Risa's pov:

My eyes kept opening and closing as I sighed heavily. 

Sleeping wasn't something easy to do anymore. Especially not since I started to get those nightmares again. Though not every night, they came in my dreams many times enough to make me feel horrible and feel weak, beaten and awful.

"I hate this..."

There was no denying that I didn't wanted to know what happend, what happend exactly. Even till the day of today, I get goosebumps and feel all scared as I think back at what Michael told me.

I don't want to remember it, not the details, not the situation, nothing. 

I felt myself shivering as the thought of having the nightmare today crossed my mind, making me feel all awful again.

Glancing at my phone, I sighed heavily, taking it and texting quickly.

Not even one minute and I already got a text.

From: Kibum
To: Risa

Are you having nightmares again?
Try to think of something happy, something pleasant.

From: Risa
To: Kibum

I can't... Can't you talk talk to me till I fall asleep?

Almost immediately, my phone started to ring and I quickly picked it up.

"Are you okay?" Kibum oppa's voice asked me, hinted with worry.

"No..."

Kibum oppa hummed before a short silence took place.

"... Isn't it better to tell other people about this?" Kibum oppa asked me, making me grumble.

"No, please don't tell anyone. I hate this..." 

I feel so vulnerable whenever this happens ...

"I still think you should at least tell this to Ji-"

"No!" I cut Kibum oppa off, making him humm unsatisfied.

"Fine, I won't tell him. Try and sleep." oppa said as he started to hum a lullaby.

Th emusic notes reached my ears and my muscles started to realx, but event hough with everything I wanted, it didn't help me as how jinki did it.

No matter how much I wanted to deny it, Jinki had a wonderful effecton me whenever those nightmares visited me.

Slowly I started to fall asleep.

Dreams... I was dr