~JaeJoong~

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As I was driving home, I thought about the conversation I had back at the library with the other guys. It was pretty obvious that all of us were worried about her, thinking about her health, trying to be in her shoes and try to feel whatever she was feeling at the moment.

But I never knew that the sadness and burden would become even more bigger than it already was, It was tearing me down inside of me. I had to pull over in order to calm myself down as I was listening to the music on the radio. How great, Kim Tae Woo's song "Words that I want to say" was playing, and it certainly didn't help me in any way to feel better. I turned off the engine and stared blankly ahead as I tried to gather my strength, pull myself together..

Impossible..

It was impossible for me. It didn't matter how much I was trying cause the pain was still there. The sadness. I hit the wheel hardly as I burst out into tears, the tears falling down my cheeks. I didn't want to scream cause my voice wasn't on top yet. I had to hold the scream back which wasn't easy. How fair is it that this illness would cause her this much damage?
What has she ever done wrong in order to deserve this? What?
I sobbed quietly as I thought about Yumi.. My Yumi

Yunho's words kept echoing inside my head..

"Keep Smiling Hyung, that's the best thing you can do for now" was echoing over and over again..

I thought about myself smiling. Of course.. I always smiled whenever I was around her, No doubt. Thinking about all the years that I had been wanting to meet her, to see her, ever since I realized the warm feelings inside of me, the heartbeats beating for her, it was such a torture, enduring all those years, just waiting for the vacations just so that I could talk to her again. And now.. when we're able to see each other, date as a normal couple, God gave her this illness, this obstacle ...
How are we suppose to endure this ? There's no way out..

Soon I drifted away into the word memories and a light slowly started to sparkle inside of me. I started the engine as I got out on the road again, made a u-turn and going the opposite way. I knew that the summer vacation was getting closer and I knew that I should take this advantage..

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~Yumi~

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"I'm so happy... that summer is here! Hello vacation!!" I said happily as I was walking with Yunho and Changmin across the lot

"I bet! I feel so free.. no burdens, no homeworks. I can shut off the brain now" Changmin said happily

"Any plans for the summer then?" Yunho smiled and looked at me

I shrugged

"Not really.. I'm just going to take it easy at first... and then we'll see. I haven't talked to Jae yet. I wonder if he's going to go somewhere this summer" I said

I didn't notice the glance that Yunho and Changmin was exchanging

"Why are you so quiet?" I asked and looked at them

They shrugged

"Tired. It's warm.." Yunho joked

A little further I saw JaeJoong waiting in his car and he got out of it and waved at us happily
He came towards us and greeted the guys with a hand clap and kissed me on my cheek and put his arm around my waist

"Did the guys take care of you today?" JaeJoong asked kindly

I nodded

"Indeed.. they were carrying my books, getting my food. And Yoochun and Junsu even tried to make me some food! I can't say it was bad cause it wasn't . For being their first attempt to make kimbap, I think they did pretty well" I smiled

JaeJoong chuckled happily

"Well at least you're alive" JaeJoong joked

i rolled my eyes

"Where did you go after the history class then?" I asked

JaeJoong smirked and looked back at the guys

"Where's Junsu and Yoochun?" He asked

"They'll be here soon" Yunho said and looked at his cellphone

Soon we heard Junsu's familiar voice, screaming and joking around with Yoochun as both of them were running. When they stopped in front of us, they were breathing hardly since they were running. Yoochun then stepped forward and handed JaeJoong a plastic bag

"Is everything in it?" JaeJoong asked

Junsu nodded

"We checked it 3 times!" Junsu assured

JaeJoong chuckled

"What's that?" I asked and was about to grab the plastic bag but JaeJoong shook his head

"Nah Ah~~"

I rolled my eyes

"You are hiding something.." I mumbled

He chuckled

"You'll find out soon"

"Have fun then. We'll see you" Yunho said

"Come back safely" Changmin chuckled

JaeJoong nodded

"What are they talking about? You're going somewhere?" I asked

JaeJoong pushed me to the car, opened the door and forced me inside, put the seatbelt on for me and then closed the door. He waved at the guys, they waved back at me as well and I was confused not sure if I should wave or not but then, I felt my hand rise and I waved back at them. JaeJoong got into the car as well, closed the door and started the engine and backed out from the parking lot and then he drove away from the school

"What's happening?" I asked

"We're going on a trip"

"Mwoh?!" I gasped

He chuckled

"Don't sound so surprised" He smiled

"JaeJoong!! Why didn't you tell me sooner?"

"Surprise!" He chuckled

"But mom and dad.."

"Are already informed" JaeJoong winked

I stared at him as he were keeping his eyes on the road

"You're not serious.. right?" I asked slowly

He chuckled even harder

"Do I look like I'm joking?" JaeJoong said

"No.." I said slowly

"Exactly.. I met up with your parents.. a couple of days ago. Introduced myself and had a cup of coffee with them"

"YOU MET THEM WITHOUT ME KNOWING?!" I shouted

"Calm down Yumi~~"

"Aniyo! How come you didn't tell me?"

"You were in the hospital when I was there. Besides, I took the chance to let them to get to know me a little better and to let them know that their daughter are in the safe hands of Kim JaeJoong" JaeJoong smiled proudly

I sighed

"i can't believe you prepared all this. I don't even have any clothes.. toothbrush.. towel.."

"Shoes, make-up, girl stuff. Everything's set and back there. Anything else you can think of that you think I HAVE forgotten?" JaeJoong teased

I sighed

"I'm a good boyfriend..aren't I?" He said happily

"You're a sneaky one. Clever.. but not the best" I said pretending to be angry with him

Silence soon took over and I think my acting was working cause I saw him from the corner of my eye that he was throwing glances at me. I don't know if he had noticed that I was just pretending to be angry with him when i was actually jumping up and down out of happiness. This was our first trip together and I can't say much more than that I was more than overly touched by his actions. I mean, I don't think any guy would have the courage to actually go home to their girlfriend, meet their parents and have a cup of coffee, chat with them without having the girlfriend there. It must have taken him a lot of preparation and courage to do that. I wonder if he was nervous.. and what they talked about..

"Are you angry.. with me.. Yumi?" JaeJoong asked slowly

I didn't answer

"Yumi ah~~ I didn't mean.. to .. plan all this behind your back. I thought about it .. more of an surprise.. and I didn't know you would get upset because I didn't consider your feelings. Maybe you had other plans and such.. Mianhe~~~" He apologized

I couldn't help but hold back the laughter when I heard him say that and he immediately looked at me when I burst out laughing

"YAH!!!!!!!" He shouted

I calmed myself down after the attack of laughter and turned myself to face him. He was pouting cutely in front of him, his eyes concentrated on the road

"Mianhe~~ I couldn't help it"

"Tell me about it. Seems like you're dying out of laughter at the moment. That wasn't funny. You nearly gave me a heart attack" He said

I chuckled lightly and caressed his cheek, just to make him soften up so that he wouldn't be angry with me

"Mianhe~~ I would never do anything to make you have a heartattack.." I chuckled

"Well you can take away the word Never cause you just did" JaeJoong said

I could hear the smile behind his acting cause seems like my touch on his cheek helped a bit

"Not really. You said NEARLY gave me a heartattack not that I did give you one" I said

He rolled his eyes

"Why are you being so observant with my choice of words today.." He groaned

I chuckled even more

I didn't notice that we had been driving for 4 hours and I had probably fallen asleep as soon as JaeJoong had started to sing quietly to a lullaby. I don't know if he did it on purpose to make me fall asleep but I guess he did notice that I was tired after school...

"We're... here" His voice sang in my ear as he caressed my cheek softly

I opened my eyes, rubbed away the tiredness from my eyes as I sat up and looked around, not recognizing the place. I got out of the car as JaeJoong headed to the back to get the bags with our clothes and some stuff he had brought. I looked around seeing that we were somewhere in the forest. The white cabin was cute and small, looking like an apartment from the outside. It was kind of deserted cause I didn't see anyone here. The small path up to the house was covered with stones, the sidelines covered with the beautiful green summer grass. I walked slowly while looking at the surroundings. I noticed the white cabin, having a white wide door as the entrance. The terrace made of tree, small and neatly put with a few flowers decorating it. The forest wasn't far away, surrounding most of the cabin, at least in the front.

"Open the door" I heard JaeJoong say

I did as I was told and when I entered the new, unfamiliar scent hit me right away. But it smelled nice, a mix of new and untouched furniture as well as a soft scent of strawberry

"What is this?" I whispered

JaeJoong came back after he had put the bags in the bedroom and he grabbed my hand as he smiled at me happily

"This is dad's cabin. We bought it a long time ago but haven't really used it. We did go to this cabin once in a while but I guess we kind of.. forgot it when mom started to visit the countryside more often. So it's been like.. untouched and unvisited for a few months now.." He said

We took off our shoes and passed the small hallway and soon entered the small and cozy livingroom. The furniture was perfectly matching the cabin's concept, white, big and open. It felt so free...

The cabin had a piano in the corner, a screen tv hanging on the wall. A stereo system that was plugged into every room in the entire house so basically you were monitoring, changing and playing the music from the livingroom.
JaeJoong led me to the kitchen and I couldn't help but awwe at the cute small kitchen. It wasn't big but not small either. It's counter black while the drawers white. The small table for four was matching the kitchen as well but the thing that captured me the most was the scenery behind the dining table. The terrace was stretching out, and I could see the small path making it's way down to the small lake.

"You know there's hot springs a little further.." JaeJoong said happily

"Chincha?!" I gasped

He nodded happily

I then made my way down the hallway and I entered the big white and cream bedroom, with it's two big windows, a balcony to it. the king sized bed, which a least 5 people could fit in there was beautifully decorated with red rose petals. The sheets, were cream white, it's factory silk and the sheet's hanging down from the roof, making it look like we had entered a King's and Queen's bedroom, made it look so.. fancy

There was candles along the desk in front of the bed and to the right, there was a bathroom, a bathtub, shower and a big zink. I even thought the toilet looked cute

"What's all this for?" I whispered still shocked

I felt him wrapping his arms around my waist

"Today is a very special day.." I heard him whisper as he rested his chin on my shoulder as I was holding onto the bedframe looking at the bed

He kissed my neck before spinning me around and faced me

"Today's.. it is exactly.. 13 years since we've been writing to each other.." JaeJoong whispered

I started to feel even more emotional, something wet forming in my eyes. Tears of happiness of course.. And I fell even more for him. I was falling even more in love

"13 years of.. writing.." He whispered as he wiped away the tear that was making it's way down my cheek

"13 years.. 13 years ago.. You made my life complete"

I sobbed quietly as he smiled at me

"13 years ago, I started a new path in my life journey. We started our love story"

He chuckled happily as I smiled at him while crying quietly.. He looked into my eyes deeply, constantly touching my face while wiping away the tears. I could feel his happiness. The vibes was so obvious that it was so easy to read..

"This is it Yumi. This is how it is suppose to be.." He whispered

"How..?" I sobbed with my thick voice

He let out a chuckle when he heard my voice

"Like this. Looking at each other like this" He whispered as he kissed my forehead

He then pulled away and put his finger under my chin, pushing it up carefully so that he could look at me. I felt his face coming closer, his lips were slightly brushing mine, tickling them..

"Let's forever look at each other like this.. with an.. unchanging heart.." I heard him whisper

He leaned forward and kissed me passionately, his arms wrapping around my waist and I put my arms around his neck, playing with his hair as we were kissing each other

He then pulled away slowly, I think trying to not force me into something I didn't want to do. he didn't want to cross the limit..

He chuckled

"This is our cabin for the next 3 days"

I smiled at him

"I know it's a stupid question but I really want to ask you.." He said slowly, his cheeks turning a bit red

"You're.. blushing?" I as I chuckled

he nodded

"I guess I am"

"what is it?"

"I know we're not children but.. can we just.. pretend for these 3 days while we're staying here?"

"Pretend what?"

"That we're married"

My jaw dropped as I stared at him

"Are you serious?" I asked

He nodded

"Consider it as a .. game we're playing when we're used to be kids.. just that.. we're playing it a bit more seriously" He chuckled

I rolled my eyes

"You're really serious about this..aren't you?" I asked

he shrugged

"Just for this small trip. Can you do that for me?" He asked

I looked into his eyes for a minute. He really was serious and for some reason I think it was cute of him. But I do wonder if he had a reason, a purpose behind this..

"Pretend to be your wife.. during this trip?" I asked

He nodded excitedly. I chuckled and nodded slowly

He burst out into a happy scream, lifting me up and swinging me around before putting me down and hugging me tightly

"Buin, Welcome home" He whispered