~Yumi~

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"What was your favorite dish when you were a human?" I asked while watching him slicing the vegetables as I was sitting on the table while looking at him lovingly

"Hmm.. I think it was this massive steak.. with barbeque sauce and potatoes"

"That sounds so not korean.."

"Well.. I've always liked kimchi so.." He shrugged while laughing

"And now you're making pasta?" I asked

"It's been awhile but I haven't forgotten the recipe so it's gonna be good" He smiled

"And are you very.. conservative?" I asked

"I grew up... centuries ago.. and.. I'm older than you.. and was raised in another century so a bit perhaps? But I adapted myself to the 21st century pretty good don't you think?"

"Well.. you're good looking and you use awfully expensive clothes if you ask me" I said

"Haha you think? I order it from Italy. Handmade, every single piece of it. Sometimes I design myself and just send it to the designer so that they can sew it for me. But we enjoy shopping" He said

"Really? I thought you were more the type of.. I don't know.. not shopping anyway" I said

"I enjoy shopping.. fashion overall actually. And music. As for Yunho and Junsu, they like exercising a lot. Especially soccer and basketball. Junsu is a gamefreak as well. Yoochun is a writer, he likes reading and writing alot as well as music, especially playing the piano. Changmin on the other hand is a bit of everything" He said

"How does it feel? Being a vampire over the years and seeing everything change?" I asked

He stopped slicing and started to wash them as he the stove and started to cook

"Hmm.. it's.. amazing. Awfully slow though and humans are actually the terrorists of this earth. We keep on destroying the earth that we live in and yet, we keep on doing so. And some are very smart.. some aren't. The culture changes all the time.. and it's sad in a way.. to see it all"

"Sad? Why?" I asked as I jumped down from the table and took a slice of a cucumber

He sighed as he started to stir in the pot

"Being a vampire brings many disadvantages. You watch your beloved ones die.. and you're all alone" He mumbled

I didn't think of that. I had never thought of that in fact. I watched JaeJoong as he kept on cooking, the silence taking over as I listened to the water boil, JaeJoong slicing and cooking for us. I then saw him walking over to the table, taking out his mp3 player and a pair of speakers and soon soft music filled the room

Loneliness, it really must be a curse right? How much pain did he have to go through? How many times did he experience loneliness in his life and yet he knows that he will feel it once again? Me...

I'm still human and for every second that keep on passing, I keep aging and one day.. I will die. Would he be able to withstand it? Would he be able to go through it again?

"What are you thinking?" He asked and walked over to me as he gave me a kiss on my forehead

"Wondering how many times you've experienced loneliness in your life" I whispered sadly

He chuckled a bit awkward before looking at me

"It's a part of my life. Being a vampire also gives you loneliness. It's a good and a bad thing" He said

"And.. thinking about us.. me.. and you.. us being together.." I whispered

"Is a good thing. I have never regretted meeting you"

"And yet you're watching me.. die" I whispered

"What?" JaeJoong asked

I sighed

"I'm slowly aging, fading, getting older. Getting closer to my death and here you are.. forever young" I said

"I'd rather age than stay like this, frozen forever" He whispered, seriousness displaying in his eyes

"But you're watching me dying. You know that right? You knew that from the beginning didn't you?" I asked slowly

He sighed

"Life is not easy and not.. fair" He mumbled

"And you know what pain you will be going through later on.. don't you?" I asked, feeling terrible for making him go through this again

"I chose this

"I wouldn't have given you the chance to choose this if I knew" I whispered

"That wouldn't change anything because we would still have feelings for each other" He said

"I would have done something different" I stuttered sadly

"Like what? Hide yourself? Ignore me? Ignore your feelings? Lie to yourself? Do you find anything that is logical in those things? Why force yourself to do something when you're unable to do so?" He asked

"I just don't want you to feel the pain.. and just.."

"I chose this, I know the consequences and .. we should just.. stop talking about this because.. it brings no good, either for me or you and it gives us unnecessary quarrels that we shouldn't have" He said

I sighed

"I know.. I'm sorry" I whispered as he embraced me

"I know you're just trying to.. protect me.. or just.. spare me the pain" he said

He pulled away and suddenly a chuckle was heard

"What's so funny?"

"Who's trying to protect who here? I'm trying to protect you from dying and you're trying to protect me from hurting. It sounds kinda funny" He said

"It's not really funny if you think about it. Because going through that.. is like going through that.. just that it's more painful and it takes more time while dying takes you a second" I said

JaeJoong nodded in agreement and sighed

"Now.. let's just have a romantic dinner and not talk about these things.." He whispered

I nodded

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After dinner, we sat down in the livingroom while listening to the soft music that was being played from the speakers and I was leaning onto his shoulder, while he was embracing me warmly. It was kinda funny to see him eating since I'd never seen anyone eating with a disgusted expression and then  a blank expression. I was on the other hand enjoying it because the food was really delicious

"What.. made you.. fall in love with Yuri?" I asked suddenly, knowing that I've been wanting to ask him this the entire evening but haven't found the right moment to do so until now

JaeJoong thought about it carefully before starting to comb my hair with his fingers, forcing my eyes to close since I was enjoying it

"She was.. at the time nice.. and caring to me. She was very loving and she made me feel like it was us against the world. She loved life in a way which I wasn't able to and she brought out sides in me which I didn't know I had. I was able to love because of her because... she made me feel something paticular for someone" He said

"Oh.."

"Which soon turned out to be a lie. My feelings were real.. her wasn't. I'm just sorry to my heart which I gave out so easily without even thinking about the ache it would feel afterwards" He said

"Do you regret it?" I asked

JaeJoong shook his head

"I don't.. because.. in a way, I gained something and I lost something"

"What did you lose?"

"I lost myself and I sacrificed my human life to be with her. I became a vampire. I gained the immortal life which brought me.. to you" He smiled and looked down on me

I smiled happily while looking back

"So no.. I don't regret it" He whispered softly which gave me chills down my spine and then he kissed me softly on my lips, embracing it carefully..