~JaeJoong~

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I stared down at her. Her petite body, her tired eyes that searched for rest. Her fragile body that was healing, her wounds that were recovering themselves. Her beautiful hair stretched out on the wide bed as I watched her sleeping, running away from the reality that I had dragged her into, my reality. My world of cruelty, my world of blood, tears, hurt and most of all, pain.

The more I thought about it, the more I started to regret it. How many times does she have to go through this until she can feel that she is safe again? How many times is she willing to sacrifice because of the love that we were feeling for each other? How long could she hold on?

I knew my answer to all of this.

I could hold on forever. I could stay in this corner forever, watching her sleep, if this was the only thing that made her calm, made her relax and running away from all the things that were happening. Knowing that she would sacrifice her life for me, for the guys and for the ones she loved, how brave wasn't she then? She's been through major things and yet, I've never heard her complain about anything. She struggles, she keeps up with it and she.. take herself through it all. How can a human realize that the world isn't normal, that supernatural things shouldn't exist and not even go mad, go nuts about all of this?

I felt myself admiring her. Admiring her for the person she is, admiring how much love she was giving to me and yet I wasn't able to give anything back except for the pain and the constant threats about her dying.

I sighed heavily as I went out of the room, closing the door and soon I transferred myself to the livingroom. I found Changmin, Yoochun, Yunho and Junsu gathered there as Kibum were probably out hunting. Or maybe he was in the basement, having some blood

"She's asleep?" Junsu asked

I nodded

"You know we can't wait much longer. We all got hurt today except you. She almost died today" Changmin said

"I'm aware of that" I whispered painfully

"We can't risking her life like this, it's not good for any of us" Yunho said

"I'm aware of that too" I said

"And we need to kill Yuri. Now" Junsu said

"I know that too"

"What's stopping you?" Yunho asked

"Yumi is"

I felt the confused eyes on me

"What do you mean?" Changmin asked

I sighed once again

"I can't.. fight without knowing that she's safe. And her being safe is with me. I can't leave her alone. I don't want to leave her alone" I said

"You can't let that stop you. You need to kill Yuri, in order to save her life" Junsu said

"I know that but.. she will try to stop me. All of us"

"Why would she do that?" Yoochun asked confused

"Cause she's afraid of losing any of us" I whispered sadly

All the guys quieten and I sighed even more. How many times have I sighed in one day?

"She's afraid of losing you? Does she really think that people always stick around?" Kibum said, entering while drinking some blood out of the bag with a straw

"People doesn't always leave" I gritted my teeth

"I'm stating facts. One day she will die and people around her will die. Nothing lasts forever, deal with it"

"Look, just because you're still mourning over the death of your beloved one, it doesn't mean that it have to end that way for her, me or anyone in this room" I said angrily

"She's just a human Jae. You keep forgetting that she has a heart that is beating, blood that is circulating in her body, oxygen that provides her engine for her system. She already has everything that she needs, what in the world do you have that she would need from you in order to survive?"

"Him loving me"

I stiffened at the weak voice from the entrance to the livingroom and she was standing there in my dress shirt, that was sleevelong in the color navy marine blue. Her hair wasn't a mess, she looked awfully beautiful

"I need him with me because he makes me feel complete. He gives me the feelings that the heart only can be felt with from someone that is able to make you feel that way. You remember love right? When you fall in love, you do things, stupid, crazy, insane things that other people don't understand but yourself" Yumi said

I swallowed hard as I listened to her

"You can't make the people feel the pain that you're feeling by hurting them. You have to get through it yourself, no one can do it for you. So don't waste your time on wanting me and JaeJoong breaking up because that won't happen. I love him too much to leave him. Being separated is like taking away oxygen"

Kibum was angry, I could tell. But I didn't care. I was totally hypnotized by the beautiful girl standing in front of me

"Maybe we should go" Changmin said slowly, a small grin appearing on his face

"You know NOTHING ABOUT ME!" Kibum shouted

"I know enough, know tha tyou're hurt. That's enough for me. Until you're able to take yourself through that, no one will be able to be around to help you. Cause it's your pain. Fight it, get through it.. and start living again" Yumi said

I saw him moving and I was in a second in front of Yumi, knowing that he would want to hurt her because his anger was getting more and more uncontrollable

I nodded at the guys who nodded back at me. In a second Yumi and I were left alone in the entire mansion. Finally some peace and quiet

I spun around and faced Yumi who smiled at me

"You left me" She accused me

"I didn't know that it was a crime to do so" I chuckled

"Now you know, take me back. Tuck me in and lie next to me and make me feel like there's nothing normal but us being together"

She laughed happily as I carried her up in my arms, moving fast and in the next second both of us were on the bed, her lying close to me and me holding her. I kissed her forehead as I felt her sighing out of happiness.

"I haven't heard you laugh in days" I whispered

"I'm sorry"

"I understand. Donghae meant a lot to you" I said

She nodded

"And I would be much worse if I lost you"

"You won't lose me"

"You're trying to convince me that you will actually kill Yuri?"

"I'm not trying to convince you. I'm assuring you"

"And if you don't come back?" She asked sadly

*Can you please not think that way?" I asked and looked at her seriously

She sighed and sat up

"Is there a difference in drinking blood directly from a human and from those donating blood that you have in your basement?" She asked

I looked at her, narrowing my eyes and then sitting up.

"Why do you ask?"

"I'm curious, besides there's a lot of questions that I haven't been able to ask you but now when we're alone, I want to take this opportunity to do so"

I scratched the back of my head

"There's a difference.. Because that blood is fresh. Directly produced from the human body and it's warmer, it makes the thrist go out but that is when our senses take over and we want more"

"Is there a way to stop it?"

I looked at her, getting more and more confused by the minute of her weird questions

"There is but I guess it's hard" I mumbled

"Is there a way.. of describing.. the feeling?"

I narroed my eyes once more

"Why these questions?"

"Can't you just.. please.. tell me...?" She asked

I sighed

"I don't know how to describe it. Maybe it's like.. when I'm kissing.. you" I whispered, shocked by my sudden comparison

"Kissing.. me?" She asked shocked

I chuckled happily, realizing that this is perfect comparison

"When I can't kiss you.. I long for you. My desires of wanting to see you grows and the more I have to wait, the more my heart starts to ache. If I can't have you, I feel like I'm fading. It's the same with blood. When I can't have it, my desires, my thrist starts to burn. The more I have to wait, the bigger grows the thirst and my senses would be uncontrollable. If I can't have blood, I'll.. rot"

"But you can't die?" She asked

"No I rot..and I become weak. Too weak to do anything. If I were to be locked somewhere, not able to get out and not having blood, my thirst would be uncontrollable and it would take me decades before I would become the person like I am right now. More hard work. And I'm sure that I would kill anyone that would cross my path" I mumbled

Suddenly Yumi leaned towards me and she took me by my neck, pulling myself over to her and she kissed me so passionately that I started to lose the control over myself. I kissed her back, grabbing her hair and we kept kissing until she was forced to stop the both of us, in order to breathe.

I watched her as her eyes smiled at me, glowing at me, making me wanting to look at her forever. She smiled at me, her lips smiling so happily that I wanted to forever, kiss her lips and never let them go

"Do something for me" She whispered

"Anything" I whispered, my lips trembling as she leaned closer

She smiled at me, playfully, happily and just when I thought she would kiss me, she leaned back again and looked at me. There was still a smile but something was wrong.

And then the scent of her blood attacked me

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~Yumi~

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I knew exactly what I was doing. Or at least I was praying that I was. I saw how his beautiful eyes changed in a second, from loving to seriousness. I dropped the small and sharp knife down onto the bed and I stretched out my arm and opened my fist where my blood was zippinh out slowly

"Drink it" I whispered lovingly

He stared at me and then I saw his eyes coming out, his teeth appearing and his black veins taking over his face. He changed into a vampire, a blood thirsty killer. My heart was pounding hard as I tried to control my breathing. He slowly leaned forward, watching my blood and suddenly he was gone. I looked around and saw him at the corner of the room, far away from me

"What.. are .. you ... doing?" He said angrily

"Wanting you to drink my blood"

"Have you gone mad?" He shouted angrily, not moving an inch and I bet he was holding his breath. I closed my left fist and looked at him

"I know what I'm doing" I whispered

"I don't think so" He gritted his teeth

He was fighting against the will , the desire of wanting to drink my blood

I got out of bed, wearing his dress shirt, my hair a bit messy, loose and I bet my entire face was glowing

"I want the entire you. Even the part of you who is a vampire, who feeds on blood, who is immortal but.. who loves me" I whispered

I saw him getting weaker by the second. I approached slowly

"I want you to be a part of me, I want to be a part of you"

"I can kill.. you" He said in pain, his voice so full of hatred against himself, for the creature that he was, for the things that he had done, for the fear of killing me

I shook my head

"I trust you"

"You shouldn't" He whispered as I got closer

"But I do" I whispered, standing in front of him

I watched him, seeing him worrying about himself not being able to control his senses, his desires, his true nature

"I accept you for the person you are. You need to do it too" I whispered

"I will never do that"

"Then I will do it for you" I whispered and leaned forward, kissing him softly on his lips

The kiss was tender, almost full of fear. As I was kissing him briefly, I was holding his hand with my right hand. Dragging him with me back to the bed and even though he responded my kiss, I felt his hesitation, his fear. I would probably hear his heart beat if it did beat. He was trembling, the entire body of his. He was more afraid than I was

I sat down on the bed once again, and he sat down in front of me, unsure of what will happen if he saw the blood again. But I had been thinking about this. He would become stronger with my blood right?

"Does your feelings have a connection with you drinking my blood?" I whispered, our eyes still being closed, whispering so close to his lips, as if we were speaking in trance

"Yes" He breathed

"How?"

He took a deep breath

"Because I love you. Because I want you so badly. Losing that.. control could kill you" He whispered, still being in pain

I swallowed

"I want you too" I whispered

He opened his eyes and looked at me

I caressed his beautiful face with my right hand as my left hand was still closed. He sighed heavily, He was giving in wasn't he?

This was my chance. I let go of him with my right hand and I then opened my left hand and raised it, making it stop between the two of us

"I trust you. Trust yourself" I whispered

"Why are you doing this?" He asked

I smiled

"I love you. By providing you this, I will be able to keep you much longer. You will be stronger and somehow it will help me.. to.. feel a bit at ease, knowing that I can help you somehow" I whispered

He swallowed hard and I saw his eyes changing and his teeth appearing once again. I had never seen him so close, his black veins stretching out from his eyes and he changed. But he was still him. I caressed his changed face, my first time touching it and my lips were trembling, my heart beating fast and I was nervous. But I wasn't going to back out

I saw him closing his eyes and then everything disappeared

But then I raised my hand, dipping my finger in it and put it on his lips. TThe blood stain was gone right away. His face changed again and I saw him hesitating, going back and forth, leaning in and then out from my hand. I waited.

And then I felt his lips against my palm and the pain after having Yuri biting me, was nothing like the feeling of JaeJoong's teeth.

I felt his sharp teeth getting into my small wound where I just cut myself but it didn't hurt. It felt better. I started to even enjoy his touch, his lips warming up the area and I could feel the entire body of his tremble as soon as he started to feed on me

And suddenly he stopped. He stopped and slowly looked up at me, not one single bloodstain around his mouth was shown and I saw him suddenly biting his finger

"Heal your wound" He whispered

I took my own finger, dipping it into his blood and swallowed it as soon as it reached my mouth and after a minute my wound was gone.

JaeJoong closed his eyes, controlling his temptation, his wish of wanting more and then his face became normal

I was suddenly attacked by his lips, his lips embracing my own, his body was close to my own. He was holding me by my neck, wanting more and more out of the kiss, and I couldn't help but to kiss back.

He pushed me softly down on the bed and I suddenly felt his hand tremble as he touched my leg, caressing it, leaving a tickling but a pleasureable feeling along the way and I felt my heart beating faster and faster. He suddenly sighed heavily, his sigh soundingl ike he was enjoying this, enjoying making my heart race from time to time, making it beat faster and then slower and then faster

And then his shirt was off. I watched the beautiful vampire in front of me. For the second time, I got to see his upper body, glowing in the dark as he had somehow turned off the light. How come I haven't noticed itearlier?

He truly was a vampire, doing things so fast that I wasn't able to keep it up.

I watched him, having the moonlight on him and I touched him slowly, letting my fingers enjoy every piece of him, his tattoos on his chest, his firm and toned body and I felt him tremble. He then leaned down, kissing me passionately, moving from my lips to my neck and then to my collarbones

I felt his fingers, entertwined with my own, plaited so perfectly that I felt like nothing was going to be the same.

Ever again