" Junsu chuckled

"Ahh~~ Chincha? Tell me then" Changmin said

I shook my head and stood up

"The time's ticking and I am suppose to meet her soon.. I don't have time.. They'll tell you about it.." I chuckled

"You're seeing her now?" Changmin asked a bit shocked

I nodded

"Yeah.. I'm suppose to pick her up by 8" I said and looked at him

I noticed the weird facial expression on Changmin's face

"Changmin.. something wrong?" Junsu asked

He shrugged

"Aniyo~~ I just find it weird.. cause speaking of Yumi.. I went to the hospital with Omma.. and I saw her there.. with her mother..." Changmin said

My eyes got wider as I stared at him

"MWOH?!" Yunho shouted

Changmin nodded

"WHEN?!!" Yoochun asked

"Just now.. Mom had to check her health so I went with her.. When i was leaving I spotted her in one of the examination rooms.. but I didn't see much except that she was sitting down with her mother.." Changmin said

"But.. Bu.. but.. that's im m mpossible" I stammered

Changmin shook his head

"But she's at the hospital.. Hyung.. I saw her" Changmin said

I looked at the clock . 7:20 pm

I knew I couldn't wait 40 minutes so I grabbed my jacket and the carkeys and went outside..
I didn't care if I was going to pick her up by 8. I had to see her now..

She.. isn't .. sick right?

All kinds of thoughts were running through my mind as I was driving like an idiot on the roads. I was shaking, breathing heavily as I was thinking about it..

She's.. perfect..

Why is she in the hospital ?