~JaeJoong~

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As I came into the livingroom, Yunho and Junsu got up from the couch instantly and Yoochun spun around along with a glass of whisky in his hands. Kibum arrived a few seconds after and Changmin entered with a bloodbank in his hands. I sighed

"She´s not okay isnät she?" Changmin said

"Sounds more like a statement than a question" Kibum rolled his eyes

"We care you know. So how about shut that mouth of yours and let us talk this over" I sighed tiredly

Me a 500 year old vampire was feeling tired. I shook my head in disbelief

"Look a lot happened, Yuri died, Donghae reincarnated as the vampire version of Jesus and here we are, a newly transitioned vampire girlfriend who is about to tear the entire town down cause she can´t control her feelings" Kibum said

"She has feelings" Junsu said

"She´s emotional. Compassion.. love.. caring" Yunho said

"It will destroy her" Kibum said

"She will not change" I said and stared at Kibum

"You keep telling yourself that, you know the real deal Jae. She will change and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it" Kibum said

"If there is anything that I can do, I will do it. In a heartbeat" I growled angrily

"Calm down guys" Yoochun said

I swalloed hard as I glared at Kibum who just shrugged, ignoring me

"She is new to this life. Give her time" Yoochun said, trying to encourage me

"It´s because of her feelings that you cannot control her" Kibum said

"She´s not an animal to control" I said angrier this time

"That is where you keep forgetting, SHE IS AN ANIMAL, SHE IS ACTING ON HER INSTINCTS AND GOD FORBID A MURDERER TO KILL!!" Kibum said angrily

I took him by his throat and pushed him against the wall, the bookshelf broke and his glass of whisky was gone, the glass shattered

I was suddenly tossed away from Kibum and pushed to the other side of the livingroom. I looked down tto see Yumi holding onto me as she tried to prevent me from getting any closer to Kibum

"You guys need to stop. Now" Yumi said

Her face changed and her teeth disappeared

Kibum brushed off the dust and walked over to the open fire place with his hands inside his pockets

"So.. Yumi, what do you feel? We´re all dying to hear it from you cause apparently we´r ejust assuming" Kibum rolled his eyes

Yumi let go of me and was suddenly in front of Kibum. Suddenly she punched him and he landed on the table

I heard Junsu chuckle and I couldn´t even hide my own smile

"WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT FOR?!" Kibum said annoyed

"Oh, you´ll survive. You being an " She said

"Watch yourself young lady. I´m a lot older than you. You´re a puppy" Kibum gritted his teeth

Yumi raised her eyebrow at him and then turned her back on him facing us

"You´re doing okay?" Changmin asked

"I need to rest or.. sort things out but it is impossible for me to do that when all of you are yelling, screaming, talking and just picking a fight with one another"

"Sentence corrected, Kibum picking a fight" Junsu said

I chuckled

"I need to go"

She then disappeared and I sighed heavily

"I´ll go"

I ran after her, keeping my distance but her scent was strong. She stopped a few miles away from the mansion, I guess far enough for her to be away from te guys and not being able to hear her

It was already getting darker, the sun was about to set. I stopped a few feet away from her as she stared at the sunset from the cliff

"Talk to me"

She sighed

"What is there to say? I´m a bloodsucking animal that has no control of her feelings, letting it roam freely" She muttered

"You´re upset, you have everyy right to be"

"I´m more than upset Jae. I´m angry, rage, annoyed, sad, shameful, hate and then pain. But then we also have love, caring, lust, excitement and all these emotions that I can´t put my finger on" She said angrily

"Everything is heightened okay.? Until you learn how to control them, sort them out, it´ll be hard for awhile"

"And how do you sort them out? By putting them into boxes? She rolled her eyes annoyed

"No you let them out, you deal with them and you learn how to embrace it" I said as I took her hands into my own, letting her face me

"I just.. can´t help myself. I killed vampires today Jae. Even though they were not.. uhm.. good ones.. or bad or whatsoever, it is still people.. what right do I have to take their lives away?" She asked

"It lies in our nature"

"Which I hate. I killed them Jae and the feeling that rushed through me, I loved it. It was amazing.. exhilirating. And now when I think about it, I feel disgusted with myself"

"You´ll learn eventually.. to live with that" I mumbled

"Why do I have to learn to live with it? Why am I even forced to live with it?!" She said angrily

"Hey hey... it still doesn´t change who you are"

"That is long gone by now Jae" She rolled her eyes and let go of me

I grabed her arm and dragged her back as I took a hold of her, placing both of my hands on each side of her cheeks

"No, it´s not gone. Your humanity is strong Yumi. It makes you you. The vampire side, I´ll teach you how to control it. Balance it. all you have to do is to keep your humanity alive. Don´t let it slip away from you" I said

She nodded slowly, finally agreeing with me

I leaned forward to kiss her and the kiss was tender, sweet

I soon felt her hands grabbing me and in a second the kiss became more intense and I was soon pushed against a tree. She smiled, chuckling for the very first time ever since she became a vampire, the chuckle was out of happiness.. Love... curiosity .. of being with me I suppose. I let myself drown, giving myself to the desire and took a hold of Yumi and pushed her against another tree

"Jae..I can´t .. control it" She breathed

"Heightened. Every emotion. This time, it´s okay to let yourself lose control"