Luhan's POV

I sensed that Mei Lien took a liking to Soyoung, not that I necessarily care. I don’t. The problem was Yun Yi. She didn’t seem to like it one bit, and I can’t seem to understand why. Soyoung’s mom didn’t seem to like Yun Yi; this was what Yun Yi had told me. Although I don’t see how Yun Yi could point out something like that, but she discussed it with me when we got back to my home. Soyoung’s mom was nothing but nice. Although I don’t know her much, I know enough that her mom is anything but mean, so hearing that she doesn’t like Yun Yi was sort of… doubtful.

I don’t know.

All I know is that it’s late here.

Like Literally. 2 AM.

Aren’t I supposed to be asleep by now, like how Yun Yi and Mei Lien probably are?

But I’m not.

I can’t sleep. Not at all, and that was the problem. Usually, at the latest, I would knock out by 1 AM, but it’s already 2 nearing 3 and I’m still wide awake. It bothered me even more, knowing WHY I can’t sleep. It’s all because of her. Kim Soyoung.

See, when I’m filled with guilt, I can’t sleep. That’s just who I am, but it’s only me that knows. No one else.

No one else knows that I’m easily filled with guilt and the cause of insomnia starts when I’m filled with guilt. Just me. And I’m planning to keep it like that for as long as I live.

Still, the fact that I didn’t get to apologize to her in mannerly way bothers me. I know that I was wrong on this one.

I should’ve never said those things to her when she practically saved Mei Lien’s life. Soyoung risked her life doing so, and it sure showed me a whole different prospective of how I used to see her as. She sure isn’t as how she was when we were younger. If any change at all, she had matured by far.

I sighed heavily with a loud groan. “This is annoying. Kim Soyoung, get out of my head.”

I know she couldn’t hear me. I know my parents couldn’t hear me. I know no one can hear me, but me.

I sat up and slumped my shoulders. Surely if I can’t even sleep laying down, might as well find something to do. The thing is, there is nothing to do. Either ways, I got up from my bed and made my way to my balcony, sliding the door open and stepping onto the balcony.

The light breeze blew passed me and swift through my hair. Feeling much better, I took a deep breath and headed over to the bench and sat.

This is why I don’t mind living here in Seoul, in this house and neighborhood.

When it’s night time, there are barely any lights, at least it’s like that in my neighborhood. And when there are barely any lights on, the stars shine more and the moon is broader. The night sky itself is beautiful.

Finally feeling free of my thoughts, I smiled in content. Sometimes all you really need is nature, and yourself.

Soyoung’s POV

My head aches, although it’s not too the point where it bothered me. Just a few migraines here and there. I’m fine, really, but I can’t seem to sleep. It was another sleepless night of mines in which I’m used to.

I guess the main problem is because I’ve been sleeping in so much, it’s gotten to the point where I can’t sleep well at night until it’s nearly dawn before I feel drowsiness.

I sighed and sat up, taking the small container of pills before downing two with water. My daily dose of medicine for my migraines. At least then, my migraines would decrease.

 I stretched and gave a boring yawn before walking over to my balcony and sliding open the door open. I stepped out into the cool breeze that welcomingly opened their arms for me. Immediately, a smile came upon my face. The wind felt nice and the sky was beautiful. The moon was full, also. Nothing could ruin this night.

*I should really come out here at night more. It’s beautiful.*  I let out a small sentimental laugh. I’m enjoying this more than I enjoy sleeping. New hobby?

At least now, I have something that makes me feel relaxed.  *I wonder how it will be like when winter approaches. Maybe the night sky will be brighter then.*

“You can’t sleep either?” I suddenly heard a gentle voice shout from some distant away.  I jumped upon not knowing that anyone would see me. Especially not at this hour.

I turned my head and from a distant, just across the street, I could see him smiling over at me. His eyes sparkled as the smile never left his face.

Surprisingly, I didn’t feel mad or angered. Not even the slightest, annoyed.

“Luhan?” I whispered as I really didn’t expect him to still be up.

 I was sure he read my lips because he chuckled even.

“Yeah, I’m Luhan,” he managed to joke in which I couldn’t help but feel light-hearted by the sound of it.

I’ve never heard him laugh before. For a first time, his voice sounded nice when he laughs.

 I wasn’t sure of what to say next. I felt mixed emotions inside of me. I felt a pang of joy, happiness, yet, I could feel emotions of wanting to be mad and angry, but then I didn’t and I’m not.

Effects of a beautiful night sky? I mean, look at Luhan. He’s under the night sky too, and he’s not yapping away like he usually would.

“So, can’t sleep?” he questioned once again, in which I could only nod.

 He returned the gesture with his soft grin always glued onto his face. It’s odd to see him smile for so long. I’ve never seen him smile, or at least not for more than a second or so.

“I can’t sleep either,” he confessed, his eyes now wandering off to the sky.

His voice was quiet, yet I understand why. If he went any louder, the neighborhood would have woken up. It’s funny how we’re having this… ‘conversation’ like this. Shouting at each other from across the street, yet, it’s not technically shouting.

“You want to know why?” Luhan asked.

 I was struck with curiosity. Usually, the excuse of not being able to sleep is because one isn’t tired. It’s obvious, but now that he puts it this way, I do wonder why.

“Um… Sure,” was all I managed to say. I was still trying to adapt to this unusual side of Luhan, if you know what I mean.

“I couldn’t get my mind off of you,” he managed a chuckle --

Wait, did I just hear that?!

“What?” My voice cracked. *Couldn’t get his mind off of me???*

“Don’t think wrong or anything,” he tried to clarify without a hint of panicking. For someone who sounded as if they just confessed, he’s pretty neutral about it. “What I meant was that you kept coming to mind.” Now, he looked over at me as we made eye contact. His smile slowly faded away. “I’m sorry.”

My brows furrowed. He’s sorry?

“For not thanking you properly for saving Mei Lien,” he continued.

Oh. So that’s why he’s sorry.

“I shouldn’t have said such harsh words towards you, but I can’t help but do so when someone I love gets in danger,” he continued on as he averted eyes. “When I saw her run towards the street from the window, I was worried that I’d be too late. At that time, I immediately felt hateful towards myself, but when I got out there, you were already there, being her savior. I hadn’t meant to take my anger out on you, but it just happened because I was still so shocked at what happened.”

*It still doesn’t make up for the fact that you said such words to me.* I thought as I sighed, yet, my gaze never left his face.

I don’t know what had gotten into me, but I just couldn’t look away from him. He was captivating at this moment.

“When you called me a jerk, I immediately regretted my words, but I know I can’t just take it back like that,” Luhan sighed. “I knew that I owe you big times for risking your life like that. When I saw you retreat back to your place, I felt contented that you weren’t hurt in any matter, except for the fact that your forehead was bleeding. I wanted to come over and help you with your wound, but then again, my words told me that I can’t, after what I had said to you. The next thing I know, you were on the ground. It scared me, honestly.”

*He was scared?* Curiosity seemed to peak through me once more as I arched a brow.

“Then came along your boyfriend in shining armor and dragged you to the hospital,” he sustained a laugh.

*Boyfriend? Oh, he meant Zico. Why does everyone think that he’s my boyfriend? And didn't I tell Luhan that one time that Zico was my friend?*

“Honestly, I wanted to come along, but his glare towards me told me that if I even tried, he would kill me.” Luhan’s smile came back on his face and believe it or not, I was starting to see how tired he really was. Was I really such a distraction? “I was… worried about you.”

Again, I was left speechless. It’s like he was confessing, yet, at the same time, he wasn’t. I mean, I know he’s not confessing, but he made it sound sweet, rather and of course, that was what made it feel awkward.

I didn’t even notice that he was looking over at me again before he spoke once more.

“Say something, Soyoung,” he pleaded. “You’re too quiet for the Soyoung I usually know.”

*And you’re too nice for the Luhan I came to know.* “Um… I accept your apology,” I managed to say, in which I wasn’t even sure if that was what I wanted to say.

I wasn’t quite sure if I even wanted to accept his apology, but it was like an ‘in-the-moment’ thing and so I did. Whether I’m going to regret it later in the future or not, I don’t know, but I had already accepted. I can’t change my words now.

“Do you really now?” Sarcasm was thick in his voice. “Either way, thank you, again, for saving Mei Lien. If it weren’t for you, I don’t know how things would be like now.”

“Yeah,” I muttered. A question suddenly struck me as I realized something. “Let me ask you something. Why did you easily let go of the driver? You told him off so easily that when you said those words to me, it only got me to hate you even more.”

Luhan laughed.

*He laughed again. Why is he laughing so much?* It didn’t tick me off, or at most did it even bother me. I was just… curious, once again.

“Well, it just came to be. Have you ever heard of the saying ‘When someone makes a big deal out of something, it's because they care’?” Luhan quoted. “I guess you can kind of see it in that way. I didn’t make a big deal out of it with the careless driver, did I? And then there’s you, who I let out everything on.” His grin was sweet, although it was pursed.

“When someone makes a big deal out of something, it's because they care,” I repeated, only for me to hear.

“Just because I tend to argue with you a lot, doesn’t mean I’m heartless,” he gave a graceful smile. “I have a heart too, you know?”

“Sure didn’t seem like it,” I muttered but quickly cleared my throat. “So…”

“Why couldn’t you sleep?” Luhan tried starting another conversation.

*Wow… It’s amazing how he’s talking so calmly to me.* “Minor migraines,” I replied.

For once, since I came out, Luhan finally frowned. “I’m sorry. It was from the accident, wasn’t it?”

“It’s just minor ones. I’ll be fine,” I found myself trying to assure him. Although I found it quite weird that he wasn’t yelling his head off, that didn’t mean I want him to. At least he’s showing that he cares. That was another step up.

“Do you think… maybe, we can, you know, start over?” he urged the question in which I could only blink.

I was still registering his words into my head, but it seemed like my silence took a toll on him and his frown became even thicker.

“We don’t have to. I know how much you hate me after my actions towards you --” he began before I cut him off.

“I would love to start over,” I smiled. Yup, I smiled at Luhan, which seemed to have left him speechless. If I didn’t know any better, I would’ve thought that there was something on my face with how he was looking at me. I continued, “I mean, we just got off to a bad start, right?”

“Right,” he finally managed out a breath. “So…”

“So, good night,” I laughed. I knew he wasn’t expecting that because his face totally did a double flip. “My migraine’s gone down by lots and I’m starting to feel drowsiness. I mean, I took my pills.”

From a distance, I could see his lips form an ‘O’ shape before he quickly nodded.

Honestly, that wasn’t the whole truth. Sure, that was the truth, but only part of the truth itself. Luhan looked tired. No, scratch that, he is tired. I could see it, even if I’m across the street. His eyes were heavily blinking and it was just obvious. Of course, I was just being a kind neighbor.

“You should really get your sleep then,” he continued nodding before a soft grin was formed. “Good night, Soyoung.”

I lifted my hand and gave a mini-wave in which he returned.

I retreated back into my room and slid the door shut before closing the curtains. He was still standing out there, looking over as I slid the curtains shut.

No One's POV

Was it right to feel this way? Was it right to feel that pleasant feeling as if you’ve done something good?

Just yesterday, she swore to make Luhan’s life a living hell. Just earlier today, she vented things out onto Zico, bawling her eyes out about the situation, but now, here she was, lying in bed after accepting his apology and even wanting to start new with him.

If it even makes sense, she was friendly to him. But that doesn’t apply just to her side.

Luhan was the same. He was friendly to her too.

Does that make sense anymore?

Soyoung sighed and stared up at her ceiling. She wasn’t lying when she told him that she was starting to feel the drowsiness kick in. She was dead serious, but she couldn’t help but wonder; What if she never took her pills? If she was still out there now, what would’ve happened?

*Maybe another conversation would’ve happened.* She couldn’t help but smile at the thought.

To be honest, she liked this side of Luhan. He was chill. He was calm. And he was… Well, smiling. She had to admit, he was more handsome when he smiles and of course, he gave off a friendly vibe.

*This is permanent, right? A new start?* she questioned herself. *He won’t become the same-old Luhan by tomorrow, right?* The thought caused her to frown for some seconds before she sighed it away. She can’t afford to be thinking such possibilities. She had to look on the bright side. *He better not, or else I would really kill him then.*

Soyoung laughed to herself.

Although it was quite odd to say that she was anticipating for tomorrow, she can’t deny that truth either. Even though they were practically at each other’s neck some days ago, she couldn’t help but want to see this change. She wanted to feel it, and if tomorrow really does mean a new start for the both of them, she was going to be looking forward to it.

She was supposed to hate him. She was supposed to despise of him. Hell, she was supposed to make his life a living hell, but not now. Not anymore, because now, Kim Soyoung was looking forward to a new fresh start with the so-called jerk named Luhan.

No one can blame a girl and her naive heart. If it happened to be, it happened to be. Emotion was never something someone could control. Common Sense.