~Yumi~

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This was getting too much for me. Way too much. It was already overwhelming that my friends in the same room as me were already vampires, Donghae was also one, my world is upside down, well not only mine but the entire world if they found out that creatures such as vampires existed and now, innocent people are disappearing

I took a few steps forward and took the newspaper in my own hands as I started reading

"They're... so young.." I whispered with a voice almost too sad that it was pitiful

"I know" Yoochun said with pity

I looked up and looked at all of them

"And you have no idea who it is?" I asked

"Not anyone that we could think of" Changmin said

Suddenly Donghae's name appeared inside my head and I even gasped with shock when I thought about it. It couldn't be him.. could it? I mean.. he told me.. Although I don't know if it was true or not but I knew deep inside that he deserved a second chance just like any other person

I swallowed hard

"What's wrong? What are you thinking?" JaeJoong asked as he appeared in front of me in a second

I stared at him and it didn't take him long until he understood who I was thinking of.

"But I thought he told you.."

"But I don't know if it's true" I mumbled

"I don't know, we shouldn't accuse him" He said

"We're not. I just .. want to make sure" I mumbled

"Where can we find him?" Yunho asked, who seemed to understand that it was Donghae

"I don't.. know" I said

"Near her house perhaps?" Junsu suggested

"Junsu, Yoochun and I'll go and look around there. Changmin need to go hunt and maybe after he'll join us. You're okay staying here?" Yunho asked and looked at JaeJoong

"I've already hunted for the day so I'm cool. You go.. I'll make sure nothing will happen here"

The guys disappeared in a second and I sat down on the couch as I sighed heavily, feeling my shoulders heavier than ever. JaeJoong wasn't slow with wrapping the blanket around my body and he then sat down next to me as he looked at the newspaper

"You're worried..? You know these people?" He asked

I shook my head

"No I don't.. but it's still.. very.. frustrated.. Their families must be so worried.." I whispered sadly

JaeJoong sighed

"This might be a vampire that doesn't have his thrist under control. Yumi.. you need to understand that all vampires aren't like me and the guys. We chose this kind of lifestyle. Most vampires doesn't because their desire and the temptation.. the longing for blood.. it's too hard to resist. It took me a few decades but I managed it because I was determined. Some vampires find this life better than their human, past lives. You have to understand that some vampires.. loves to.. kill. And they don't care what will happen to those people, as long as their thirst disappears for the moment"

I looked at JaeJoong who looked at me seriously

"How was it? To fight against the thirst?" I whispered

JaeJoong sighed but it wasn't a heavy nor a light, it was as if he was trying to remember it, and yet not. JaeJoong just seemed like a very humble and modest person, a very thoughtful one and just by the look of his eyes, I could easily tell that he don't want to hurt innocent people

Of course that doesn't make up for the lives he took but.. yes, at least there was a regret and living with that regret of knowing that he had killed people for his own good, that was going to hunt him forever

"You know when you have a sore throat, and it tickles sometimes and you have to cough?" He asked

I nodded

"Imagine that feeling but instead of tickling, it burns. If I don't have enough with the amount of blood that I need, I could easily lose focus, easily analyze you, mark you, observe you and then attack you. You would be dead in 2 seconds" He said and looked at me

I swallowed hard

"In the beginning, it was as if I was fighting, swimming in the middle of nowhere and no matter how much I swam, I didn't see anything. Everyday I fought against the desire, the temptation, the lust of wanting it. Everyday was a battle. Every hour was and I had to stay focused all the time. It took me many decades before I could balance it and since I was so determined with keeping the human side and feelings of me alive, I had to be around humans but being around humans was also like playing with fire, hell. So everyday was basically a hell but every now and then, there was water that was able to distinguish the fire. But it was only once in awhile. It was easier for the guys since I was able to be there and support them. They made their own choice about wanting to hunt animals instead of humans. They didn't want to hurt innocent people, that is also why I helped them to become the vampires they are today" JaeJoong explained

"It must have been.. tough on you" I said

"You value things more when you get a second chance. Even though it is not the kind of chance you imagined, it's still a chance, You take what you get and you use it" JaeJoong said

"I'm glad.. for you" I smiled

JaeJoong looked at me and then smiled as well

"I wish I could do more to make your frustration and worry to go away" He whispered

For the second time of the night, electricity was being electrified through my body, and automatically my heart started to beat faster. My lips didn't tremble but I knew that he could easily hear my stupid heartbeats that was absolutely experts in making me feel embarrassed in front of him

"I've never heard... a heart so clear.. in so many years" He said

"Clear?" I asked

He nodded

"It's pretty.. amusing.. fascinating to hear yours. It can beat normally at first and then just speed off and then go back to being normal. It's not the same when I listen to other human's hearts" He said

"We all have the same.. just that our emotions control our beats and our personality makes us to the people we are"

JaeJoong chuckled

"So.. you never had a first love?" He asked, bringing the subject we had talked about earlier suddenly

I stared at him at first in surprise but then chuckled happily before nodding

"I did once but I can hardly remember it. It was more of a ... puppy love" I said

"Really?" He said and laughed hardly

I rolled my eyes

JaeJoong's laugh was getting inked inside of my head, saving it in my memory so that I could remember how he laughed. His happy expression when he was happily laughing or smiling, just feeling the warmth coming from that face made me warm. I couldn't help but to feel at ease, as if everything was complete at the moment

JaeJoong suddenly raised his hand and started to play with my hair, moving to the ear, putting the hair behind it and then he played with my jawline a bit before letting out a deep breath

"What's wrong?"

He shook his head

"Nothing" He whispered

Nothing was being said, nothing was able to be said. I was in daze as I felt his touch onto my own, wanting the warmth from the tip of his fingers as I took a deep breath and closed my eyes as he was caressing me softly

Suddenly the warmth became stronger and stronger, as if he was very close to me and I opened my eyes only to see him close. I felt him close and he was close. I could almost feel him breathing onto my skin, my lips trembled like crazy as he came closer

Easily as he brushed his lips onto my own, I felt another round of electricity going through my body, the explosion in my stomach of the butterflies roaming around, giving me the ticklish feeling, the hair on my arms were standing on their top and I felt comfortable chills, warm ones down the spine as I gasped in aw

His lips embraced my own and I was in total trance as I felt myself kissing back. If this wasn't was I had been longed for, my body been longing for without me knowing, then how could I explain the feelings that just appeared and was exploding inside of me?

My desire of wanting to kiss him became stronger, the will deep down, all the way to the bones, all the nerves, every little part of my body was becoming excited as I felt the warmth of his and my own being in total balance

I lost the control over my body as I embraced every bit of him, not realizing that this is what I have been wanting to do, this was the answer to why I had become so warm for so many times, why my heart beated so crazily everytime he touched me and why my heart always started a streetrace when he complimented me, when he touched me, when he gave his warmth to me

If this explosion of warmth, excitement, desire and lust  was mixed and also happiness, wasn't this love then?