Honestly, I used to selfishly think that I could do whatever I want with this story and since it wasn't that popular no one would expect anything from me. 

That was probably nearly four years ago, and I can't believe all that time later I still haven't finished this story.

Truth is, my mindset has changed from since then. Not only have I myself matured, my writing style has probably changed too, and maybe my humour has changed (I'm not sure if I even have any in the first place). 

It's difficult looking at a story I started in year 8, and published in year 9. I do have a lot of chapters (maybe five) I could publish right now that I wrote WAY back but I just can't because it doesn't even connect with what I'm trying to write (hence the slow indecisive updates). I can' t even connect to this story myself. 

I can't convince myself to continue this how it is, I wanted to drop this but since my mindset has changed, I fear disappointing those who followed me all these years. I stopped caring about the subscribers and views I got, but that's all I cared about back then. I thought to capture the attention of the audience all I had to do was put in all these moments between Ka Eun and Jaejoong and tonnes of cliche for people to fangirl over. That was very immature of me, and because of that I lost sight of wh