~JaeJoong~

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"She fell asleep?" I asked as soon as Yunho stepped inside the kitchen

"I don't know. I left awhile ago. You're bringing that to her room?" Yunho asked

I nodded

I was carrying a tray, along with two bowls, one bowl of rice, one bowl with the kimchi stew and 1 glass of orange juice. I quickly arrived at her door and silently knocked on it and when I heard her soft voice telling me to enter, I saw her sitting in her bed, looking a bit more tired than earlier

"Hey.. still hungry?" I asked

"A little. You brought it?"

I saw her face lighten up and she smiled widely as I made my way over. I couldn't help but to feel a bit weird on the inside as I watched her being so happy for having me cooking food for her. Was it really that special?

"It's really warm" I smiled

She nodded briefly and smiled at me and for a moment I couldn't help but to see the happines displaying in her eyes. It was sincere wasn't it?

I took one spoon full of the stew and blew on it before I turned myself to her. She chuckled a bit which caused me to wonder why

"Something funny?" I asked

"You're.. cooling it down for me. Feeding me. I feel like I'm a baby" She shrugged

I rolled my eyes jokingly

She chuckled again and when I had feeded her, I waited for her response

She was chewing slowly, I don't know if it was because she wanted to tease me or if she wanted me to wait for her response. Anyhow, it was a bit nervewrecking

"It's.. really good. really really good" She said and looked at me

"You're not lying or you?"

"Do I look like a liar to you?" She asked

I started to laugh which caused her to laugh with me as well.

When we were done, or I mean her, we leaned against the bedframe, stretching out our legs as we stared blankly ahead. There wasn't anything to talk about at the moment and yet it felt very comfortable, just this silence

"Is there a human memory.. that is very special to you?"

She broke the silence as she wrapped herself in the blanket, waiting for my response. The question was a bit sudden but not in an uncomfortable way

"I don't know. I've never thought about that"

"How about thinking about it now?" She asked happily

I chuckled

"When I first.. held hands with a girl. I was about 10 years old and knew nothing about it then. But I had seen mom and dad doing it so I did it too. I think it was kind of unique"

She laughed

"How about you? Your best memory?" She asked

She let out the heaviest sigh I've ever heard her do and I couldn't help but to look at her. She started to play with her fingers nervously, as if she was in panic

"Yumi? I'm sorry did I.."

"No.. it's not that" She said and laughed a bit awkwardly

I looked at her as I tried to understand what kind of memory would be so painful to her that would cause her to be like this

"My best memory... I don't think there's any special memory that I could name the best one"

I looked at her as she chuckled sadly

"I have lots of sad memories though" She said

"Sad memories?"

"Yes. My parents.. biological ones... well... they just.. loved alcohol and drugs more than they loved me. To the extent that it killed them. Not that I complain.. because I have a wonderful aunt and uncle taking care of me now. But I've never said the word mommy or daddy in my entire life" She shrugged

I was quick to see tear that was falling from the left corner of her left eye. I caught it with my index finger as I couldn't help but to look at her the same time. She looked so sad

"But.. I'm happy now though. I'm happy with what I have and I'm happy with the life I'm living now" She smiled

I smiled back at her but I couldn't really see if that smile was forced or if it was sincere

"I'm sure your aunt and uncle are happy with you" I said

"I hope they are" She said a bit unsure

"They are.. trust me" I smiled

The silence took over once again and we looked straight forward once more, not knowing what to say or do at the moment. 9 minutes passed and suddenly I felt something heavy on my left shoulder. I looked down to see Yumi leaning against me and to judge by her deep breathing, it seemed like she had fallen asleep

Joy was found inside of me as she was sleeping onto my shoulder. I'm pretty sure that if I had a heart that was beating at the moment, I'm sure it would beat a lot faster now..